i cant believe i'm blogging now when the curfew is in 32mins time.
hmph.

i actually managed to finish packing contary to what people think that i had finished packing 2 months ago or something. but i'm really scared that i'm bringing more than necessary. rahh. at least everything looks somewhat organised. hmph.

but all jetted up and crazy over tomorrow. i couldnt even keep still during my piano lesson just now. the flight is looming but until now i still cant believe that its happening, i mean, a couple of months ago, people were talking about preparing for xiamen. it all seemed like a distant dream. even two weeks before today, i knew that xiamen was coming but somehow, inside in a little dark corner, there was a nagging voice that keep saying that xiamen's only but a dream. but now i can really feel its presence.

mixed feelings, but i'm sure we'll do our best. [[:


live our dream.
ajchoir. ((:

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xiamen is SOO close.
i'm freaking out.

choir on sunday was..outtathisworld.
i've never felt so exasperated singing before. i was literally pespiring after the songs. but the evaluation on monday made it seem like it was horrid. but it really served like a wakeup call. but it is really tiring and it taking a big toll on my physical health. i mean, i'm starting to find myself breathless in the midst of songs, and its scary to find myself gasping for air. haii, as long the songs turn out well, anything goes.

i'm really scared..
just not sure what's going to happen in xiamen, gone is the anticipation and the excitement but worry sets in on how we're gonna do, what would result is this or this happens. haii, i dunno.
on one hand, i'm starting to get really high and fidgety in lessons reminding myself that we're a mere 3 days from xiamen. but.. i dunno.

well, at least i'm comforted that the choir tee turned out so nicely and everyone has gotten one already. sori if hanquan's shirt is a little on the wee side. XDD

met mrs cheong for a one-to-one talk on my maths and choir. though it was interrupted at the correct time, at least it forced me to plan on what i'm going to do and bring up all the stuff i'm trying to put till after xiamen. a honest conversation about the future. at least it brought me much-needed comfort. turned out better than i thought.
lets just say that i'm glad mrs cheong's in charge of my group in xiamen.

3 days more, a mixture of butterflies, snakes and whatitscalled in my tummy.
just one rampant mess.
packpackpack. ((:

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i really dunno whether this is going. its really not easy putting a smile up on my face everyday.
it ain't easy i swear.

reality seems to finally set in. it is taking it's toll of me. the things that i'm trying to put off to the back of my mind is resurfacing again. the work i'm supposed to do, the things that i told myself i'll do after xiamen. its already piling up. and i know that. i know xiamen is no excuse to stop and drop everything and run off. but i'm still doing it.
i dunno why but i'm still doing it.
i'm still doing it.

you can lecture me on where my priorities lie but no matter what you say, i'm going to tell you that at this very point in time which time would never pass by again..
choir remains right at the top.

its not about committment and obligation. its about love. its about this special bond that unites people. superficial words cant say much.

there's no use acting as if you're brave.
there's no use hiding what you want to say.
there's no use hiding your tears.
because it'll happen.
its gonna happen soon.
real soon.


a comforting word from you. that's all i need but..

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sometimes i ask myself. why do i even bother?
it's just a waste of time and energy on my side.

yesterday's choir was interesting. but just felt a tinge uncomfortable because of the lack of space. i mean, after practicing so long in siglap, the sudden change of environment seems almost claustrophobic. hmph. and starting practice so early in the morning isnt exactly the best time for catty movements. things warmed up but i'm sure if the practice was brought to siglap, it might have been a little better. *shrugs*

ate at novena with gerald, zkai and chihong. one day, i'm going there to buy my nike shoebag. hmph. everytime i go there, i always dont bring enough money. one day.. oh yea and gerald, i'm gonna find out one day who you shared spoons with. :p

yah. so i'm bad at navigation. i admit it. XDD
after reaching paya lebar to find the tee supplier, the tee supplier tells me that there is a direct bus from outside aj to the bus stop outside his office. rahh! and the thing is that its not exactly close to the mrt station. but eventually we managed to make it there. paya lebar road is not exactly next to paya lebar but at least it still kinda in the payar lebar region. *heaves sigh of relief* otherwise aggie and xianhui will come after me again, with aggie giving her i'm-so-gonna-kill-you-if-you-don't-get-us-to-our-destination-in-five-minutes look. *shudder*

trust me, its scary. :DD

but in the end, we managed to get the fine details settled. but the shirt supplier doesn't sound quite like what he looks. haha. but thats besides the point. it turns out that he's making quite alot of money from cat high considering that he prints and designs most of the posters you see around school plus all the cat high merchandise like the water bottle socks and such. amazing how the world can be so small and xianhui met her bookshop auntie. amazing.. but at least the trip wasnt a waste, managed to settle the price and the designs and the type of shirt.

but at least most of it is done, only the final tweaking of design. the tee is gonna be great! *cheers and start dancing hysterically around the room* if things work out okie, we shld be able to get our tee by next sat.

went back to cat high today to return ties and collect my olevel cert which is long overdue. wanted to see ebchoir practice at the same time but too bad our school ended late otherwise we could have watched. but heard their japanese SSAA chorus song. miss blasting my soprano notes. rahh! considering i havent heard ebchoir for a really long time, i thought it was quite nice. ((:

hmph, shall make myself available next time so can go back to sing with them.

oh yea, you'll see a redhead tomorrow. XDD

i swear the teachers are taking the opportunity to pile upon the homework since we're gonna xiamen for a week. i have so much work to finish over this weekend. rahh! and they make so much commotion about it.
they must be planning something.
i just know it.


could my wait be over? i hope so. ((:

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back to school. felt positively exhausted the moment i woke up. somehow, i knew that i should have stayed in bed acting as if i am sick or something. i really want ten am practices at siglap that will make us tremendously high and i would get this surger of energy whilst being absolutely shagged at the same time. and i love this feeling.

oo.. angels and demons. ((: and we are just gonna spread our white feathery wings and slap those around with evil thoughts. and we're gonna come up with giant plans to promote world peace inspire goodwill and put smiles on everyone's faces. look at how much time we have to sacrifice just to make people's life a little sunnier and merrier. just dont irritate us or we'll stuff feathers into your little nooks and crannies to turn you into a fat pillow for stress-relieving purposes. all demons out there lurking shall suffer the same fate.

operation janet shall be open soon. up for stake would be the poor little cute angels' lives and potential destruction bridge of relations. so as gerald said, pray for us. XDD

huijie arh. TSK. ((:
no worries, you're just gonna get trumatised by me...
for the next one and a half years.
WHAHAHA.

aggie made me think back to something about listening. sometimes, i just feel like exploding. its really not funny having to worry for so many people at the same time. worry about what to say to who. it suddenly doesnt seem so appealing. bcos it kinda messes up your own life also. its just this conflicting things that remain detached, i wanna tie them up and settle for good but.. i just dunno. i'm just wishing for things after the acknowledgement. part of me is still worried for the process but part of me is dreaming of what would await me everyday after the acknowledgement.

rahh. i'm just talking rubbish.
i dont even understand what i wrote.
i guess i just want to talk to you. *smile*



butterflies in my tummy. ((:

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i'm tired. *yawn*
the late night/morning conversations are taking its toll.

rahhs. i dont want school to start tomorrow even though its only two and a half days left for the rest of this week. i just want ten am choir practices at siglap for the rest of the time up till xiamen. but i know that will never happen, with my teachers breathing down my neck and the stalker trying reach down..nevermind. anyway, felt that today's choir practice was quite good. now, i've caught the illness from qingwen and joel and getting permanent high from singing binamma and karimatanu.the new moves from karimatanu is SO gonna kill me.

yea, standing in the first row rocks. ><

saw birdnesthead who sort of spoilt my mood for sectionals. but anyway, the sectionals room is SOO cold. i just knew that i shouldnt have worn shorts. the aircon was freezing my legs off. XP i mean, it was so cold till meirong and zhanyong hand to move into the front row. and michelle even went beside me to test the freezing temperature but it got to the better of her and she squeezed in front also. and peiyong offered me her scored to protect my legs from the aircon. oh yeah, and natalie, remind me to kill you for that comment. XDD

i wanna watch 'forbidden city' and 'cabaret'. rahh!
& the next budak concert. ((:

and saw yongyong at j8 todae.
& missed class outing. :((

yupp, must comment on catwoman and lustfultan. LOL. these two arh.. scandalous. everything also must do together one. goodness! haha. but i cant imagine the hot pants and leather corset on shaun tho. XDD

it takes more than quietness to be a good listener.
but you can always count on me. (:

solitude of the surroundings but with company of that special one. i want that feeling to just last forever. suspending in the threads of time without moving.
are you that one? i really hope so.

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