HELLO(:
am at the airport.
rawrs stuuuuupid queue.

HAHA.
cold weather at 0 to 3 degrees are coming YESS(:
just in time to catch the autumn leaves.
happyjackets loooove. (:


but rawrs.
i need to book for a good pickmeup.
like now.



bye singapore(:
for now, time would seem to stop still.
even if i'm lying to myself,
the flesh is weak and i succumb to it.

HAPPYENDING(:

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SO LONG (:


maybe not yet
until i completely let go.


its my last day.
and yet it didnt seem real.
took public transport to school today, for once.
and admittedly, i quite enjoyed it.
weird but yeaahh.
i know sooner or later i'd have the whole world who takes public transport against me. HAH
but the morning was quiet and calm
and i like blasting songs in my head and walking real slow.
therapeutic i tell you.
(:


its weird,
but hey, no one said i wasnt weird lols.

but ANYWAYS.
thanks for the people who spent the day with me.
really means alot to have that much people whom you love ard you.
planning to read one of the cards on the plane (cos i'm made to gah)

but read the other one
i honestly didnt expect anything

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its funny how sometimes its so easy to lie to urself.
maybe i should,
be open to more things.
after all, no one can judge you but urself.

i didnt want to consider the options.
but it seems like now i dont have much of a choice.
cos i can only prepare for the worst now.
true, there's no more room for comfort zone.
but who said there was in the first place.

maybe its for the better.
yeah right.
cos i know i'm capable of better and more challenges.
but still i don't know what went wrong.


then it came out as complacence
its because i had dont all i could.
den, it/was this the best i could do?
if so, den i'm not cut out of this.

there's no consolation.


i know i'm trying to run away.
but like what he said, this hiding would only last for nine days.
then how?

you cant just look fwd to those nine days.
and not plan ahead for what would happen.
i can waste anymore time.
karma? faith? complacence?


someone answer me.
or its gonna remain stagnant.

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HENRY LIM BO LING (:

i'm waay cuter.
but thanks for talking to me.
its beeeen long but you can always talk to me KAE.
cheer up KIDDO. (:

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A little girl walked to and from school daily. The weather one morning was questionable and clouds were forming, yet she made her daily trek to the elementary school.

As the afternoon progressed, the winds whipped up, along with thunder and lightning. The mother of the little girl felt concerned that her daughter would be frightened as she walked home from school and she feared that the electrical storm might harm her child. Following the roar of thunder, lightning, like a flaming sword, would cut through the sky.

Full of concern, the mother quickly got into her car and drove along the route to her child's school. As she did so, she saw her little girl walking along, but at each flash of lightning, the child would stop, look up and smile. Another and another were to follow quickly and with each the little girl would look at the streak of light and smile.

When the mother's car drew up beside the child she lowered the window and called to her, "What are you doing? Why do you keep stopping?"

The child answered, "I am trying to look pretty. God keeps taking my picture."

guess it always pays to look up into the sky.
and remember that someone's looking out for you.

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its happening again.
october 20th last year.


sleep
plagued by shards of memories.
but for now, its more real then ever.

numb,
i dont know why.
cos it might very well be at the end of the road.
but i'm not ready.

cos i know
this is the place i'm supposed to be.
it was never a mistake, cos i nvr regretted one moment.


what happened?
i dont know.
cos i know i did put in time and effort.
please?

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its been a crazy weekend.
not in a good way.


the news arrived on saturday morning.
after my 14hour sleep from the much lackofit throughout the week.
it didnt register.
not to me, my family.
or at least, not yet.

rushing down to the hospital.
it still seemed like something that didnt happen.
but upon seeing my uncle cold on the bed.
it got the better of me.

the wake these past three days
seemed neverending.
but that it just seem like one long day squeezed into one venue.
to the children of my uncle,
its not the day or the evening that was hard to go through
but the dead of the night that seemed more lonely.

i didnt mind staying
though i could see the late nights taking their toll
esp on the closest of kin
the staring into midair,
the rushing to settle and do every small thing.

but somehow,
it allowed the family to bond.
to meet up with relatives not seen in a long time.
to spend time just to catch up and talk.


met cousins whom i havent seen in a long time.
some really changed but yet seemingly familiar.

today was the cremation.
upon seeing the coffin moved away just broke something inside me.
its as if the realization that my uncle is finally gone, snapped.
seeing my uncle and aunts breaking down as they saw their brother for the last time
them shedding their tough exterior
seeing them so weak and fragile,
even for just that moment just did it all.

people cried.
i cried, and i'm not ashamed to admit it.
what caught me was my uncles and aunts calling out
for hope that my uncle would stay.
his children calling out father, for one last time.
emotionally charged,
and it brought me to my knees.


its that
everyone is just human
and no one can stop the cycles of life.
one day, the person next to you might just leave.
and no one knows when.
its then when you realise that material posessions and wealth dont matter anymore.
that family matters all so much.

its to cherish
and to praise for each new day you get to share with your family and friends.
cos for someone in this world,
it may be his/her last.

no one will ever get over it.
but time will heal those scars.
pray for those who left their brother behind
pray for those who left their father behind.


goodbye yi pa fu.
i know that you'll be in a better place.

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had sandcastling characterdevelopmentprogramme on thurs.
was great fun cos i finally got to get out of the house to catch some rays.
and i'm glad i went in the end.
cos i was ALMOST psychoed into not going in the morning.
but i still went in the end.

to happyhappy bedok.
which i've been there for upteeeeeeen times already.
and we loved our happy slippers trudging towards ecp.
other than bitching about random people along the way and laughing real loudly.
we pretty much enjoyed ourselves.
i know i did anyways. (:




i've never stamped or flattened so much sand before
but shaping and flattening sand is kinda fun (:

MUDPIELOOOVE(:





there isnt much more to say
about how much i love this bunch of people
the smiles and tears that they bring to me
lift up my soul with song and love
tho time will never stop again with you
its these framed memories that keep me holding on
will keep you in my prayers,
to this bunch of people i've never loved more. (:

'COS EVEN THE WRONG WORDS SEEM TO RHYME(:

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a year.

but yet, it still hurts.
maybe the worst has yet to come.


but at least you know.
cos this abyss kills from the inside.
cos i was afraid of judgement.
now i would not if you'd judge.

life's a bitch.
make a bitch out of everyone else too.
then pray hard.



really hard.

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i'm suddenly very inspired.
i guess it comes from watching too many ghibli films.
but still they're goood. (:

if i say so myself.


it just kind of leaves plenty to think about.
and wikipediaing the stories kind of shed more light into what the stories were originally about.
take grave of the fireflies for example.
i wasnt looking forward to watching it anyways.
but the title seemed to be very inviting.
like there's some story waiting to be told.
certainly it wasnt happy and cheery like other ghibli movies.
but it sorta touched something with its sad and morbid story line.

after watching the whole thing
it sort of shed a little light on what wartime japan was like
and the little stories of people that went through it.
like the brother's guilt on how saving his pride killed his sister

just a little firefly
but yet, waiting for its story to be told.


plus,
the music is good too.

rawrs,
reading back on what i've written suddenly doesnt make sense.
but as long as i get sorta get it den its okie.
but ya just got to watch it to know.
(:


like how the sakumo gum drops
could be so significant to a little girl's life.
i guess its how miyazaki amazes me
he manages to make each film very much unique.
its like small little things like an umbrella reminds the person of a particular film.
okie, this is not coming out in proper understandable english :S
but its like how tying a big red ribbon is characterized to kiki's delivery service


but i found the piano score to
the running theme of kiki's delivery service! (:
tripple wooots.

that's it!
i'll finish nausiscaa and the balance of 'whisper of the heart' tonight.
i dont care if it kills my existing fever hoho :S

RAWRS
dont get much out of sitting and growing fat in front of the com.
nor couching watching ghibli.
so i'll get inspired to go jogging tomorrow if i feel better.
YESYES plenty of good healthy exercise.


gosh i'm going broke.
this is baaaaaad ):
SMILE! :D
and keep that grin going heh.

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HYPER AGAIN! :D

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HAHAHAHAHA.

i have to admit but i am sooo gonna get
HYPERHYPERHYPER.

cos exams are over.
for now that is.
but there's every reason to CELEBRATE.


and i must congratulate myself
cos my computer hiatus stood throughout this week!
and i'm a very guai boy.
been studying really hard.
amidst outstanding headaches and stomach cramps.

and the best thing is that
my aircon happily spoilt itself amidst this heat.

GAH!


but for now,
its GHIBLILOOOOOOVE this whole night.
cos did i tell you?
i bought the whole ghibli collection! :D
FOURTEEN great miyazaki films by the man himself.
and it came at like a cool thirty bucks.
like uuuber cheap.

i know christabel's jealous!
HEHEH.


OUTINGS&LINUS SHIRTS! (:
please come to me NOW!


i tink this craziness will die down.
eeps.
but i'm loving it!

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