it has been awhile,
and i kind of dont have any pent-up emotions as of now.
so i'll start off with this:

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1. when do you feel happiest?
when i wake up in the morning knowing that i have no deadlines on my back, or i dont have anything pending. seriously i cant remember when was the last time this happened because when i wake up, i spend about five minutes unconsciously going through the things i have to do. so yeah i really cant remember when was the last time i felt that way. with school for the next five months, i'm not sure when that is gonna happen :X

2. how do you take care of yourself?
i'm quite terrble at this, because sometimes honestly it comes to a point that i enjoy being masochistic to myself. as much as i want to discuss my fetishes, i actually enjoy pushing myself. i still remember a little over 1.5 months ago when i had a major submission, i literally spent the day from 7 in front of the computer doing my work and i didnt eat anything except to gulp down copious amount sugarless tea. and i was so delirious from the lack of sleep and sugar, my knees almost gave way from walking to the toilet. still, i insisted on not eating with the excuse that i would waste time. but yeah back to taking care of myself, one thing i would never forgo is sleep because it's when i let myself relax. unless i am really up to my neck with work, sleep will always > schoolwork. i make sure i get at least 6-7 hours of sleep every night.

3. are you internally (by yourself) or externally (by others) motivated?
i believe that i am internally motivated but more often than not, i fail myself. so only when people stress me and push me, do i really get things done. sometimes i'm really too easy on myself.

4. what do you do for fun?
okay if you mean a daily thing, i actually spend most of my free time catching up with tv shows, american ones at that. i dont know, maybe its the scriptwriting that gets me. sometimes you watch a show and you get enlightenment. i'm strange, sometimes it takes a fictional character on tv to tell me things :X i would love to draw and take photos, but its so much easier to nuah at home.

5. what intimidates you?
right now? the future or rather the lack-thereof.

6. what is something you’re proud of?
i dont like complimenting myself because i think its strange. but i guess building myself up to be a person who isnt scared of speaking. i used to be very timid but it came to a point that no one is getting the point across so i stood up and worked my way to speak out.

7. finish this sentence. I never _____________
sleep alone. i need my big stuffed lamb! :D

8. favorite vacation spot.
from my childhood memories, upstate in Whistler, Canada. i was never there to ski but there's something about sitting on the freezing porch in my pajamas and my jacket at 4am (due to jetlag) and watch the snowing landscape come to life.

9. today is a (rate from 1 – 10).
its only 1044am as of now so its hard to judge. but because i'm 98% done with my schoolwork and have a party to go to tonight, its a 7.5!

10. finish this sentence. If you knew me really well you’d know _____________
everything i've said in this entry and wouldnt find anything new.

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so i'm done with work,
and it has been a crazy two weeks.
i mean seriously school has started for only two weeks
and it really feels like hell.

have another major submission two weeks from now
with the time period dotted with intermittent projects.
i almost wish that it was february already but i know that there's still a long way to go.
so i'm not planning to do that last bit of the technical bit of submission today,
that will wait to sunday.

so i'm gonna nuah the rest of the day away and maybe stuff my mouth as usual.
watch my shows and pray that i dont get stuck to my chair.
huiting's 21st later tonight, and i hope it'll be smooth?
cos i havent seen alot of people in a long time,
and i hope awkwardness doesnt take over.
i've had enough of people asking when i'm gonna enlist,
and them telling me to work for my napfa and blahblah.
YES I GEDDIT, get off my back.

a mad week next week,
but maybe i'll get a breath or a break.
yeah who am i kidding?

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