damndamn.
deadlines should be damned argh.
but i know they do me good.
den why am i getting writer's (and artist's) block now?

gosh,
even mika doesnt help.
and dont you even dare mention about colours pfft.



a big thanks to
twin, ham and jam for the encouragements!
:D

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father father help us,
send some guidance from above.
cause people got me questioning,
where is the love.


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sheesh.
i cant believe i took like three hours to send an email.
and it wasnt even that long of an email can.
this is very baad.

the week was kind of crazy.
considering that i only attended erm 2 and 3/4 days of school.
yes i feel bad,
and i blame it all on my sickness.

but good news,
cos my bubble (aka pressure-blocked ears) was erm popped on friday night.
and suddenly everything seemed so loud and clear.
i'll never take my sense of hearing for granted anymore!
(:

you wouldnt believe the joy i felt at that moment,
i could (almost) hear the heavenly voices (aka pseudo viennaboyschoir) around me.
and i was announcing it to everyone around me hah.
yeah, i'm going bonkers.

but with my sniffling decreasing,
throat improving,
and hearing to have increased thousandfold.
i have no more excuses but to get down to work.
damndamndamn, stop procrastinating :S

the only thing i can complain about now,
is not being able to get my vitamin gummybears open.
roooars.

i just hope i live up to the position.
given my erratic and psycho ways.
:/

it never seemed so good,
cos the company never seemed better.
music, chocolate and fatsuits.
am glad it happened, just like a giant tree.
(:


'being loved makes you feel secure,
loving someone makes you feel alive.'
anonymous but so very true.

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you look into my eyes
and light those dreamy eyes
and pretty soon i'm wonderin'
how i came to doubt you.


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its funny.
how i can do this without a care.
after 34.99, i was so ready to nip it in the bud.
and then?

the icecream melted.
sighh.


and i tell myself, it aint that bad.
like what zkai said,
i gotta love myself.
:S

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set me free,
leave me be.
i dont wanna fall another moment
into your gravity.



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i just found out,
that you're not supposed to be going on a flight when you're sick.
(i know, duh right?)

but especially when you've a flu,
cos when its kinda serious when you have a blocked nose.
which is what happened to me.
apparently it'll incur my blocked ears,
which is worthy of a hospital visit.

gosh,
i didnt think it was that serious.
and to think i was still happily sniffling away on the flight to hongkong.
:S


hongkong was okay.
(considering factors like the sniffling nose and the perpectual deafness)
tho i was told it was sale season,
the ware werent very palatable.
so i was searching for the best i could find.

and i'm proud to say
that i managed to purchase
2 berms, 1 jacket (yays yays!!), 1 pair of shoes, and n no. of tops.
(i'm just too lazy to count)

this is bad,
cos when i grow up and start working.
i'm going to starve to buy jackets.
this is terribly terribly unhealthy :X


the big hoohaa about my delayed flight.
its so much easier to say that it was delayed hmms.
anyways, apparently flights are usually overbooked,
cos people do not always turn up as they have the option of changing their departure date.
so in order to full utilize resources (aka food and fuel),
they allow booking of tickets to surpass their carrying capacity.
(which makes sense for the airline company)


surprisesurprise,
all the customers turned up that day.
and my family was left stranded with another day in hongkong.
thus, i missed a day of school :/
and i left tigger at home sighh.

the extra day meant i managed to grab a few more tees.
and a giant blue paw hah.
but im glad that i got to be with my family a little longer.
(:

so next time you see me.
dont bother calling me (cos i'm still deaf)
but please gesticulate and wave frantically.
cos chances are that i might see you than hear you.
and do talk a notch louder,
cos i probably tried to lipread
and am nodding as if i understood what you said about that girl wearing pink leggings
:X


*poke*
ONE DAMAGE!
hah, amused.
(:

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i'm glad i went to school today.
though it meant waking up at an ungodly hour.
(which should be nothing according to the jc timetable)

i get hugs now and then.
and plenty of love
(from the wrong people)
:D

coughing nonstop doesnt help,
though i've been reminded to hydrate.
& i'm sooo blocked up in erm certain places.
erhh, my nose (hence the rapid usage of tissue)
and my ears (which are still pressure blocked)
argh.

i love my baby natasha!
cos you keep me entertained (with the occasional additional input from shaun)
i doubt you'd ever read this tho.
i lurbs you girl. (:

ohmygaaawd.
do you know that each glazed krispykreme donut is fivefreakinghundred calories?!
thankgoodness i havent eaten one of em yet,
and my brother already ate three at one go.
but still?!


mindless flirting?
it just might work.
(:

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am supposed to wake up in about an hour plus time.
but here i am, blame it on my early night and screwed sleeping habits.
(and hourly nightmares)

maybe if i'd told you earlier,
things wouldnt have been so hard to swallow now.

threadless tee is here!
i just pray hard that the sizing would be okay.
:/

but did you know that no one deejays in the wee hours of the morning?
i didnt know, and i just found out hah.
and they play evergreen favourites at this tine on gold 90.5fm.
thats a good start to the day! (:


i'll see everyone on monday.
(i pray my massing gets done by itself when i'm gone)
i'll do lots of shopping done whoo
and hope that my krispykremes last the journey home!
(:

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last week before school starts.
my very desperate attempt to have as much fun,
before deadlines start again sighh.
to think i'm procrastinating about cutting styrofoam.
why cant it be sold in perfect 1.5 by 1.5 inch cubes!

nuah-ing outing on tues at bel's house.
and i ended being latest,
procrastinating abt packing my bag and being online.
even the drunk one was earlier than me!

guitar hero's not for me.
cos i cant seem to catch rhythms.
its either that or my eye-ear-finger coordination is really bad.
(which probably explains why i cant sing n play songs on the piano simultaneously)



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its time for a change of blog song.
tho i know the previous one inspired n kept alot of people humming.
cliche choice, but this is the vocal track from narnia: prince caspian.
just thot that the choice of song and the time it was played was simply perfect
so its been in my mind for song time already
(:

& i found the piano scores.
tho it'll take me some time to get down to playing it.
tsk, knowing me.

it seems that my choice of songs,
more often that so,
trace my journey as an inidividual more accurately than my entries.
for me, a song sings a thousand words for me.
hmms.

THANKS TO JASMINE
for the song. (((:

i told myself to restrict to a short entry.
so cheers to the newly founded eh.em
*pops open champagne*
the little group that magically has four parts.
i should get down to making a logo and tee hah.
(:



EDIT/
sorry for the song.
cos imeem only allows me to pla a 30s preview
siiiighh.
so its back to alone again, naturally!

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there's something about getting a song right
that gets you at the throat.
making music out of the tinkling ivories.
(:


now let's see some damn sunshine.

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i discovered the most delicious cake at liang court today. (:
yummy cheese chiffon and scoop cake.
sighh, i should stuff myself with the cake when i'm upset!

never eat raw carrots.
no matter what celebrities do.
cos i bought a pack of babycarrots thinking it was yummy.
but i regretted eating a small cup of them.
i literally felt like a rabbit.
:/

poor thumper hah.

i'm not going to blog about the conversation i'm having now.
:X


for the record,
i'm completely jealous of people who can hear a song then replicate it on the piano.
it reminds me of what a failure of a pianist i am, sighh.
LIM MIN HUAY I SALUTE YOU CAN.

its just something about disney songs played on the piano.
all the childhood movies come rushing back,
and on the phone, you can hear everyone suddenly going silent.
inside, everyone's a disney freak. (:

now i have to raid my cupboard.
to try to find the old scores
and actually get down to playing the scores.
i'll probably procrastinate again. :/


and limminhuay,
if you're wondering if you entertained me?
the answer is yes, you did.
and you inspired a blog entry.
(:

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am finally done.
i tink i took more than an hour.

apologies to the short and curt replies on msn
when i was blogging. :/

my music is really sad and full of ballads gah.
maybe that will explain ALOT of things now.


wangadooddle.
tigger wants neapolitan icecream!
(:

an early,
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

i know i dont say this alot (or even at all),
i love you dad.

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terribly bored.
and i'm tired of keeping things subtle
for the millions of people who read this blog.
so here goes!
(courtesy from saffie's blog)

this will probably amuse me more tha it'll amuse you.
(:


the rules:
1: put your music player on shuffle. (YAYS ITUNES)
2. press forward each question.
3. use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense.
4. comment on it.


1. how are you feeling today?
love will find a way - kenny latimore/heather headley (lion king 2 ost)

i know
love will find a way
anywhere we go,
i'm home.
if you're there beside me

yeah, as usual.
plenty single but yet still hopeful.
its cliche that my life is all about love hah.
i'm not that shallow OHKAY.
yeah, perhaps one day.
love will find a way. (:


2. will you get far in life?
signal in the sky - the yeahyeahyeahs

a signal in the sky, oh
thats when you know you have to fly, oh
a signal in the sky, ohohohohoh.

this is very interesting.
the song is from the powerpuff girls if anyone cares to know.
but its a nice song yays.
maybe i'm just waiting for a signal and then i'll fly.


3. what's your best friend's theme song?
dont go breaking my heart - elton john/kiki dee

dont go breaking my heart
you take the weight off me
honey when you knocked on my door
i gave you my key

OHMYGAWD THIS IS VERY FUNNY.
cos it seems that zhengkai is cheap and having random sex with anyone who knocks on the door.
but i still keep the key to his virgin lock haha. (:


4. what is the story of your life?
la solitudine - laura pausini

omg this is bad.
there's no point putting lyrics cos its in another language.
BUT SOLITUDE AHHHHHH. ):


5. what was high school like?
since i fell for you - katharine mcphee

well, i guess i'll never see the light
i get the blues most every night.
since i fell for you.

i'm seriously one disturbed and love sick kid.
:/


6. how can you get ahead in life?
o holy night - n'sync

a thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
for yonder breaks a new and glorious morn,
fall on your knees!

well.
maybe i need to follow my faith a little more.
and trust in that big guy above tho i'm a freethinker.
then the sun will rise to a better morning.


7. what's the best thing about your friends?
home - kit chan

whenever i am feeling low,
i look around me and i know.
there's a place that will stay within me
wherever i may choose to go.

well put.
the best thing about them is that i know i can count on them.
i can go out and go the stupid-est things,
but i know that they will still be there.
sighhh, want to cry already can!


8. describe your grand parents.
water night - ajchoir

night with the eyes of a horse that trembles in the night
night with eyes of water, in the fields asleep is in your eyes.
a horse, that trembles is in your eyes of secret water.

this is weird and freaky.
i wont describe my grandma like that but its like she knows me so well.
erm i really dunno or maybe my deceased grandparents have always been my side.
maybe if i open my eyes, i might see them :/


9. how's your life going?
itsumo nando demo(always with me) - yumi kimura

maybe my life is just a fairytale.
and its making way for the bigger world outside.
like in spirited away, maybe i'm lost and just need to fight this battle.
when i'm done (with school), it might just be a passing memory that i'll miss,
but never get back to what i had.
there's something bigger out there.


10. what will be played at your funeral?
take it all away - ryan cabrera

you can take it all away
i dont need it.
underneath i'll still be the same

maybe finally for my funeral.
people will see for themselves who or what i'm really like.
facades aside, that maybe what they saw, it was never me.
scary but not entirely ridiculous.


11. will you have a happy life?
iris(acoustic) - goo goo dolls

and i dont want the world to see me
i dont think they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am

honestly i dont know.
it seems kinda a sad,
and it seems that my life will revolve around relationships.
still a lovesick fool, but if you know who i am.
maybe that's enough.


12. what do your friends really think of you?
torn - natalie imbruglia

i'm all out of faith, this is how i feel
i'm cold and i am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
i'm wide awake and i can see that the perfect sky is torn

judging from my answers,
i dont seem to be positively viewed.
but the last line is quite interesting cos i see the black in white,
a pessimist at heart.
maybe thats how they see me. :/

where are the happy songs damn it!


13. do people secretly lust after you?
why do fools fall in love - diana ross

self explanatory.
maybe its only the fools who will love/lust after me.
eeeyer, toilet guy! :S


14. how do you make yourself happy?
hungry like the wolf - david cook

in touch with the ground
i'm on the hunt, i'm after you
smell like i sound, i'm lost in a crowd.

okay the lyrics make me like a sex maniac.
i'll just say that i eat to make myself a little happier!
vanilla, erm chocolate, erm strawberry! (:


15. will you ever have children?
oh come all ye faithful - faith hill

all hail! Lord we adore Thee
born this happy morning,
o Jesus! for evermore be Thy name adored

wow.
maybe one or two.
but definitely one on christmas morning. (:


16. what song will you strip to?
part of your world - the little mermaid

OHMYGAWD NONONONONO
'a girl who has everything'?!?!?!
'i want more'?!?!

EWWWW NEVER!
this song has a new meaning gooosh.


17. what does your mom think of you?
robert says goodbye - alan menken (enchanted)

this is an orchestrated piece hence the lack of lyrics.
bad, cos maybe she thinks that one day i'll just say goodbye,
and never come back ):


18. what is your deep dark secret?
big girls dont cry(personal remix) - fergie feat. sean kingston

i'm feeling blue, let's work things out
cos i don't know what to do
and i'm going to miss you like a child misses their blanket
but i've got to get a move on with my life.

i think i know where this is going.
but you know, i will never tell you.
cos i have alot at risk.

can you keep a secret?
so can i.


19. what is your enemy's theme song?
three words, two hearts, one kiss - billy gilman

let me spell it out for you honey,
you dont wanna miss
the perfect combination of
three words two hearts one kiss

this is scary.
cos my enemy will conquer me with love?!
scaryscary, cos it just might work.


20. what's your personality like?
one minute - kelly clarkson

you're going crazy
running on empty
you can't make up your mind
you try to hide it
but you have to say it
restless all this time,
so completely drained from everything that's in your life.

kellyclarkson, where have you been all my life?


21. what will be played at your wedding?
wake up and pay attention - lauren hill (sister act 2)

maybe i just want a big party.
and the focus on the both of us.
so darn it stupid guests, wake up and pay attention (to us) LARH.



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oh dang wangadoodle.
i hate my pc for not getting sims right.
roars.

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was talking to tigger yest.
random relationship stuff and suddenly this question popped up.
just how much are you(we) willing to give for a relationship?

i know it may seem kinda cliche and all.
cos it seems that the topic is over and done with alr.
but it has always stayed in my head,
swimming for quite a while.

i always thought that i would give up anything for a relationship.
but hearing it from a different perspective,
it was food for thought.

i've heard personally people who are really together with their partners so deeply
until they are willing to kinda forsake their family just to be with him/her.
its very extreme when you consider it.
it may seem fine from one's perspective but can you imagine if you're the parent?
simply seeing your child giving up everything and disappearing to another country.
with no clue whether if he/she's coming back.
now, would you allow your child do that?

do you believe in forever in a relationship?
and if so, what's your longterm plan then.

but if you dont believe in forever.
then how is ur partner going to trust ur faith in the relationship?
there's no foundation for anything at all.
and you cant possibly predict a 3 or 6 month thing.

suddenly,
everything seems a whole lot complicated.
and i'm not sure whether i can give all that i have in a relationship, hypothetically.
cos it is tied down by so many other things.

so just how much are you going to sacrifice?
and where do you draw the line?
it seems that some simply rush into relationships for the thrill
and when faced with the face of practicality (no pun intended)
it suddenly dawns on them that this wont work out.

so what is this?
a fling? frivolous fun?
doesnt it mean anything at all.

i'm not targeting anything or anyone,
since i didnt have anyone in particular in mind as i wrote this.

yeah,
we all say that 'all we need is love'.
true, 'love makes the world go round'.
(to some anyway)
i used to believe that 'love will keep us alive',
but how far can you stretch it?
does 'love over labels' truely exist?


aimless, pointless and completely useless.
its an attempt for a photo-less entry that makes me feel less like a whore.
excuses, i say.

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its a tigger escapade again!
roar thump squeak
(:

a spontaneous bakeover session
with ryan's friend daniel!
the last bakeover i had over christmas was erm rather interesting
so i was definitely looking forward to this one.
and this entry is going to be one with very little content and lotsa pics gah.

we baked at nice daniel's house!
and i suddenly realised how amateur i am hah.
but it was indeed refreshing to see how another baker works.
cos everyone has their little idiosyncrasies,
but i mean that in a good way. (:

after a peace offering and lunch,
(okay i love being pampered)
we got down to the first dessert of the day
which was the gorgeous molten chocolate cake.
ahhhh melts.


i nibble on my cakes so mine didnt spill out like ryan's
cos his choc fudge squelched out with a pretty heart!
if it wasnt for his flash, the picture would have turned out perfect tsk.
orgasmic ahhh. (:


then first up came the oldfashioncake.
which i didnt help much but to stare and erm measure the flour.
its very tedious with much blood sweat and tears ohkaay. (:
still, we actually completed it really quickly.
(yes, i'll acknowledge dan's way of measuring out ingredients)
and into the oven it went!


next came the maple cookies,
of which i provided the maplesyrup.
which was basically all that i provided for the entire day :/
ps: the hand above is mine so i did help!


i know i didnt show,
but i had alot of fun with the scooping of cookiedough
and licking my fingers that were covered with dough!
there's something about cookiedough that is pretty addictive,
for me anyways. (:


after frosting the cake by dan,
(which i personally think i'll never get right)
the chocolatecake turnout really nice (albeit shiny)
and browned cookies that looked pretty professional.
so yays to the three of us!
baking should be a really highly paid job tsk.


scrumdiliyumtious.
the cake was really nice
and i'm glad i still have two slices in my fridge.
the cookies didnt really come out very mapley,
but its my first chewy soft cookie!
(:


for the sake of updating,
tigger has made a new friend!
tyson the bison!
i still dont know their relationship status as of yet
cos tigger was touching noses with tyson
but the last time i check, tyson's a boy's name
and dan has proved many-a-time that tigger's a boy.
very interesssting :S



i just wanna give a shoutout to ryan and daniel!
for making yesterday such a funfilled day.
and i hope i havent messed up the kitchen/table/bed/toys/cds too much
cos i have a tendency to do that!

and thanks for making me laugh
for the interesting anecdotes
and the concern and all!
all with no reservations hah.
(yes, i had to say that)
i feel like a pampered kid hah.
in more ways than one mmms.


ROAR THUMP SQUEAK
(:

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greeen.
cos today was international green day (:
(erm, i kinda made that up)

am kinda reluctant to blog today.
but here goes anyways.

thankgoodness for the call at ten.
otherwise i wouldnt have made it for the movie.
damn it, i've never dressed up and gone out of the house so fast before.

and finally an outing where colourcoding came without complaints.
cos there's always the:
'eh dont want larh so mahfan' 'i dont have this colour, i can be the special one and wear another colour' 'okay will wear'
and five mins before meeting, i get a text that the person wore a diff colour.

tired, fat and fruitful!
and thanks to me, we found millenia walk.
(:


for the record,
i only realised later that my cheesecake came in neapolitan colours!


pronounciation of the louvre?
LUUUAAAH.
omg, that kept me laughing all the way home.
:D

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a weekend completed.
complete with the best and worst of it all.
laughs vs tears, who would you vote for?

alumni-ed in the morning on sat.
invoking but not completely unexpected,
tho the company was great with twistings of wire.
yeah, it actually scares me too.
something about the wire reminds me of a human's neck.
:/

i'm not going to announce what happened in the morning.
seriously, i dont know whether to be flattered or completely grossed out.

am just glad things were cleared
and i managed to swipe away those fuzzy grey clouds.
plus i'm completely amused by what happened on later in the evening.
i got a shock laaaah!


met the ohsix batch for dinner.
and its been so long since i've laughed so hard hah.
it was just nice to see those familiar faces again. (:


a glance at everyone.
it suddenly occurred to me how everyone has grown.
even the way people talk and walk,
it seems different.
but yet, the feeling's still the same,
the same laughter and the same voices.
and i cant picture everyone in their school uni anymore
(actually even if i can, it seems like two different people)


it seems that we can never talk softly
or chuckle behind our hands
or put innuendos in everything we say.
(:

stupid sultry zhengkai!
XD

nostalgic,
cos suddenly you're in the company you love.
the laughter comes easy and conversations are comfortable.
we need to do this more often hah.

the forfeit cracker kiss!
i tink meirong has more salaciosu photos hah.

food that i cant finish,
ugly dolls whom i snatch away from people's hands,
balancing on a woodenblock on my head attempting to do fashion,
laughing really loudly,
and getting a booty slap from peiyong.
(:


the classic guys photo.
omgawd, i realised that this our first GGZZ photo! :D


to the next outing,
& TO THE NEXT FIFTY <3

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there's a reason why i'm binging at 0108h.
i wonder if you could tell me why.

10km.
it'll run off some damn fustrations.
it might not last till then actually.

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happening week yays.
and i'm loving every bit of it (:

i-so-tonic on wednesday.
but cos zkai and i were too bored, we just had to meet early.
even if it was just to buy flowers hah.
after getting numerous stares
and questions on how pretty and who the flowers were for.
we train-ed to meet aggie at cityhall.

i realized that everyone should travel to town
during the times of fourish to five.
cos the trains are practically empty and seats galore.
but it was then we saw the ugly side of singaporeans.
cos we were attempting to sit at the corner seat,
when an auntie came in from another carriage.

it was quite funny
cos i looked at her and the seat,
and she did the same.
upon realizing that i planned to sit there,
(fyi, the seat was closer to me)
she rushed f0rward and cut my path to lend her bum on the seat.
hilarious i tell you, even zhengkai caught it.
i wasnt miffed that i caught the seat,
but the whole scene seemed to come from a movie/tvserial.

i bet she noticed we were sniggering about her.
serves her right.

meeting most of the people for dinner,
we trooped down to the really nice esplanade recital hall.
honestly, i was pretty excited hah.
and my striped jumper came to good use cos i was warm and toasty throughout the show.
yes, there's always a good excuse to wear woollen jumpers in singapore.
(:


isotonic was pretty entertaining for me.
cos i'm a ditz for acapella or stripped covers of songs.
as the evening went on,
everything felt a little more comfortable
the music and conversation seemed more accessible.

familiar tunes made me sing along.
and through these famaliar tunes,
i discovered meanings of lyrics that i have never seemed to see before.

its a little like alcohol,
it got better and more entertaining as it got along.
its prob my second or third acapella concert,
but it went down really well.

HEYHEY (x4) YOYO(x4)
you know we got totally hyper at the audience participation part.
hellyeah, i got the two people next to me to bounce up and down with the hollering.
(:

ps: i totally had to post that insane peekture of zhengkai to do the queen of yettobenamed justice
pss: i'm still very much hooked on some of the songs that they did that night


after four (?) plus hours of sleep.
it was back to icecream with the gang at the cathay.
yeah, two consecutive meals of icecream in less than 12 hours.
b&j is always good, and i shall train my stomach for more of consecutive icecream outings.
(:


from random talks about sex,
(and realizing how low the faux walls were)
icecream lubricated the conversation.
and it led on to babies and parents wondering if we'd (ever) have sex.
still, i'm convinced that people around us already did,
its just that we dont know.
(or rather, for me to know)

but i'll keep all these knick-knacks in seperate drawers in my closet.
(i know, that sentence was filled with suggestive words)
one day, i'll just burst hah.

i must apologise for my irrational behavior yesterday.
cos with all the random 'bitch'es hollered over the walls,
lying on and clawing the furniture (hey it was faux suede ohkaay),
i must have been quite a sight.



guowei must be growing up,
talking about the taboo topic of sex endlessly for one.
even a day older, it seems like a lifetime.
but finally heaving out the burdens, lubricated by tears,
it seems so much easier.

he knows thats not an answer,
but with a tub of chocolate, its solace.
still, as time goes along,
he's probably going to be numbed,
not willingly but played with the tools of life.

one day older,
still square one.
wondering when will snow appear,
when its already so cold.

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A: if you were an animal, what would you be?
dont worry, i'm not going to say bird or plane or whatever.
actually, i would like to be a dolphin.
cliche i know, but there's someting about being happy without a care
that appeals to me at this point of time.

B: books, what's on your reading list?
actually, its a series of chickensoup books that i have in my cupboard.
i cant help it, there's nothing to read pfft.
but there's some thrilling about buying a new book hah.

C: compulsive about anything?
erm actually, not really.
but i'm kind of compulsive about bathing, i cant stand being dirty or sweaty.
thats why i cant survive camps.
(i know, ns blah blah)

D: do you dream in colour? do you remember your dreams?
actually i do dream in colour, erhh i dont remember anything in black& white tho.
and i heard that if you remember your dreams, it means you didnt sleep well,
but yes i do remember them occasionally and there's always deja vu for me.

E: eating, what's your usual snack?
actually, it depends.
i do like to snack on savoury things like chips/rice crackers,
usually whatever i can find.
but now? i'm staying off the snacks and drinking green tea.

F: a few of your favourite things...
WELL, if it means material things,
i guess its jackets hah.
but i do enjoy baking, something about making yummy sweet stuff makes me happy.

G: giggles! who (or what) makes you laugh? do you have a good sense of humour?
ANYONE, can make me laugh.
as long as there's a good joke and i can get it.
but be weary, cos sometimes, i'm just laughing at you lols.

H: major hot button.
the hot weather and not being able to wear jackets without perspiring like a pig.

I: i am..
a singing fool.
go figure.

J: what's your dream job?
now that i'm taking architecture, i guess being architect better be my dream job.
still, there's something about baking everyday and joining the office rush crowd in a spiffy suit
that is pretty intriguing. (:

K: also known as - aliases, screen names, nicknames?
actually not much, you cant be too creative with guowei.
erm gwei, weiwei and howie and prob even yongyong.
dont ask.

L: i love...
a cup of tea watching the sun rise on a wintry morning.
(:

M: how do you feel about meeting people? do it all the time or rarely? parties or one-on-one?
actually, i'm terrified to death. i just seeeem like i'm friendly to cover up my nervousness.
if i have to do it all the time, i will. parties with familiar people are good, but there's something very personal and lo-man-tic about a one-on-one.

N: what's the story of your name? were you named after anyone?
i have no idea honestly.
but i'm following the tradition that same generation take the same middle chinese character.
hence explaining my brother's name, guoyang.
but i googled my name in chinese characters and found that a famous artist shares my name!
complete with the same character and surname hah.

O: observant, what's around you now? what do you see?
ermm. my cup half-filled with water,
random notepads (to scribble potential recipes)
and my camera cos i just uploaded my photos of dumplings.

P: who are the special people in your life?
family comes first, followed by pseudo families (aka friends who become brothers, sisters, wives, girlfriends and the works) and the bestest friends.

Q: any little quirks about yourself?
when i'm neat, i'm reeeaaally neat, down to the arrangement of stuff.
but when i get loose, you dont want to see my room.
and when i meet people, i tend to give them the losangeles lookover,
which is to look at what they're wearing and such.
i know, weird. (gerald hates me for it)

R: what do you do for recreation?
read and sleep.
but i'm making an effort to start drawing now.

S: do you sing in the shower? for family? for friends?
au contraire, i do none of the above.
but i sing to the random strangers who jog with me, and they stare.
idiots.

T: what's at the top of your to-do list?
hmms, that would be packing and baking.
tho i know doing my archi work should be kind of at the top :X

U: any unusual experiences?
define unusual.
if it means seeing tyrannies?
yes, macdonalds, 18may close to midnight yucks.

V: vegas, vienna, venice - how far have you travelled and what's your favourite city?
GAH, venice. ): losangeles, newyork, whistler, boston, seattle, vancouver, calgary, banff, maine, san francisco, florida, orlando, prague, amsterdam, xiamen, zhuhai, hongkong, japan, malacca, kota tinggi, langakawi, penang, bintan, chiangmai, bangkok. i'm definitely sure i missed some (espesh the small towns), but yeah i've travelled far.
my favourite place would have to be whistlerand newyork, simple unbeatable.

W: winter, spring, summer, fall - what's your favourite season?
it used to be fall, cos its so lo-man-tic with all the falling leaves and all.
but now, its kinda moving to winter,
there's something about snow and that silence that attracts me.
cold, chilling yet dormant.
probably a mix of autumn and winter,
the last leaves, the first snowfall.

X: exes - things you don't do anymore (but did once)
i used to sleep till one plus in the afternoon,
but i can't now.
must be getting old.

Y: any deep and secret yearnings?
oh.
wouldn't YOU like to know. (:

Z: zero to zenith - where are you in your life? still growing? on an upward or downward curve or just skating along?
hopefully its an upward curve,
but sometimes it goes down emotionally.
actually i dont really know but i'll take a day at a time.
planning ahead scares me sometimes :/

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just a random update.
(as if i havent been blogging everyday liddat)
but this is for the sake of mscharlenechian who's in seattle,
to drool over ahma's yummy nonya zhang.
(:


sunday was bazhang day.
as my family likes to call it.
i know there is a specific chinese term for it,
but i've returned all my chinese back to my teachers.

lo and behold,
this is the first year i decided to try wrapping dumplings this year.
usually its just my mom, dad and grandma.
but after years of procrastination and not wanting to try,
i helped in wrapping the tiny 'keezhang',
which is some yellow-ish dumpligs with no filling.
the above peekture is the nonya zhang which is kinda sweet-ish,
but i like it.
(so those who get some of that better thank their lucky stars)


and THIS one is the keezhang i made.
no one should laugh at this cos at least its still semi pyramidal.
rahhs, just with erm seven sides i tink.
at least i tried hah.


cheers to tomorrow
drowned in decadent chocolate! :D

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there's something magical
when you have a warm hand clasped in yours.

the seemingly tingled senses,
your heightened sense of touch that seems to follow with the person's palm.

the squeezing of the palm that tells you,
that the person would be there for you.
and knowing that the other person needs/wants you as much as you do.
even the subconscious brush of fingers,
the play of nails against your skin.

it feels so different,
knowing that you're wanted and loved.
even if your eyes dont meet,
that connection is there,
felt by touch.

the gentle squeeze,
the clinging on with just a finger.

so what if the other is distracted by something else?
knowing that five fingers are still clasped around your finger,
that's enough to know you're still mine.




its funny how much you can learn from holding hands,
even if its from a six month old niece still distracted by the world.
telling you that she know you, and i know you'll keep her safe.
you stole my heart, alexis.
(:

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i'm starting to feel the strain.
i'm sure the power-ranger would be glad to know,
that its from the back of my arms,
or whatever muscle they call it.
i just cant be bothered to wikipedia it.

i'm almost done with chickensoup.
(for the mother's soul)
i know, laugh at me.
i'm never going to be a mother.
(unless a trip to thailand is the midst of planning)
still, why should i read for the mother's soul anyways?!

let's just say that i've run out of books.
and i havent read it in a long time.

i finally understand why the call the series 'chicken soup'
or 'chicken soup for the soul' at the beginning.
its cos it heals the soul.
through anecdotes and little stories,
you suddenly realise how blessed you are,
or that there's someone out there who shares the same pain.

throughout the numerous times i read the book,
it is only now at the age of nineteen,
my eyes well up with tears upon reading the stories.
i don't know why,
its the same words, the same stories,
but yet, it suddenly becomes a little clearer.

a little excerpt which meant something different to me now.
(completely irrelevant to what i said above)

" i haven't forgotten what it's like to be young -
all the hopes and anxieties and the overwhelming sensation
that everything you do is going to advance or wreck your life.
no in-betweens when you're young."

it suddenly says alot.
i'll probably look back at this 5/10 years from now,
and laugh at what i'm doing.
and fully understand what that excerpt means.
ohh, the innocence of being young
and having the world of time at ur feet,
free of stresses and challenges.

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