okay i admit it,
i'm still pretty much obsessed.
(:

so pardon me if anymore peektures of b&j's cont to appear.
i've been looking through boston photos from last year,
and i keep lingering of those at the vermont b&j factory! (:
was reading up on wikipedia of ben&jerry's,
didnt really find out much that i didnt already know.
flavours and history-wise anyways.

but obsessive-me did a search on google,
and came upon a blog of a scoopy.
exciting stuff oookay!
actually, maybe i'm just excited about the tees,
omgggaaad got so many colour okay!
:DDDD

ITS HERE!
just pop over and take a loook.
*JUMPS AROUND HAPPILY*
i'll take all of them except the hot pink one hah.
but then again..
(:

i know it a little stalker-ish and voyeur-ish
but she seems really nice and there's quite alot of stuff about scoopy's.
so i dont think its weird to post the link hah.
JUST in case you're wondering hahaha.

though i'm slightly worried about training mms.
the population of guys there is like 2%?
and there prob wont be any guys at this training.
so its gonna be hard to break the ice.
but hey, its the happy people company!
so three cheers hahahahahaha.

EXCITED MUCH!
TOMORRROW HAHAHA.


okay am off for lunch with the family!
ciao (:

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PEACE LOVE & ICECREAM.
<3

i dont know why i'm so happy,
but i'm beaming from ear to ear!
:DD

if you dont already know,
i'm gonna be a b&j scoopy at an outlet near you!
havent been posted/asked where i'd be scooping at
but at least i've got the job hohoho.
will let ya all know where i'll be scooping at.

and to think this morning i was all upset
cos i didnt get the text by twelve.
they said that they'll give a text latest by the morning so
when i didnt get it by then, i thought it was kinda over.
cos i thought that i over-talked and scared everyone yest :X
but hohohohoho, i got it at 1235 haha!

i've been smiling nonstop,
just in case you're wondering. (:
my mom said i'll prob start bitching about it
after two weeks into the job.
yeah, actually i just might be mms,
but no matter, i'm still gonna love it all the way through.

boy, am i incoherent!

fyi, i'm also in for the colourful scoopy shirts hahaha!
superficial me hah.
training starts on mon so i'll prob be busy,
though i'll still try to catch up with the classmates for havaiana shopping.
i'm really excited okay,
and its a first for me to be excited for a weekday (or a week).

ohyeah.
sorry to ham-ster, winnie and rich if i was pissy this morning.
badbadbad pfft.


i cant wait to start studying recipes!
(yes i know, go on and roll your eyes)
:D

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sun in the sky
you know how i feel.
breeze drifting on by
you know how i feel.
its a new dawn, its a new day.

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i've been blasting michaelbuble's songs the entire day.
in my room, on the train.
and hellyeah, i'm feeling good.
*quotes from song*

i think i'm feeling good hohoho.
mornings these past few days have been spent chasing season3 of sytycd
or so you think you can dance for those who dont know.
no surprise, but it makes me want to pick up dancing!
and excel in contemporary work so i can meet miamichaels for once in my life.
she's a genius i tell you.
*swoooons*
(((((:

waderobson's cool too,
but the emotions in contemporary just hits me at the right spots!
and it helps that you'll get a kickass body once you're a professional hah.

okayokay back to buble,
there's something about his covers songs that's really nice!
hence the change of the blog song yays.

bnj interview today went oookaaay.
i dont know if i'm getting paranoid but they asked me waaay lesser questions
(compared to the other four in my audition group anyways)
i mean, hellooo i have past-times too and i do things with friends too!
those other girls arent the only ones who go out with friends pfft.
so in response, i tried to squeeze as much juice whenever i was asked a question.
or as my brother says, i was juicing as much i could from my oratorical skills.
arghh, i just hope it went well and i get the scoopy job.

*jabs phone and waits for the text msg*
by tomorrow morning!


or else
rich and winrose will hear me whine the entire afternoon when we go out.
pfft!

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Stars shining bright above you, night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you".
Birds singing in the sycamore tree, "Dream a little dream of me".
Say "nighty-night" and kiss me. Just hold me tight and tell me you'll missme.
While I'm alone and blue as can be, dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.
Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.
Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.
Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.
Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.

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ohmygawd.
bnj audition tomorrow!
:S

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a little teaser!
mainly because i'm having so much problems trying to upload them on facebook.
i swear, facebook has something against me and my photos.
maybe its because i have too many unglam photos of everyone hah
pfft!

banana bread baked cos i'm bored.
so that's what i'm having for breakfast today!

meeting the girls in a bit!
(:

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okaay,
i've finally finished my *&#)*#*^$*) casestudy of lasalle collegeofthearts.
and i found out erm yesterday, that my holidays already started!
friday was the last day of school wooo.

and finishing the essay means that i'm done with all work
for the next seven weeks! :D
nothing planned yet, but i just hope bnj goes through!


for the coming week,
tuesday: (window) shopping with tingers and rich
thurs: bnj interview with winrose
friday: singaporeartsmueseum with brother
(:

PLEASE LET ME GET THE JOB AT BNJ! :DDD

okay fiiine,
i'll attempt to plan sushi soon ahahah.
and blog/upload photos of fireworks and lasalle!

ooo.
victoria seceret's is on!
heidiklum is hot stufff.
and guowei wants an iphone hahaha.


its takes two to clap,
and the only thing you're doing with ur hands is picking ur nose.


edit//
i want a 'baked' hoodie
which i just saw on the marthastewart show!

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tired much.
sighs and laughs.

let's recap:

0610h - groggily woke up.
0630h - gooey marshmallows, okay good.
0631h - blames knife.
0632h - omg gooey brownie centre, bad.
0635h - pops into oven.
0650h - still gooey, absolutely uncutable.
0710h - STILL GOOEY PANICS!
0722h - in train (without brownie pfft)
0806h - watches crit.
0807h - laughs at rich.
0808h - got shushed, listens (very) attentively.
1000h - very bored, reads 'phantom of the opera'.
1220h - crit ends, bitches with sherry.
1230h - meets tash.
1320h - got lost so went to venezia.
1430h - bused to town for windowshopping.
1440h - was this close to buying (another) springfield top.
1515h - popped by heeren to stare at erm clothes.
1530h - pulled to num by shaun to erm stare at guys(?!)
1625h - promised to buy havaianas with shaun and tingers.
1710h - bus-ed down to dempsey hill.
1722h - getting terribly lost looking for b&j.
1740h - found b&j at last! *phew*
1745h - meets tab to get application forms.
1759h - fills up forms and gossips about ****
1827h - stills gossips and talks about sensitive issue hurhur.
1829h - tries to arrange three a4 papers in an aesthetic way, but to no avail.
1845h - buys a scoop of 'chocolate therapy' to pass time.
1912h - interview hoho!
1940h - leaves b&j and makes arduous journey back to bus-stop.
2000h - finally arrives at shaw centre.
2010h - detours to zara for window shopping! (HAHAHAHA)

gosh tiredtired.
i dont even know how can get studying done when my test is on friday pfft.


guowei counts his blessings,
and thanks for the littlest things that made his day.
(:

(erm twin not included)

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but don't run out on your faith
'cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
is just a grain of sand

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blahdom and bah-ville.
looks like this course aint peaches and cream after all.
crit didnt go as well as expected,
especially when the first three before me will prob snag all the As.

corrinemay's journey eased this morning's nerves tho.
so much thanks!

and my friend thought that i was gonna cry,
considering that the only compliment i got was that i could sell my product and speak clearly.
that was the very first comment, and my plane got bombed after that.
maybe succumbing to tears might have saved my dignity
tho i'm surprised my lecturer asked me later if i was okay.
:/

i pray that moderation works in my favour,
so that my array of Cs (which i'll probably get) will at least be pushed up.

*sigh*
*sighs more*

i came home and i slept for four hours straight,
this i blame for the sleepless night i had last night.
on a better note, i'm baking later tonight
so i'm hoping the chocolate fumes brings back the euphoria.
i'm moving to prove da evil overlords wrong with friday's test and monday's essay.


SIGH.

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after much consideration,
i'm rejecting the school trip to malacca.

its just weird after being on so many choir trips,
you expect every trip to involve a competition.
other than family trips,
there suddenly seems so much time in between.
its supposed to be a three day two night thing,
and i actually asked myself, 'what am i going to do with so much time?!'
talk and look at buildings?!?!
what happened to the pressure and crying?!

*shrugs*

my lecturers are gonna be quite upset,
(dont ask me why)
and they're gonna use that whole scholarship thing against me AGAIN.
scholarship this scholarship that.
i just hope it doesnt affect my grades come tuesday.

guowei wants to dabble in the arts
and do artyfarty things like watching ballet in the stars
(which was like three weeks ago pfft)
that being said, i've got to start my jogging regime again.
its time to work off my excuses for eating due to stress.

and he needs newclothes and a haircut.
must prepare for fall whaaaat!
so buying shorts (which i will still buy) is out of the question haha.
you're so spring/summer 08.
out you go!


maybe its you,
but maybe its me.
i gave up, or did i?

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a random thing i read in bed
cos i couldnt get to sleep.
(at three in the morning)

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looking at a baby.
why do we smile when we see a baby?
perhaps its because we see someone without all the defensive layers,
someone whose smile for us we know to be fully genuine and without guile.
and that baby-soul inside us smiles wistfully in recognition
- hanoch mccarly, chicken soup for the soul


interesting aint it?
i guess now i kind of realise that i always smile at babies.
(:

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yeah i know.
i've been whining nonstop about tuesday.
i dont know why either rawrs.

watching friday's crit was kinda scary,
cos from the erm amateurs, the standard was pretty good.
passionate despite the occasional wordslips.
but i was bitching with the lecturers after crit,
and they said that the standard was pretty good.
and from interim, there has been a great improvement.

and so,
i'm scared!
for the first time actually.
maybe its cos i have too much to prepare.
(of which i dont seem to be preparing at all)
):

the weirdest thing is that
the only thing that is keeping me sane(r)
is what i'm wearing for the presenation!
i know, roll ur eyes.
i curse them to roll far far away whahahaha.

thankgawd for my insane friends
with their rubbish (relationship) problems,
somehow they make me feel more of myself than some dead olympic gymnast.
sorry, had no idea where that came from hahaha.

completely random,
but the few of us came early on friday before class at three.
just to watch phantom which i brought to sch!
yesh, it was all arranged (:
and we fell in love with 'all i ask of you' again and again.
you could literally hear all the girls sigh.
and the place started to pack up with people from the next class.
(all while there was solemn crit ouside our room)
HAHAHA WEIRD PEOPLE WE ARE.

but fun-ness ensues next week
once crit ends yays!
- baking brownies for wednesday
- island creamery for lunch (yes i can survive on icecream tyvm)
- drinking outing one of the days
- ARGH REALISED THAT I HAVE EXTRA TEST ON FRIDAY !!!
- fireworks on saturday, finally an eh.em outing i can go for
- botanical gardens aka facepainting-that-bel-will-go-for on sunday

and hopefully that doesnt end.
with that musicshop job
(HELLOOO B&J ?!?!?!?)
lets hope it makes it all better.


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i know i had some studio time booked
but i couldnt find a killer hook
now you've gone and raised the bar right up
nothing i write is ever good enough.
- these words

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i know its kinda late
but i just watched phantom of the opera, the latest movie version.
it was quite an inexpensive buy for the dvd
so why not?

i thought the storyline wasnt very good.
i'd go for the original novel anyday.
tho the choice of character cast was pretty good,
pretty and goodlooking with gerardbutler, miranda richardson and jennifer ellison.
but butler seemed to only look good in the mask lols.

the singing by the cast was only mediocre at best,
with occasional bursts of goodness.
i fell in love with the running theme of 'angel of music'.
the tune was very predictable but the duet between the girls was much nicer
compared to the sarahbrightman version.
and i loved 'masquerade'.
there's something that is quite charming about the song.
(:



for the record,
i managed to keep my jacket on from home to school today,
amidst the summer heat we've been having.
so its quite a feat to me hahahaha.
i'm pleased with myself!

plus tashbaby bought darkchocolate for lecture today!
and i finished like erm half of the entire bar by myself.
i guess that explains the sorethroat now bah.

am worried about crit,
prob because of all the competition in that particular slot.
(damn the stupid people from moe coming to sit in for the day's crit!)
and maybe knowing this, it kinda throws me off my ship.
i forsee a storm coming, but by sheer determination i'm gonna beat it with my control over the weather!
*rolls white aka storm's eyes and flicks white hair*

speaking of hair,
i need a fierce haircut cos i hate mine now pfft.
i'm this close to chopping it alll over!
actually i wont chop it all off gah.
colour and cut with limited finances pfft.
sighh as long as i get it done by tues mms.
argh crit!


i bet you dont know,
or care.

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YES.
*pooof* and its all over.

primertwo is unofficially over
with documentation being handed up this afternoon.
knowing me, i just had to get everything done the night before,
even if i had to sleep at erm five in the morning.
but i was done (i think) by two!
so i was pweety proud of myself,
tho i was kinda dissatisfied with my process sketches,
i really cant be bothered anymore.
two/three weeks of this has drained me enough bah.

morning was spent helping other people with work.
and when someone started to semi-hurl (playfully i tink) insults,
i was this close to breaking point.
it was 'hey bitch you dont wanna piss me off now'
if i started, there would have been plenty of tears and war wounds on the other side of the room.

sighh this is weird and getting to me.
and i have no idea why.
classmates have been telling me throughout the different primers
that this course is a mistake.
usually i take it with a bucket of salt and blame the intensity and stress of work,
but today, i was the first one who said it.

it was kinda weird.
cos i'm getting paranoid and very competitive.
maybe its a good thing but my mood takes a swing too.
even druggie said, 'hey, you'll be nicer once crit is over right?'
i was momentarily dumbfounded.

its like having ur head under water,
you struggle to keep urself afloat.
you know you can, but upon seeing how far the next island is,
and trying to support ur mates around you who are drowning.
you start to wonder when who's gonna hold you when ur legs get tired.

tash and shaun struck a chord today.
they admitted that they're selfcentred people,
thats why they can click.
and i realised (of which they agreed) that i'm selfsacrificial.
somehow, they seem feed on me, for lack of a better expression.
i mean look, the first to offer to help and the one with the gummies (katjes!!)

and then i get rubbish like butterfly.
ohwait, i mean fuckerfly cos so&so was with the dog today.
usually i feed on simple stuff like just a glance,
but today whether on purpose or not, it just killed me.
okay, no one knows what i'm talking about but yeah,
i just have to retch this out.

sometimes the things that keep me sane in school,
they are the ones who make me go bonkers.
and when its gone, i'll miss it.
wow, some psycho fun in my brain today.

i swear that i seem to be on weed sometimes,
i'm even tempted to follow to butterfactory on saturday gosh.

but am kinda resolved now.
i'm gonna blow the minds off fuckerfly, dog, wind for crit.
bring ur biggest guns bitches,
cos guowei's in da house and he aint going down without a fight.
prepare those defences well cos they're coming down on tuesday.
and when they say ur best friends are ur worst enemies?
watchout, cos i'm gonna be your best friend and shoot you down.

tueday.
eat your heart out bitches!


on a completely different (and less scary and happier) note,
ikea meatballs and cheesecake are looove
more so the 90cent stuffed toys.
i even talked to that little blue elephant on the way home.
(:


***

ain't no headlights on the road tonight
if you had another night to give,
i'll have another night to live,
but your never gonna see me cry the last goodbye.

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fierce much?
pre-national day was dressed up in red.
yes, no longer in a jc nor secschool,
we decided to keep up the reds in our outfits.
and i tink we dress much better than those red folk in the govt schools anyways.

fierce much definitely.
(:

it was really odd to travel in the train that day.
but it was definitely less cheesy cos there were members of the public wearing red too.
so it wasnt thaaat bad.
and if you were wearing black (undies) that day?
shame on you hah.


yeah, colourcoding and getting stares from everyone?
(we had eight of us walking sidebyside down corridors)
thats how we keep ourselves alive amidst chaos and tearing laughs.

work?
thats an understatement.
you never learn to love photoshop this much when you have it for submission.
and this entry's to all the little busybodies who love to squirrel their way in my life,
cos they dont even bother to ask how's everything.




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you know what?
i'm finally starting to understand the trend.
weird as it may seem,
it has worked out for two i've seen.


ohh.
damn you pencils!
i cast a spell on you to draw plans for me!

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just thinking.

small penthouse with roof space.
gorgeous white sheets with unfinished dark concrete walls.
a gamboling puppy.


and a white swing tied to the patio
with a glass of milk.
(:

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i'm lazy to upload mah photos
HAHAHAHA.
so THAT'S for coming here just to ogle at pictures.


it has been a pretty long week.
probably because of friday's submission.
emotional rollercoasters, a little more intense than the one last week.
wow, i make it sound like a disease.

luckily i started my model early,
which is probably a week ago on sunday.
and thats why i kind of got it done by wednesday
so i had more time to do other things like erm folding triangles.
dont ask, just continue reading.

and it (kinda) helped that i didnt go to sch on tues/thurs.
so i had time to recuperate and make love to my model.
pens and all HAHAHAHA.
but this time, i used eighteen of them?
lols hah.

okay private joke.

i guess now its coming to an end,
it doesnt seem so bad anymore.
but coming to school on friday was quite the wet blanket,
cos i finally realised the overacheiever in me has kind of dissipated.
seeing other models that a notch higher is like a slap in my face.
i'm not immensely un-proud of my work,
but upon seeing what others have done. *shrugs*

plus mrchieu mentioned that a certain part of my model is too open.
and he told me to cover it with something.
its hard to explain in words,
but i dont like having last minute projects and expect it to be completed when submission's a few hours away.
maybe jc has helped with time-management so yeah.
but knowing its uncompleted and told to do something to it,
i freaked out.
:X

ultimately its done,
transparent planes used to provide a facade to the area.
sighhhhh.
just praying hard for documentation and crit.
damn, i cant believe mine's on the first day.
):

gathering last night was good.
shows that sometimes the company's just enough.
(non-inclusive of scandalous topics)
it has been waaay too long!
photos update in the next entry hah.

oh before i forget,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR HOWHEEJIN!


thanks msbel for talking last night,
even if it was just listening to me talking.
priorities, its time to let go and work them out.
& i pray i get the b&j job for the coming hols!
(:

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