yay.. i had a wondeful piano session just now. i managed to finish playing a duet with my teacher on the same piano, we played 'waltz of the flowers'. it turned out quite nice, except i kept losing my notes and had to keep stopping to scrutinize and read my notes. so technically, if u take a recording and played it at a uber speed, it would actually sound like normal. all the same, i thoroughly enjoyed my piano lesson. yay! haiz.. i guess i better practice that song again, since i only have that song now. must find time. :)

my class had a mass changing uniform dae. but sadly, i was unable to change with the other guys in my class. and i was NOT planning to wear a pinafore. =.= yea, tho catholic high is st nicks' brother school, i'm not going to stoop so low into crossdressing just to change my uniform. anyway.. as i was saying, basically all the girls in my class who was not from an chij school changed their uniform. huiting changed into the smart cedar girl's uniform(though it looked a little too big on her, but nonetheless still quite nice on her. she should wear it forever!), aggie changed into the st nicks pinafore(quite goodlooking, but dont look exactly like a st nicks gal.), natalie changed into st nicks( she looks like a perfect specimum of a st nicks gal. if u look in the dictionary for 'st nicks' u might just see her there. :p), weivien into the ijtp uniform (quite nice also..), nellyn into a st nicks pinafore(quite ok), and suqing tried the mgs pinafore(but too long!). and the bestlooking was sasha, she wore her sister's anderson gal pinafore. and she looked damn good! though the skirt seemed a little short, it was quite nice also. because i think she fits snugly into the pinafore. she should just wear that uniform until she changes into the ajc uniform. and poor me, looking on jealously because i cannot change. its not that i dont want but the cituation didnt allow me to do so. i can wear andy's uniform but he's too tall, the length doesnt matter to me but the length of my shorts might just very well look very obscene on him. william was wearing half aj and half his own and i think his clothes too big. and yi de's pants is too short and i think his waist is smaller then mine so i can barely fit into it and the end of his pants will be higher den my ankle. so it would be damn guai lor. i wanna wear the AI guys' uniform, if you know how to wear it, it would look very smart. and the colour also very different and matchy. so it would be quite nice. i dont mind bukit panjang or anderson actually because its all white so it would be quite smart also. but....nevermind.

oh and speaking of uniforms. i went to try on the aj uniform and the uncle very weird lor. my waist is so obviously 29 then he keep forcing me to wear the 33 inch waist. i kept insisting, ' UNCLE, my shorts is size 32 but i button the sides so it would fit my waist snugly.' 'NO! my waist is NOT 33!!' and the worst thing is that he didnt believe me so he suddenly came up in front of me and tugged my shorts up. i was flabbergasted lor! i almost shouted molest. i just kept prying his hands off my shorts. then i said,' yaya! my shorts should be 31. THANK YOU UNCLE!' and i just started adjusting my shorts back. he's damn weird lor. and he wanted me to try the 31inch pants. den i asked him,' uncle, i bring to toilet to change is it?' and he gamely said,' no need! change here can already.' zkai and i were shocked. take out our shorts in front of all the girls changing on the other side of the room?! its not like i was wearing pe shorts inside. i kept insisting, 'uncle! no need lar.. can test by neck..' so i demonstrated by folding the pants into half and wraped ard me neck to prove to him that i can fit into 30. if i wear 33, my pantrs would be slipping off my butt everytime i walk. and the shirt is very thick.. *urghh*

oh yea.. had a wonderful dream yesterday. its not dirty or what.. just pure innocent comfort and love. *dreamy eyes* haiz.. i felt so happy this morning after i woke up. so happy!! i kept thinking of it the whole day and i wass on cloud nine the whole day. and today turned out great also. i guess love does have an positive impact. couldnt stop smiling today. didnt see the person today. haiz.. but nevermind, when i see that person's smile, my heart will just melt. :)

am i in love? i really dunno.. *smile*

yesterday's choir was quite disasterous. haiyo.. my voice still havent recovered yet and huiting, meirong and xianhui just had to stand on the other side. den zkai and i wanted to stand with them den we realised that they had moved all the way to the opposite side. den suddenly mr kwei got angry bcos of our slipshod mixing into quartet. den i just got very moody and push myself to the back because there were no guys there. and i ended up standing next to a j2 soprano on my left and a j1 soprano on my right. >.< den my voice would be ultra obvious. and the worst thing i found out was that chinguan was standing in front of me! what the?! &%$# and the whole time i kept breaking my notes. oh no.. and he heard it all, i tink.. i'm so screwed. nevermind, shall try to make my voice recover.

i spent so much on my new pencilcase.. haiz.. nevermind, shall live on bread and water for the next month. :p

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its been a long time since i blogged so here goes nothing..

feeling very fustrated today. some people say that over this two days, yesterday and today, i've been dragging my feet around looking very listless. well, i just have this immense bag of problems raised on top of my head and its adding weight to my steps. i guess you just happen to catch a little glimpse of what i'm feeling. but i will survive and i wont raise the white flag of surrender. problems are just a passing trial that is imprinted on my path. i'm not gonna stop and wait for someone to save me. God helps those who help themselves. and i'm going to help myself. God will make a way when there seems to be no way. but its up to me to make the first step out of this quicksand. hmm.. i'm just walking in circles comforting myself. if you really wanna help, when u see me around school, give me a smile to let me know you care. it helps.. :)

[DISCLIAMER: IF YOU FIND CHORAL SINGING BORING OR IS ABSOLUTELY RUBBISH TO YOU, PLEASE SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH. IT WILL BORE YOU!]

haiz.. i'm so upset bcos i lost my voice today. zkai's curse yesterday on my voice did indeed work. (evil pig!!) but its not the normal type of voice hoarseness bcos my normal voice still sounds ok but i tink i tried too hard. i tried competing in the absolute high notes but nothing came out. i was so shocked bcos it seemed to be an overnight thing as the day before i was still singing that note. haiz.. so sad. den all the people around me kept reaching higher and higher notes. so diu1 lian3. the worse thing was after that we were singing in quartet position and i pushed myself too hard bcos there was this very pro soprano next to me that kept giving perfect clear notes. and huiting was standing next to me so i kept pushing myself to sing louder and louder. and the worst things were that malcolm was directly opposite me so he would know if i happen to sing wrongly or catch me laughing and that mark tan was just next to me so he could hear my singing very clearly. very stress. den huiting suddenly asked me to change wif her so she could hear the pro soprano to catch her notes so i ended up standing next to xianhui. and i found out that she's not the president of cedar choir for nothing. she's quite good, her alto voice is very pure and is very pleasant to listen to. standing next to her gave me even more stress. in the end, i ended up shutting up and only hitting the lowest notes. haiz.. i'm such a failure.

but its ok! for tomorrow's practice i shall buck up so i can sing really nicely for practice.
btw, sori michelle! its not that i'm scared of you, its just that we purposely made a quartet (me, zkai, xian hui and huiting) so we wanted to stand together. i'm not scared of you lar.. haha.

anyway, the four of us shall fight with the music com so we can b together for the single quartet singing. bcos we are so procative and are taking the initiative. we shall previal! let's fight for our rights, (insert lame name for our quartet group)!

hmm.. i suddenly feel so much better after talking and ranting about today's events. my problems are all gone now and so is my headache! blogging does help. :p

tomorrow shall be a fantastic and fantabulous day! God bless all..

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took forever just to come up with this first line. but i'll have to start some way anyway.

aaron came to aj yesterday to appeal into aj through choir. yay! and he got auditioned by mr kwei and he is Bass 1. so surprising lor.. i really thought that aaron would be in the tenor section but surprise surprise! and we finally mixed into quartet position yesterday! i'm so happy, i've always loved singing in a quartet because you get to hear how you really sound like and how others sing. when mr kwei said to mix around, i immediately rushed over to the other side of the choir room to stand with huiting. haha. so embarassing to be the first one from the bass to move.. too enthusiastic le. den soon after, zkai stood next to me because he was a tenor and aggie came to stand next to me. if only huiting had learnt to sing her part or i could sing with her but then again, i think it would be weird for a soprano and bass to sing together. i'm sure it will sound kinda weird. throughout gaude i sort of kept sniggering because i heard aggie *very loudly* and being from an all boy's choir for 4 years, it was kinda funny to hear a female chorus right next to me. so i kept stopping to snigger the first time we sang through it. and worst of all, i was in the first row and the rest of the basses were kinda distant so my stopping was quite obvious. haha.. but standing in between other sections really exposed me to the art of harmonisation. especially that aggie was an alto so i could hear the blending quite distinctly. plus zkai was beside me too so i could hear the bass part harmonising with his tenor part. the mysteries of music. i really got a sense of calmness and a genuine sense of happiness and i'm quite sure that my face had some sort of natural glow after that.

music does mysterious things to people.
it can temporarily bring one to another realm to escape reality, even if its only for a few minutes.
i was happy.

today's mass civics video was very interesting. it had some kind of deja vu effect on me. at the beginning of the show, when i heard that oldish song being played, i somehow knew that 'lollipop' was going to come up next, and i even knew that its was gonna be the chordettes version. you may find this insignificant and superificial but it just seemed to strike me deeply. the show sort of touched me deep inside, somewhere i never knew existed. hmm.. interesting.

i found the ogf survival guide very interesting. it included some stuff that really changed my perception of ogf. i initally thought that it wouldnt be much of anything and it would only include general guidelines but it branched out beyond that comfort zone. and the various icebreaker games in a detailed format reminded me when i handed up my choir camp proposal with much details to denis. i sense that someone has spent lots of time to compile this booklet. i appluad that person because from experience, i know that its not easy to do that. bravo!

its interesting how i can now dislike the people i used to think were nice and how i can start to find that the people i used to dislike are nice.

i'm not judging you, i have no right to.

i guess its back to the acting stage again..

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hmm.. now that ken, zkai, daphne have all gone of to freeze in the iceskating rink ALL the way at jurong east.

sent ruixi off at the airport yesterday night. so sad.. luckily i made a fairly decent looking card for ruixi, if i had a little more time i could have made a very good one like sylvia's. at least i had some standard. and the little football clip was very last minute because i found that it matched perfectly with the card. but sylvia's card is really very nice leh! *jealous eye* i tink the class will definitely miss her bubbly personality in school. if i were her, i would feel so lonely because she doesnt have any family there and she would be studying by herself and her mom and uncle who would just follow her there would be leaving when her school term starts. and her school starts on thurs like ours. i would just feel so lonely and foreign if i'm alone studying overseas. well, ruixi would be coming back to s'pore during her term breaks so i tink we would meet up again with the class i guess though i think it would take some effort because the class would be split up.(hope not!) anyway, it was nice to meet up with a few others of the class again..

anyway, after that i was supposed to meet the fundirees at plaza sing for dinner at cafe cartel. i was supposed to meet them at 5pm but by the time i got on to the train back from changi airport, it was already 1845-1900 so i was already late. :p but anyway, made my way to plaza sing with agie, sylvia and yannyee. THANKS! if it wasnt for you three, i would have been so absolutely bored on my way there and ditzy me might have gotten lost at the station trying to find my way to plaza sing. by the time i went to cafe cartel, everyone had finished their icecream and ken had finished almost finished his waffles. and i havent eaten yet so my poor stomach was growling like crazy. soon after, the gals left because tiffany had a curfew(?!) so the only ones left at the table were the guys, fangqing, marie and shannon. after awhile, i couldnt stand my hunger and i left to find sylvia, agie and yannyee to have my little dinner also. (sori ken, pangsehed you!)

after dinner, agie had to leave because she had to go home to take her medication. den the remaining three of us went to starbucks too have...coffee. =.= but along the way, i followed the girls to look at shoes. haiz.. luckily i had previous experiences shopping with my mom so i kinda knew what to expect. i did so badly, i didnt manage to persuade sylvia and yannyee to buy a pair of shoes at least, which was quite ke xi because the shoes really looked very good on them. never respect my taste lor.. see what happened in the end? no new shoes. :p after that, we finally went to starbucks to have a drink. and i had a very yummilicious caramel latte. i was so sad that the starbucks in seattle didnt bring their christmassy flavours back to singapore because i absolutely loved the gingerbread latte and pumpkin latte. thank goodness i bought a bottle of gingerbread syrup back home but then again, when would i be able to make a good frothy latte at home with a double shot of espresso? haiz.. miss my gingerbread latte. >.<

it was just weird that both andy and yannyee were wearing matching pink tops with blue skirt(for yannyee) and jeans( for andy). and when they were talking, they kept referring to 'we', 'us', 'together' and the ultimate, 'our house'. o.O too bad for them that i was extra alert yesterday so i managed to extract these salacious information. GOT YOU!!

don't bother trying cover anything up already.. agie, sylvia and i know better! *wink*

its very interesting to see how some people can be so different in front of other people. in front of normal friends, the person sometimes act very nonchalant and indifferent but suddenly in front of 'certain' people, the person suddenly becomes very joyful and talkative. wow.. a total 360degree turn. it doesnt give me a very good impression of that person.. but i am in no position to judge that person so i will pretend that i have never seen what i saw.. (only one person knows who i'm talking about)

i've decided not to succumb to my emotions anymore and keep them safely hidden and bottled up. i aint gonna cry again..

cant wait for ogf workshop so i can release some of this pent-up stress by..dancing!

who in the world is melissa?!

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i'm praying for you..


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You are sensitive and indecisive at times.
You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it.
You love your house and family.
You are a gifted artist as well.
Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you.
Your life is always full of changes.
You are very tidy person.
There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends.
Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible.
You love excitement and create it wherever you go.
You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.
You are not a romantic person by nature.
It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt.

You don't think much about yourself.

http://www.drawahouse.com/

Hmm quite true..

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so many things are happening simultaneously around me. and i'm just caught in the middle. sometimes, i dunno how to act anymore. i'm sick and tired of acting like i'm so happy and joyful. i try my best not to spread my sadness around because i dont like to see other people sad. i would rather keep in then transcend it to others. i'm torn between so many things at the same time. there's only one of me. do not expect too much. i can only try my best.

i guess i was wrong. i made a terrible mistake by allowing the two rivers to merge. i thought that it was great but..little did i know that it led to so many problems. i thot..i thot.. it was just a mistake right from the start. i didnt know..

dont let this stop you to where u should go. i will always be there should you need me.

though ajc has given me so much, i will never forget cat high. after all, it has been my home for ten years. i will never forget the people that have left such an impression on me. you all have left a never washable footprint in the beaches of my life. though sometimes i may seem to have continued on, the truth is that i have never forgotten you all. i will always hold you close to my heart and soul. keep on dreaming guys..

i dont want such a predicament to fall on me. but i have no choice. i will just have to deal with it the best of my ability. stay strong and fight to the end, my loved one. my prayers are with you..


I wish that someone out there can help me share this burden..
To tell me what o do..
To follow..
To learn from..
Someone i can lean on..
Someone to understand what i'm going through..

Is Anyone Out There?

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just came back after a particularly great day. whether today had any problems or horrid things, i would still like to believe that it is a GREAT day! i'm so happy today..

AJChoir is the best. one of the good things is that joel lim came back to the choir. i was so scared of him lor.. haha. because he used to be the prez of ajchoir and a bass 2 also. i was so scared that he would correct me over 'karimata' because he was standing between jingkang and i. but he really helped alot in the end because i didnt attend the 'karimata' sectionals so i'm kinda still clueless about it. :p but in the end, jingkang taught joel most of the songs, and i helped a teensy little bit also. and i found out that he was going with us to xiamen for the worldchoirgames. YAY! i cant wait to sing our lovely songs. and joel is quite ditzy, there was one part whereby there were running notes for the bass part and joel said that he couldnt hear us sing the running notes so in order to help him sing, jingkang had to point out all the running notes one by one to him whilst singing, and the three of us kept laughing. however the most touching part was when the j2s gave us little good-luck cards for all the j1s and lollipops. and they sang a song to wish us all the best. i was so touched.. *sniffsniff* you dont see ebchoir doing such a thing. its not the superficial things such as the card or the lollipop but the thought of wishing us good luckthat counts.

it has been a long time since i shed my tears..

i just wanna wish these people that have made such a great impression in my life all the best;

from my og; fundir

• Daphne (thanks for the cookies and the magnet, i really appreciate it. i dont think i would ever eat it like the things that shannon and marie gave, i still havent eaten it yet. i will always remember you! we'll see each other in aj ok?)
• Tiffany (all the best to you! stay happy and crazy always! esp to certain ppl.. :p)
• Jiahui (you are the first ogmate i've talked on msn so you're very impt in my life! :) good luck to you in ur future endeavours..)
• Shalini (here's wishing you all the best! we'll see each other in council immersion again, ok?)

from my class, the fun n fantabulous 19'06;

• Yann Yee (ms badminton, i hope you find ur little bit of sky in your dream poly ok?)
• Huiting (my BESTIE, i'll see you in choir ok? sop rulz! i wanna hear your happy screams all the way from AI ok? and we can go for ogf worshop together! yay..)
• Andy (mr funnyone, go and trash everyone else in sp ok? i hope to get my eyes checked by you! :p)
• Rui Xi (here's wishing you all the best in Aussie! 19'06 will definitely MISS you.. must visit us sometime ok?)
• Nellyn (stop being so meticulous k! its scaring me.. haha. i hope to see you in aj)
• Yi De (you also! dont be so hardworking ok? all the best, buddy..)
• Sasha (all the best sashh! i want to see you in a proper cca in aj ok?)
• Esme (i wanna see the 'esme face', i havent seen yet! all the best..)
• Abigail (i wanna wish you all the best later for ur results.. i know you can do it!)
• Su Qin (woot! pink bees rock.. haha. all the best!)
• Sylvia (all the best girl.. i hope to see you in aj soon)
• Yi Hui (yes, you do look like a st nicks girl! remember to come for choir auditions, ms musical. you have a great voice!)
• Nurfarnana (netball! must take same combi ok? see you in aj!)
• Agapera (odac! i love your handwriting.. all the best kkz!)
• Xueshi (i do hope you get ur place in the tourism module.. but nevertheless, good luck!)
• Guangyi (join choir join choir! dont worry! i know that you will do very well..)
• Agnessa (i wish you all the best ok, agie? i want to see you in choir again.. then maybe we can do a duet! yea.. haha. all the best gal)

to all my bests! all the best for your results.. Go the Distance guys and gals! and we'll make it!

- Keep to this path - Don't wander off - Then I'm sure we'll make it - We'll Make It.Eternal Loop

hope we can sing this song again at o2.

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gosh, i love my class. todae was cross-country for ajc. and it was one of the best days i had ever had. i love my PDG! i woke up this morning surprisingly wellrested but yet i hoped that i could stay in bed because i was uber comfortable in the vrook of my strategically well-placed pillows, but i still had to wake up. by the time i got into the car, it was already 0650 and i still had to follow my dad to fetch my brother.. whilst on the way to school, i kept dosing off in the car.. :p me=lazy pig.. haha. and i reached school at a very late time of 0715, if i were still in cat high, i would have been late le. and i was rushing so much until i thought someone was absent in school today because he had a fever last nite. so i thot he was sick todae, but in the end, i found out that he came.. haha. sori man.. :p ANYWAY, school was much of a breeze except i found that i cant exactly msg ppl easily in class, its just not something i usually do.. during my break, being the pe rep, i had to go to the pe room to collect the other blue coupons and i ended waiting there till the end of the period. >.< and when i rushed back to cass thinking that i was late for econs tutorial, i found my classmates taking pictures..without me! so sad.. :'( but i managed to squeeze myself in one of the pics.. :)

after school, our class laoed our yu sheng.. so fun and yummy.. and in the end, we made a giant mess on the table.. :p and i can never forget agnessa and yihui changed their school uni and posed for pics.. they looked so cute.. haha. :)

oh and i walked all the way on the macritchie guys trail.. i'm so lazy! haha. but surprisingly, i reached the main road quite early and it was quite surprising, to me at least. someone please remind me that the entrance of the macritchie park does not mean that you're close to the end, its just psychoing you. i always fall for the trick. >.< when i reach the entrance i always think that i'm going to finish and then i start to sprint and i quickly tire and the i realise that there's still a LONG way from the end. and my end no was near the 400 range.. so embarrassing. and i must remember to wear thick cushions on my feet because i wore the wrong shoes today thinking that it wouldnt cause alot of trouble (how absolutely stupid of me!!), and i kept prying my legs out of the rocks and the thin and flat sole meant every rock was made very obvious to me that it was there, and i almost twisted my ankle like....200 times. ok, maybe that's an exaggeration but you get my drift.

thanks for cheering for me at the end, girls! i feel so....touched.. *sniffsniff* so loud somemore.

the class went to eat at pastamania at j8. luckily yannyee had reserved tables for us the day before otherwise we wouldnt find enough tables to fit the whole class.. kudos to yannyee for good future-planning. and of course we took lots of photos also. after dinner we decided to take neoprints as a class so everyone went to the 4th level. and yannyee just had to leave to meet some OTHER friends. :p at the top, there were some people who were reluctant to take neoprints so we decided that we should take pics with abi's digicam so all of us could get a copy and it would be quite big. anyway, we couldnt fit 16-17 ppl in one neoprint booth. the class pictures we took were fantastic anyway. :p

in the end, yihui, ellyn, sylvia, agapera, su qin, rui xi, agnessa weivien, natalie and i went to take neoprints. it was so crazy and fun and the pictures turned out great. *and in one pic i had a giant flower planted on my head. :p*

i love my PDG! keep in touch ok guys.. hope yannyee and andy find their little piece of heaven in poly and i hope that ruixi will have a great time studying in aust! all the best guys.. hope the rest would be able to stay in ajc and take the same combi again and be in the same class AGAIN! you all really made my day.. i love you guys!



i miss 19'06 already. *sniff*

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