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date: Sunday, May 31, 2009
time:11:07 PM
SOMETHING TO KEEP MY MIND BUSY.

Do you eat a lot of fast food?

hmms, i would like to say yes cause i'm always very tempted to eat alot of rubbish.
like just last week, i ate kfc twice like ahhh.
but i'm glad to say that i'm always have the conscious effort to try not to eat fast food,
as growing older makes me lose fats slower. ):

Besides your mouth, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?

okay i like to be kissed on the mouth! (: but hmms, i'd probably like to be kissed on the nose. cause if i say that i like to be kissed on the neck, it'll so obviously lead to like sex or something hahaha. or a lack thereof.

Were you happy when you woke up today?

if happiness means satisfied with myself having no worries then yes i was.
i knew that i havent checked out the work i still have to do cos momentarily, i felt unstressed.
and my mom didnt wake me up for any family lunch so i could wake up whenever i wanted.
satisfied, then no but if having no worries (temporarily) then yes.

How about now?

nope, absolutely not.

Have you ever streaked?

i do think that everyone has a little exhibitionistic quality in them and well, skinny dipping sounds quite interesting hoho.
wait this is a yes and no question and you obviously know too much thus far,
then the answer is no.

Are you an understanding person?

i would like to think i am, actually yes i think i am.
but sometimes it comes to a point that i understand people too well till i feel underappreciated.
and then no one really understands when my turn comes.

Do you eat candy on a daily basis?

not daily, but often enough.
but only if the definition of candy includes cakes, icecream, pies.
they should make candy really expensive so i wont buy them tsk.

Does it make you happy to get letters?

i really love getting letters! ((((:
i really feel appreciated to know that someone actually bothered to get down to write or type something down to send it to you by snail mail.
but unfortunately, i can only count the number of letters i've gotten in the palm of one hand,
and that includes my first letter from my first erm girlfriend back in kindergarden.
but i know how nice it is to sent laters by mail so although most of the time i dont have time,
i would like to send letters out.
so if you've gotten letters from me, it means that you mean enough for me to take time out to write that xmas card or letter.

Do raisins belong in cookies?

only if its in an oatmeal cookie.
i have a thing for really wholesome rustic oatmeal and raisin cookies!
and no chewy raisin cookies for me though.
hate chewy cookies yuck.

What’s your screen name?

hmms it has changed quite a few times but now its simply 'guowei'
i dont see the need to change it that often and why pick another name?
cos if i use a name that a group of friends call me, the rest of my contact list might not understand.
so yeah minimizing confusion.
unless i decide to change it for real, ala nric and all.

Walking into a party, what’s the first thing you notice?

the type of people and how everyone is dressed.
i'm always worried that i'll be underdressed or something.
and a familiar face would be nice.

Kiss on the first date?

hmms it depends.
but definitely nothing more than a peck but it depends on how the entire date went.

What’s one thing you’ve learned from a good friendship gone bad?

that it takes two hands to clap,
and there's no point taking responsiblity when sometimes you're not in the wrong.


Would you ever donate blood?

hahaha someday i hope,
but seeing blood flowing out of ur body really scares me.
i'm scared to death of needles and things going into my skin.
but ooo the pretty bandages hahahhaa. (:

Have you ever felt replaced?

all the time.
but then again, my definition of replaced is probably different from yours.

Are there deerheads covering any walls in your house?

hahaha nope.
but i stayed in this rustic wooden house in canada before and i was always freaked out in the morning.
no deerheads in the bedroom please, the glassy eyes scare me.

Are you good at telling jokes?

haha sometimes.
of course i would always go through the joke once in my head to make sure that they dont sound stupid.
but sometimes, stupid works too.

Have you ever driven without a license?

nope.
unless a golf cart can be considered.
peiyong thinks that i'll never be able to drive a car tsk.

Do you wish you had smaller feet?

haha i already have small feet,
and i like them! (:
i think i might topple over and lose my balance if i had them smaller.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

quoting zhengkai, 'totes'.
meaning totally.

When ordering sushi, what do you get?

haha i always get the one with the corn and mayo!
its a total ripoff but i looove it.
actually the only thing i like is the rice cos there's like vinegar and whatever sugar in them!

Do you write in cursive or in print?

definitely in cursive,
so cursive that most of the time its illegible and i cant even read them back ahahaha.

Who was the last person you sat next to?

if its a human, its my brother on the couch watching the telly,
otherwise its darwin. (:

What were you doing at 10 am?

on my bed, waking up for a sec to change my position,
grab my pillow and my giant stuffed sheep and checking my phone for messages,
before going back to bed.

Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?

if i'm not sharing my bed with anyone, (which is all the time) then i'll sleep in the centre haha.
but thats cause have a queen sized bed.
otherwise it must always be on the left, i have no idea why. :X

If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

i would probably want to be hard-hearted,
to decide on the things i actually want to do and get down to doing it.
too many obligations and to many things and people that i care about.
that doesnt sound too good. ):

Do you know how to play poker?

kind of,
if i actually think poker is what i think it is.
though i must say that in real life, a poker-face would not be a problem.
but somehow in a game, i can never keep it up.

I am going to tag:
AGNESSA, CHRISTABEL, GERALD, JASMINE, SAFFIE, TABBY, SAMMYKINS.
(at least i know these people actually keep their blog alive)


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date: Thursday, May 28, 2009
time:11:20 AM
i get infuriated everytime i see this.
and upon hearing such news,
it doesnt exactly go down well.
i like lemons, but seriously?

this is one of the shittiest lemons i have ever eaten.
thanks.


please just stop the world spinning?


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date: Tuesday, May 26, 2009
time:9:01 PM
suddenly,
i'm not half the man i used to be.
there's a shadow hanging over me.
oh, i believe in yesterday.

+++


i really cannot take oldies,
i turn into jelly whenever i hear them haha.
i'm guessing its that old time pang of melancholy.
(:

submission has been pushed to friday.
its quite reassuring that i still have time,
considering that it was initially monday then thursday and now friday.
but given my busy schedule tomorrow and thursday,
i dont see myself getting anything done.

c'mon, i'm still here listening to various versions of yesterday on youtube.
(:


seriously,
sometimes i'm pretty sure i'm taken for granted.
now that'll show you what i'm made of.


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date: Saturday, May 23, 2009
time:10:11 PM
i'm just waiting for my shows to load before i go,
and watch them till i finally succumb to sleep.
so i'm here haha.

it has been a long week taking each day into account,
but looking back, it seemed just yesterday that monday morning came round.
lo and behold, its a long sunday ahead and i dont forsee myself being able to do work.
goodness, not again.

long day started with 8am morning class,
which had be going on a bad mood,
have no idea why.
maybe its cos i didnt really like my shirt haha!
(yeah i know)
but the whole morning was deciding on whether i should go for the school trip,
or come back for alumni practices.
its after all just one practicem but i really dont know.
even now, i'm not entirely sure.

anyways, the morning was followed by a long and incredibly boring elective class,
and when that ended, work almost kept my spirits down.
thank gawd for the lovely company at work.
and morning with a meeting i was almost late for today.
not cool at all.

i dont know,
the whole day had me feeling very inadequate and just incomplete.
like i didnt have the dignity to look at anyone straight in the face.
in one way or another, i just didnt feel uncomfortable in my own skin.
i just felt that i needed to go.
this was further illustrated when i snapped at my dad sheesh.
i hope he blames it on my fatigue.

i wish darwin could speak english sometimes,
i feel like such a fool talking to him.
and i'm starting to think that he assumes that 'stupid boy' and tapping him on his head when he starts chewing on my finger is a reward of some sort.


seriously,
stupid boy.


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date: Tuesday, May 19, 2009
time:5:51 PM
just a little something i've noticed.
five or more relationships this someone has had,
and all havent turned out well and poof, number six has come.
nah, this person aint no playboy but still?

it seems like he has walked round the world numerous times,
and i havent even walked out of my room.

munchmunchmunch,
food for thought.


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date:
time:1:07 PM
should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere?
or would it be a waste even if i knew my place
should I leave it there?

should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere?


+++

i'm quite hooked on adele's chasing pavements now.
muchmuch later than everyone else but still.

a nap does me quite good i must say.


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date: Sunday, May 17, 2009
time:11:30 PM
seriously,
what gives?


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date:
time:1:04 PM
poofy poof.
and the weekend is just about over.

as i gear myself for a new week ahead,
i ask myself what do i need to do and what did.
i must say, i did regret some and some, i'm glad i did it.

as i head into a time of much to be done
and much obligations, the next two months will prove to be a test.
balancing would do much for me but to keep things in check.
i guess i didnt really cherish the time i had.

i could do with a little something good now.
that little butterfly that flutters around in my tummy,
oh gosh how much i missed that.


but life will probably kill the dream i dreamed.
darwin's probably the closest i'll get to anything.


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date: Friday, May 15, 2009
time:6:07 PM


they say that soup is comfort food,
for the sick, the tired and the depressed.
i guess that explains why i love soup spoon,
considering that i've eaten at least three times in the past week.
it seems like i'm depressed all the time, thats why i need all this comfort food sigh.


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date: Thursday, May 14, 2009
time:9:42 PM
in these deep city lights,
girl could get lost tonight.
i'm finding every reason to be gone,
there's nothing here to hold on to.
can i hold on to you?

+++

t'was such a beautiful rainy morning,
even travelling on the train proved to be such a joy.
its such a rarity to have such a morning,
even if my shoes did lose its grip and almost had me toppling on my face.
and i dont care if anyone saw me doing the acrobatics that i dont usually do.
(:

school got me going 8 hours on a single piece of work,
and i didnt perfect it either.
somehow i got a little pissy and my mind was somewhere else.
all the while i got reminded of something a few months back,
and then i got to keeping songs by sara bareilles on loop all through the afternoon.
the sweet melancholy.

let's just say that 'gravity' and 'city' was played more times than the rest.
where's the promise that it'll never take too long?


but the conversation struck something in me,
it has been so long since i had a conversation this rich with choral talk.
seeing someone else's eyes sparkle with every word pulled me.
how long has been since i had such a grip on me,
or excited for what i was passionate in?
it seems that every opportunity would have me walking away,
or losing sight of what was/is important.

i could have mistook your intentions
but i would have liked you to say it was a spark of interest.
sigh.


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date: Monday, May 11, 2009
time:11:16 AM
well.
i have very much given up on you.
we really belong to two different worlds.

you and your adoring fans,
just me and myself.

and it hits me only now.


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date: Thursday, May 07, 2009
time:10:02 AM
now i'm walking again to the beat of a drum
and i'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof
get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

+++



funny that i'm stuck on songs by sixpence none the richer,
and i have 'don't dream its over' on repeat.
it must be tunapop who sang it last night, kinda struck a chord.
hmms, i love this song despite its underlying tones of despair.
deep inside, i'm probably a goth kid hahaha.

ikea yeesterday,
and it has been quite a long time since the last outing there.
but i will always get amused and buying the most nonsensical things hahaha.
at least i'm finally able to get my free cone day poster framed.
so i dont have flapping dog ears and fluttering posters at midnight.

a few more cushions for darwin,
and i'm about done!
and yes, after much advice, i'm sticking to darwin.
(:


TOMORROW.
:D


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date: Wednesday, May 06, 2009
time:9:53 AM
i am guilty.


i am guilty of having nothing to do omg.
okay so i do have the week off since crit is over.
though i am kinda encouraged to go back to school to watch other people's crit.
but you know what, i'm tired and travelling to school takes an hour soooo
i'll rot at home.

goodnessgracious me.
there's definitely a problem with me relaxing.
usually during the hols, i could watch my shows,
and keep myself occupied till one thirty when i prep myself for my afternoon nap.
and now? i have done EVERYTHING i usually do.

i haved watched my shows,
scavenged what i need to see on facebook,
even uploaded photos.
what's wrong with me, and this includes making breakfast.
and to think i'm supposed to go out later.
and that's in TWO HOURS TIME!

what in the world am i supposed to do?
c'mon, i even blogged twice! (:


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date:
time:9:50 AM

just a little heads up on what's to come on friday.
(:


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date: Monday, May 04, 2009
time:9:05 PM

i know i havent been updating for some time.
i blame my schoolwork and the long weekend.
though i have been quite reliant on twitter.
i have this secret fantasy that the whole world reads it,
or more so no one reads it.

i'm kind of an extreme case!
on the other hand, i'm glad submission is over.
at least for the very first project.
seemingly only now after like five hours can i heave a sigh of relief.

no prizes for guessing that my critique is tomorrow.
and for once, i'm quite scared argh.
i miss the frivolity of presentations sigh.
my week is more or less packed with no school,
more so with my outings.

pros and cons,
and fatigue makes me want to choose the easy way out.
well if you're seemingly happy, all i can say is good for you.
(:


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