why make it strong to break it once again?

date: Friday, September 28, 2007
time:10:32 AM

oh, look what you've done
you've made a fool of everyone
oh well, it seems likes such fun
until you lose what you had won

if you realised.
it's always been you.
but you dont give a hoot.

dance the rain away.
and risk the sky falling on you.

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date: Wednesday, September 26, 2007
time:9:44 PM

Wild Horses
Natasha Bedingfield

Ooooh

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Hmm, wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

Ooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

Yeah, oh oh, ye-yeah

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared

Oooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I wanna run too
Oooh oh oh oh
Recklessly emboundening myself before you
I wanna open up my heart
Tell him how I feel, ooh ooh

Oooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses

Ooh ooooh ooh ooh ye-yeah yeah oohh
I wanna run with the wild horses, ooooh

dont usually post lyrics.
but here it goes with this new song (:

INSPIRATION
comes with walking a pace slower
jogging alone with the wind
cos then it keeps the mind clear
then i understand
and maybe learn something new about myself

slow down;
then the world seems a little more right
waiting aint seem so bad.

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date: Tuesday, September 25, 2007
time:7:57 PM

in this sweet madness
may you find some comfort here

i like to think tigers are cute.
YEAA (:

yes.
finally sitting down for a well thoughtout entry.
tho i know that halfway through this i'll start losing my train of thought and start talking rubbish again.
eeeps.

youknow.
i didnt realise that tonight was mooncakefestival.
sure, i sorta got the hint that it was coming
but didnt know until i got reminded last night.
at like two in the morning. :S

its funny.
cos just when everyone is busy gallivanting off to parks
or stuffing themselves with moooncakes
i'm stuck on my desk studying and eating climatic hazards
i sooo have to get the 'burning-notes-and-drinking-them' idea out of my head.
cos there's just waaaaay too much geog notes
i'll die first before i can finish drinking it.

its just not feasible.
damn it.
but the only thing i can do is hope those horrible people having fun with sparklers accidently burn their lanterns too.
or somehow they'll burn the school computers and erase all existing copies of the exampapers.
den they'll have as much fun as i am.
rawrs.

ohh.
and i got myself hooked on the songs on the spiritedaway soundtrack.
cos it's gives a sense of familiarity.
and it reminds me of the nicenice play! music.
its weird that i can get high and euphoric on orchestral music.
i thought that usually comes with only too much chocolate.
or sometimes the lack of it.

and i'm in a state of irritableness
cos i cant find piano scores for myneighbourtotoro
at least one of the songs that is.
the only one i can find is a duet version.
and its not like i have four hands or some psycho grade 5637583759 pianist who can play a 20part song.

i tell you.
wait till the exams are over.
i'll go shopping like mad.
cos i have my eye on a certain num shirt printed with linus from snoopy
ahhh this is bad.
but my fetish for graphic tees is taking over me.
:S

& darren had me hooked on seankingston.
i dont really like it or hate it
but the tune keeps looping in my head now.
EEEPS.

this is bad.

COFFEEDATE.
or just a little time with people i love.
to get those geogconcepts out of my mind.
just for that hour.
hey, everyone needs a cuppa starbucks once in a while. (:

it seems that i've grown up.
maybe not.
i know for a reason why i'm like that.
but inside i know i've changed.
but towards certain things i've woken up.
but i know that i've always loved you.

it hasnt changed.
but like mead, it gets stronger as it ages.
maybe not stronger, but deeper and something more than ordinary.
i'll wait, and give you my all.

OHMAHGAWD.
emokid alert.
now its on to my geog.
cos i have to be motivated.
or else i'll feel damn guilty
cos mshuang and mrsong is putting in so damn much.
you gotta do what you have to do.

even if it means burning all those notes
and attempting to finish drinking them.
:S

to act and damn the consequences
how i wish it could be that easy

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date: Saturday, September 22, 2007
time:10:41 PM

HAPPY SEXAAY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY
to my favourite HULACIOUSPSYCHOLAUGHTER boy. (:

muchlooove(:

oh.
and i get suuuuper high on play! songs urgh.
cos i can looop 'one winged angel' and get hyper all over again.
what happened to dozens of encores at esplanade eh.
SHENMUE! :D

i miss that one the most rawrs.

ARNIEROTH!

you've beeen sorely missed.
c'mon back to singapore!

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date:
time:12:17 AM

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY
TO ALAN
(:

see?
i'm nice.
:D

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date: Friday, September 21, 2007
time:5:47 PM

i'll see you up there.

i like having fever
not.

cos it made my whole day drowsy and irritated.
and suddenly everyone wants to fall sick.
including teachers eeps.
but at least mshuang was really helpful.
cos i suddenly understand things that i wouldnt even if i stared at it for the next 4638756385920304 hours.

mooooody.
that i know maybe caused by more than just fever.
cos i couldnt sleep last night.
bouts of dreams that made me go bonkers.
cos i aint wanna tink of such things.

this is bad.
cos i told myself to GET A GRIP.
it only stopped when yongyong gave me a reality check.
yea, that was good.
didnt feel good but it woke me up.

okie.
i'll find someone to whine to.
rawrs.

but its getting better.
cos i keep picturing jasmine giving me the TSKTSKTSK look.
:S

STAY&STANDSTRONG.
believe in what you have been believing in. (:
tho it feels empty not writing those two pages before i sleep.

rmb the people around you.
den you wont feel so lonely. (:

YOUKNOW.
i was super pissed when i was training home from school.
cos i saw someone with my red&white polo.
i was like %#&%#%*^#(&*%^#* under my breath.
and i specially squeezed in the carraige to glare at the person.
that guy was TOTALLY ruining the shirt larh.
cos he was too damn fugly.
with ugly jeans and ugly hair.

ARGH.
now that definitely made me perk up.
wanted to rip the shirt off him (not in a good way)
cos its just too good for him rawrs.

eeks.
i seem to be making a habit of ripping shirts of people in trains.
cos this girl was wearing a spiritedaway sootballs tee.
and she was standing just next to me when i was train-ing home yest.
i was like 'i want that shirt!'

ohwait.
she's a girl.
rawrs nevermind.

HAPPYSEXAAYSEVENTEENTH HUIMIN! :D
much looove

gosh.
i tink i take nice pictures of special moments. (:
the peekture would have been purrfect if yongyong wasnt grinning there.
HAHA JOKING! XD

till then,
i'll wait right here and count my blessings.

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date: Thursday, September 20, 2007
time:10:14 PM

i'll paint you those clouds (: if you'd let me.

darn it.
i feel damn guilty for going out today larh.
but i keep telling myself that its for a gooood cause.
cos i'm celebrating a niiiice person's birthday. (:
tho its two days away eeps.

yesyes.
i spend lots on time on the present.
and i tink its prettay.
cos i really like the ribbon and the box (that is SOO not a shoebox)
so its finally a load of my back.
to see my product given away.
no regrets heh.
& i'll make the hawtboy guilty.
HAHA.

and to make up for lost time.
i did flip through notes for transnational companies/impacts.
so at least i did a leeetle bit of work.
however miniscule it is.
but nevermind,
i enjoyed myself today. (:

no arty photos.
but i tink my elmo tee is nicenice.
thankyouverymuch.
i dont care what people say but i loooove it. :D
so now i'm eagerly waiting for our sesamestreetgang shirts to be made.
but till then, i'd settle for this shirt. (:

ooo digressing.
lunched and made bears for alan's sis.
onedayoneday,
i shall be tempted to make my own HAHA.
cos the idea is totally great.
coupled with the hugs and kisses to each bear.
though someone got kinda pissed with the manager.
meeeps.

gelared.
with plenty of whippedcream for me.
and my first taste of rum&raisin.
didnt taste that alcoholic to me heh.
maybe i'm just desperate to get some alcohol in me.
CHRISTABEL, I NEED ALCOHOL BADLY! :D

gosh.
i cant be turning to an alcoholic uncle lols.

birthdayboyy(:

and then we dhlballoon-ed. (:
thanks to louis and a few random really nice people.
we got to ride it for free hoho.
but it was really something.
cos i've never sat in it before, or rather stand.
and i've always seen it wondering how it was like.
esp those times when the costume comm kept going to arabstreet :X
and i'm proud to say that my fear of heights was diminished with my strong will.
or lack of sanity that is.
cos i was a-ohkay for the ride.
plus there was a guide to tell me about singapore haha.

prettay skylines.
with fantastic company.
(:

random talks.
at starbucks.
interesting and insightful *cough*
& i'm still waiting for my christmas starbucks blend.
but december still takes long to come.
cos we've planned like soooo much activities.
BOOOO.

ANYWAYS
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ALAN(:
two days in advance heh.

hope you do like ur present.
(and its prettay box and ribbon ((: )
cos under each butterfly knot holds something different.
take ur time to discover.

i'm glad that i cleared my mind up.
cos i chooose to follow my heart.
maybe i'm pushing it.
some things just got to take their time.
then finally it'll bloom,
i know it well.

guowei.
take your time.
at least you got answers.

let time be witness.
cos you've alr got it off ur chest.
you promised urself, keep to it.
you've done what you can.
so hit the books, you aint got anymore excuses.

just look up and pray.
cos things will turn out right. (:
oneday, you'll be able to paint those pretty clouds together.
but until then, you've got to do what you have to do.
mere two weeks hiatus.
*kicks bum away from computer*

thirdparty conversation talking to myself.
elmo-hood here i come! (:
*hugs*

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date: Wednesday, September 19, 2007
time:9:03 PM

GREY'S ANATOMY!
GUOWEILOVESYOUU

and i think i'm in love with katherine heigel or dr. izzie stevens.
now she can be my doctor anytime. (:
den i'll swear to make more trips to the hospital for healthcheckups (:

yesyes.
TENTHIRTY tonight.
and i shall be sufficiently satisfied for this week. (:

gaigai
tomorrow! :D

'you're not my knight in shining whatever.'
meredith (:

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date: Thursday, September 13, 2007
time:10:47 PM

walk on the sand untrodden

fat, so what.
i'm inspired!
cos i've got a whole tub of ben&jerry's sitting in my freezer.
and it comes in the happyflavour of BUTTERPECAN.
five minutes of pure pleasure.

but i'll be wasting my effort.
cos i jogged yesterday (:
despite it being five in the afternoon i jogged.
though its then that i realised that my stamina is real bad.
RAWRS.

but i probably gained everything i lost.
BOO!

there's something wrong with my computer.
cant seem to load anything.
like seriously.
i cant even go to websites and i'm stuck with this page.
argh, darn it.

i need to run amok down the streets.
and stop reading up on albedos and outscourcing of production companies.
cos it getting on my nerves.
but reading up ahead actually helped me today
cos i could answer the drq.
so maybe the shortrun benefits are quite good.
but it leaves me hungry and scouting around for food.
again.

*scream*
then maybe i'll see straight
and this world will seem right again
but its to appreciate what you have now. (:

ELMOOOOOO(:
and so goes the thirdparty talking monster.

let me run around.
and watch this world spin past.
cos then time stops.
and maybe so does reality.
cos you mean much more than you know it. (:

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date: Wednesday, September 12, 2007
time:10:24 PM

that's for you to define it for me.

MCSTEAMY AHAH.
TOO MANY PEOPLE HAVE SEEN ME NAKED.
ADULTEROUS WHORE.
omgawd, grey's anatomy is goood.
it speaks my lingo baybee.

and its full of emo lines and situations
with highly charged drama.
i like melodramatic shows with plenty of tears and complex production processes.

:S
geog rawrs.

OHMYGAWD.
i just saw my goodnessknowshowlong eyecandy on the net.
gosh it's been long. :/

something chris asked me to do
okie here goes.

the rules:
a. each player starts with seven random facts/habits about themselves.
b. people who are tagged need to write their own blog post with their seven things as well as these rules
c. you need to tag seven others and list their names on your blog.

one: i like elmo and i'm totally pro-sesamestreet cos i think that sesamestreet is good fer us. and i just read up that sesamestreet is totally for introduction of cultures and ruling out discrimination. omgawd, i tink i'll write a research paper on this. yesyes, kiv.

two: i like paper. eeks, but true. that's why i want to work at prints during my holidays but its horrible that they dont hire students who are having their vacation. so its uber irritating. but i like paper cos some come in nice shades and textures. that's why sometimes i can spend two hours and loads of cash in an arts store. :X

three: i like green, 'nuff said.

four: i forgive too easily. cant get angry for long, at most i'll bitch a person to death but that's as far as it goes.

five: i like my jackets. if i had my way, and the money i would have bought like a million other jackets. but for now, i like my erh measly collection of about erhh five-six jackets? (:

six: i like to make plans to jog. but most of the times it doesnt work out. am like sometimes too lazy. but when i actually do jog, its really quite extreme, considering that i go jogging at fouram in the morning for like an hour. :X

seven: i tend to blow things waaay out of proportions. most of the time actually. dont believe me, ask eugene and zhengkai. i'm sure they've got plenty of evidence. but sometimes, i tink too much and makes things seem like the world's coming to an end, but in the end, nothing happens. guess it comes from being a pessimist. but surprisingly enough, when people do the same to me, i somehow become all realistic and burst their bubbles and set the things straight.

guess i watch too much grey's anatomy and drama.
eeps.

ohgosh.
stupid horoscope says that financial crisis will pass me.
what rubbish.
GAH.

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date: Tuesday, September 11, 2007
time:9:27 AM

people have a life.
so dont screw up yours
thinking that you need one.
cos we're all humans.

only you can decide what you want to do.
whatever happens, take that responsibility.
do what you think is right.
its up to you now.

no one can stop you.

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date: Friday, September 07, 2007
time:10:42 AM

those silver lined clouds.

there we go.
the happy silver lining on clouds that we saw on the way to dinnner yest.
for those people who are bugging me for it.
tho i tink its prettayprettay.

screw my sleeping patterns.
cos it gets from bad to worse.
cos my body wants to make up for the sleeping time lost.
so it sleeps early and wakes up late.

but shall be plenty productive.
cos i'll finish up the noticeboard today for one. (:

oh.
and as a successful camwhore,
one must take every opportunity to camwhore.
even if it means doing crazy antics in front of cheeko uncles.
cant help it when there're cute people like me around.

okie.
i'm INSPIRED.
i shall attempt to make weird teeshirts that spell weird words.
next time we go out.

i want to be ELMO!

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date: Thursday, September 06, 2007
time:9:10 PM

no importa (:

helooooo.
happy time with little sleep.
but screw this cos my life is more important.
' GET A GRIP '
at least i keep my mind rational and on track.
sure it messed up alot of things.
but i keep my faith.

thankgawd for the people around me.
maybe it was necessary,
to clear that irritating foggy mist.
take it in ur stride. (:

you did it today.
why not tomorrow.

happystudyingsession (:
cos we lunched and had plenty to bitch about in pastamania.
with the slurping of pasta and kickings under the table.
it sure brought made an impression to the people around us.
i like random laughters.
HOHOHO.

happy studying at gerald's house.
managed to get some work done.
butbut there was plenty of firing of cannons and shooting random windows.
plus the wildlife of the house is very interesting.
with one ferocious and well, *cough*-craved wild animal.
plus that animal is UNCLEANgst.

HAH.
plus camwhoring makes me smile too. (:
and i tink i make good kissing peektures too.

okie.
i shall no longer be that mad crazy dog. (:

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date: Tuesday, September 04, 2007
time:10:38 AM

slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
ut then if you're so smart, tell me
why are you still so afraid?

vienna - billyjoel

cos that's a nicenice song.
and i looped it on and on for 2 hours i tink.
wanted to put it here but i know xianhui will probably kill me if i do it.
oneday oneday.

lunched with four other crazed people yesterday.
cos i had a touch of having a life HEH.
but if taking neoprints means that i have life.
then i dont mind taking it everyday. (:

VIENNA WAITS FOR YOUU :D
oops, sorry random lyrics from looping the song.

but its nice (:

am glad that yesterday was plenty productive.
cos i finished designing the noticeboard.
with plenty of help from
GWEN/SHER/SWEE/ME(:

muchthanks&loooove.
cos now the board looks nicenice.

omg.
i have outrageous who need help.
lots of it.

thankgawd i'm plenty nice and innocent.

i forsee shoppingshopping soon.
cos i finally got my num card.
so when i buy clothes from there i dont feel as guilty.
YEAA :D

am going to grab christabel for shopping.
den sipping beer and gossiping till fouram in the morning.
YEAYEAYEA :D

lucks to myself.
i'm gonna chop off my hair tomorrow.
cos its getting irritating
and i see everyone has cut their hair already.
but its time to treat myself well once in a while.
HOHO.

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date: Sunday, September 02, 2007
time:1:00 PM

when a flower blooms, does it mean it is going to die?
the end of a life is beautiful i feel that way for a moment.
when a flower blooms, i sit facing the flower
and think about its life.

watched singaPOPera last night
cos my aunt's the main organiser for the event so i got tickets (:
and i found out that it was a medley of musicals (:

plus dicklee showcased almost all of his musicals so it was nice (:

brought back loads of memories.
cos i've been sorta watching musicals as i grow up
from chang&eng to a twist of fate to forbidden city.
and i still remember that i cried at my first musical chang&eng cos it was just so sad.
showcasing emmayong, she sang the song that i cried to.
brings back plenty of memories.

its like telling a story of madeinsingapore musicals.
the development and the music.

AHHH (:

though the costumes were a little kooky but
still the music was food for the soul.
plus the nus theatre hall is nicenice (:

okie
that's it, i want to go nus. (:

now 'fried rice paradise, nasi goreng very nice'
is stuck in my head.

i want nathan hartono's cd.
cos i tink he sings nice songs.

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date: Saturday, September 01, 2007
time:4:02 PM

HAPPYMYNEIGHBOURTOTOROCATBUSBAG!
i want this bag too! :D

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date:
time:3:23 PM

cos that's the only thing that's keeping me going and dreaming

someone tell me i have a life.
NOW.

but i managed to stay up to complete my geog tutorial. :D
and i like staying up to four.
cos sometimes chatting keeps me awake.
and messaging too, to random sexaysisters who happen to be awake.

okieokie.
a BIIIIG thanks to that sweepinggreenbrooomsboy henry for passing me songs.
see?
i thanked you already so you better pay me back my five macaroooons.
HAHA.

weird dreams.
cos i know that soooner or later i'll have dejavu.
it seems overly real.
but seeing the bigman in a large purple tee and shorty denims is kinda disturbing.
eeeeks.

nah.
i dont forsee that happenning anytime soon. :X

ohkay i'm sad.
that i couldnt go for christabel and yuklum's concert tonight.
cos i have to attend some dicklee concert thing at nus.
it better be goooood cos i need to be entertained. (:

i promise myself to complete all outstanding work tonight.
at least just finish geog. :X

i'll have a happyhappyexcitinglife when all exams are over.
cos i want a BELATED HALLOWEEEN CUM CHRISTMAS PARTY.
and christabel and i shall be successful planners just like for a wedding.
well, you never what can happen in a party
so i'll keep the wedding decor at hand (:

i'm suddenly craving for nice brewerks.
cos now that i'm legal,
i want to drink nicenice flavoured beer.
and actually find out what's so nice about beer :X

i want nerdysuspenders and a happytotoroshirt!

cos then i'll be laughing like a cheshire cat.
okieokie i'm going to set some people to buy this for christmas.
i've got an elmo shirt already so i want this nicenice grey totoro one now.
YEAA (:

let's go for a walk,
holding hands with the moon and the stars.

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yawns