ohmygawd.
mariedigby just breaks my heart.
(no offence tash, you know i still heart you)

the lyrics of the song already melts me.
to listen to a girl sing it so well,
ohbooooy.
(:

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i'm intrigued.
but it breaks with the minute.
it doesnt help with the distractions.


but like what they say,
good things take time.
but really great things happen in a blink of an eye.
pinch me, what's the catch this time?

nah.
the momentum keeps up.
but i dont really want to find out more.
or do i?


i still cant believe i'm setting myself on fire.

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its finally the end of term one.
(and winrose kindly reminded me today that its not the end of sem one)
rawrs.

zoo-ed on thursday.
its been goodness knows how long since i've been to the zoo.
i tink the last time i went was prob late primary school.
so it has been reaaally quite long.
naturally, i was very excited.
anything to get away from normal lectures/tutorials.
(espesh the mat module)
:/



the bus journey there was quite fun hah.
cos i was listening to songs from the hairspray ost
and of course i got really high and excited.
but that was before i started text-ing and fell asleep.
yes, this paragraph is entirely useless.
but these little things make me happy throughout the day. (:


the primary objective for the site visit aka outing out of school,
was to investigate the use of timber in the gardens.
so upon stepping into the zoo,
(and our photographs been taken)
cameras went click-a-clicking on the various uses of wood
for benches, railings and supports.



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it pays to have someone to talk to.
even this late at night.

(:


i need a good crying session.
sighh, wednesday night?
maybe.

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ps:
i love my current blog song,
so if you happen to drop by, take some time to listen to it.
i know it may be kind of sad,
but its old-ish but still very (the) nice.
plus the lyrics are pretty beautiful too.
(:

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surprisingly,
yesterday was pweeety fun.
(:

(aside for the shadow of monday's bad day)

site check in the afternoon.
and it was tash's first virgin ride on the tube!
(or erm, the mrt)
it was kind of fun cos i've never been to outram park hah.

site check was interesting.
cos tash and i caught sight of pda(s) just waiting to happen.
i'm personally not very disturbed by pdas,
but when it gets overly touchly and slobbering over each other,
thats when i draw the line.

anyways,
we found out that its possible for wind to come from every direction
at the smu campus.
its kind of weird, but when we changed our position,
the wind came from a different direction towards a centralised location.
hmms.

had time to kill after site check
(which didnt last very long)
so didnt preliminary research on kandinsky with tingers/winrose/rich.
i didnt remember the reference section to be so interesting hah. (:
but i'm glad we went there cos we got all our research done within the hour.
so thanks to lohwei for directions!

and i didnt know that national library(bugis) is a stone's throw from smu
and smu is a stone's throw from dhoby ghaut
and city hall is a stone's throw from the library.
to think that all this time i've been mrt-ing through these places.



in case you're wondering,
the yellow frames are part of a nat. geographic gallery put up for the special olympics.
we were very certain that the empty frame was made for cam-whoring.
and the security guard was simply amused.
(:

bus-ed down to the glass house at parkmall for dinner.
(yesyes, thanks to tingers cos otherwise i would've taken the train)
and surprisesurprise, zkai and i were the earliest!

dinner to retro music.
which seemed to trigger something in me that used to listen to pop tunes of britney and maybe coco.
dont judge me, cos you know you listen(ed) to them too!

anyhoooos,
we are not old.
we just happen to like to listen to classic love songs tsk.
yeah, i'm still miffed at that guy.


surprisesurprise,
cos my lecturer informed me near the end of the day (12pm today)
that my scholarship interview was this afternoon rahhs.
and i was like O.O

daaarn it.
farhana too and we werent dressed for it!
and to think that i was this close to wearing berms to school today.
i just hope it went well,
cos it was unusually short in comparison to the others sighh.

but thanks to those who wished me luck!
and the presence-ful texts to keep me from getting nervous!
<3

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i just saw mud's nick,
'heyy, why are you crying, is everything ok?'

revelation.
then why does guowei see the worst in everything?
i want to talk about it,
but it doesnt come easily.

if you're telling me to find the simple joys of today,
i can't.
i can see it, but i can't find it.

wow,
i make alot of sense yeah.

but i just wanna say a big thankyou for nationalgeographic,
and a big thank you for the the singing fish&co gang. (:


&damn,
i cant get the map tack to stick on the clothes peg.
BAAAAAAH.

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i cried and cried all day.
alone again,

naturally.

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damn it.
it might have been staring at me the whole time.

paranoid.
maybe this time it isnt so.
it might just very well be the truth.

badbadbadbadbadbadbad.
it'll probably ruin my whole day tomorrow.
oh whooopee.

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honestly,
i've no idea where the progress is going.
its not the norm hmmms.
but then again, since when is it?

thinking too much prob.
but when is too much?
scrutinizing words and then the sudden overnight increase in attention.
maybe its because of me.
i'm sensitive for a reason mmms.


its the impending holidays i tell you.
that i'll have time for all this.
and lesser moolah too. :/

see?
two entries in a day.
maybe one more later too.

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made of honor.
made me go crazy over newyork all over again.
the glamourous lifestyles and musicals abound.

or maybe its more about the cold weather
and seeing people iceskate at rockerfeller centre,
lovers walking down hand in hand down the street.
the bustling coffee joints with friends catching up while hiding from the cold.

then why is it that one of the memories that stuck with me
was watching the rain flow down in streams down the roads
and my mom telling me not to eat a toffee-apple cos i wont be able to finish it?

+++


saturday-ed with hamham, bambam, bel and saffie.
but not without my dose on nonsense cartoons in the morning.
it has been quite a while since my dose of sat cartoons.
(with alumni practices in the morning and all)

and i realized (later that night)
that i probably watched almost all of the seasons of power rangers.
the american/new zealand version anyways.
which is kinda baaad.
considering that i never really liked them before.
hah.

and well,
knowing that i actually know people who collect these kind of figurines is quite interesting!
cos i never thought that these people actually exist. :/
i always thought that these people existed in television shows.

yeap,
made of honor was nice.
looking back at the story,
it seems a tad cheesy but then doesnt all these love stories make your heart melt?
with starbucks coffee appearing every now and then,
it makes it all the better for dreams of newyork.

and it didnt help that i know quite a few songs
so i went googoogaga throughout the whole movie.
christabel should know. (:

ohyeah,
i tend to laugh hysterically and the most un-funny parts hah.
the things i do sometimes.

oh and hamham just reminded me.
bel can be my best man! HAHA

i've got no idea what i've planned for my hols.
hmms, it'll be nice to be earning moolah.
and am semi-planning a sleepover and a picnic!
(:


moons and junes and ferris wheels
the dizzy dancing way you feel.

i'm just waiting for you to return the dance.

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i'll keep you in my prayers bro.

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okaaay finally.
since my project is over,
i have no excuse but to give my take on voyaje o8.

well,
honestly i never thought that i would join the esplanade stage together with ajchoir again.
not joining the choir in italy seemed like the end of my singing on stage.
until the option of singing with the alumni came along.

at the beginning i was kind of skeptical,
cos i'm not sure about singing in another group of which i know nobody.
actually some, but you get my drift.
and singing in such a small group and not professionally trained,
i was kind of worried.

but over tea and kayatoast at yakun.
i managed to convince bel to go with me.
i still wasnt sure about the whole idea of performing with the alumni but i just decided to go for one practice and see how it went.

over a cold rainy day,
i was introduced to redredrose and doubledouble.
at the beginning, i didnt think much of redredrose.
considering that its actually quite a simple song but i couldnt get the notes.
but doubledouble certainly appealed to me much more.
i guess its just years of being in a nelsonkwei choir.
its these awkward and strange songs that hit the difficulty mark and make me want to learn and perfect it.

anyways,
from the beginning i thought that alumni was something to pass the time whilst the italy people were away.
being starkly honest, that was how i felt.

but making the effort to come down on sats,
it grew to something different.

unknowingly, the only thing i looked forward to in the week was sat mornings.
cos i got to sing my heart out.
with the people i'm gradually getting to know more and love.

week after week,
the tacit joy when we get the songs right,
the unspoken irritation and determination to get the songs back into shape when it goes topsyturvy.
it these kind of things that we never notice,
but its the things that helps us bond together.

and yet, just knowing that the same faces would be there next saturday,
it keeps me going for the rest of the week in school.

concert day was a blast.
and it seemed to pass by all too quickly.
but as they say, ten years of practice leading to ten minutes on stage.
i told myself once before that i might never experience that magic on the esplanade stage again,
after last year's no importa.

but this year,
i felt something different.
its a different kind of magic.
a satisfaction that we made magic,
slowly, one sparkle at a time.

i really felt that the applause and the screams,
well we deserved it.

we've worked so hard as a bunch of singers.
it never seemed possible but we proved ourselves wrong,
that we're capable of so much more that we thought we could do.

it made me realise that 'no importa la distancia' isnt just a moment.
its a journey of song.
its a journey of people,
its a journey of passion.

no matter how little or many people.
its still there, as long as you plan to find it.

i remember thinking straight after our two pieces,
that 'you mean that's all?'
it seems that all the practices seemed like they're all accounted for
but it seems that suddenly, everything's over.

if you're lost,
i'm with you.
cos i never want that mid-summer's night dream to end.

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well,
i havent had time to get into the full drama on it being over cos of my project.
but trust me, with the hols coming, i'll have plenty of time.

peektures:



suddenly i see why the hell it means so much to me.
(:

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fantabuuuuleee.
i'm just glad that my project is over.
(:

actually, what is there to be happen about mmms.
its actually just primer one, the first project.
but the first hurdle yays.

just wanna say thanks to fellow groupies:
kamei/rich/joel


elle would never have been complete without you all.
all the sketching and scanning.
though things seemed rocky and all in the beginning,
i'm glad that we finally got thru it.
and making something fantastic out of nothing
(:

it seemed like we could never get it done up,
but it turned out just great.
presentation was smooth and q&a was not cringe-worthy.
(:

BIGLOVE.

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T(#(&OUBRPTQPI.
i refuse to make a haphazard and short entry about sunday's concert.
cos it means thaat much to me.
and a short entry under stressed conditions just wont do it justice.

HMMMMMS.
yes ryan, its done like that, the guowei way.
HAHA.

screw the project.
then again, please dont screw up.
prays hard sigh.

thanks for the encouragement.
i wouldnt even have gone thru today
if i hadnt known that i could depend on you for a phone rant.


sigh.
i'm distracting myself.
back to the slides.
see you all on fri/sat.

and i'll probably miss tonight's and tomorrow's americanidol finals.
thats how much i'm sacrificing for this Y(*#*TOUIHWF building.

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twelve hours.
and i'll be brunching.
(:

you know what.
i dont really care what happens,
tho it seems like i'm giving up without even starting anything.

cos i'm dancing through life.
mindless and careless.
i'll meet you later tonight at the ozdust ballroom.
and dancing till light.

just to sing noimporta once again on stage,
its going to bring back so many memories.
those thousand people?
piece of cake for my thrice brinded cat.

it took us so much to come on stage again.
so let's blast the socks off those thousand people.
and make magic on stage.

my vocab is now in an inverse relationship to my excited-ness.
to a great performance tomrrow!

((:
and hopefully,
TO OUR FUTURE LOOOVES <3

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ohmygawd.
david archuleta's grey eyes.

*melts*


it takes real courage not to shove a pencil down ur throat.
and do you see my pen?
do you see your chest?

stabstab.
blood gushing out sweeneytodd style.

you've got four minutes to save yourself.
(and the rest of the world)

and there was never a happy ending.
so what's with the pretending?

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helloo.
am still excited for concert.
only three songs but hell yeah.

the camwhoring and the magic.
these things remind me of the concerts of times past.
the ringing and magic on stage.

vjchoir-ed yest.
and it was good listening to a good choir again.
i really liked the first piece with the chords.
a good start to the concert.

heard many songs that were sung by me or others.
it was definitely nice to hear those songs again esp zsoltar. (:
it sounds very different haha.

but one of my fav songs were night was
'no man is an island'.
its just filled with so much emotion and joy of song.
(:


please bring me sat and sun now.
but dont let that midsummer night dream end.

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dreams,
dreams,
of when we had just started things.
dreams of you and me.

it seems,
it seems
that i can't shake those memories.

i wonder if you have the same dreams too.

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dont sigh,
cos then an angel dies.

interesting,
so i'll try to cut down on my sighs.
then at least the angels will recognise my conscious effort.
and maybe a miracle might happen.


poooniewoonie.
cos i want to do digital sighs.
and i wont.

it came soon enough.
osim - oh shit its monday.
three more minutes.
then it'll be six more days.

and i wont want that night to end.
cos people move on.
and another one bites the dust.

jump, zipdeedodah.
now that's all in the past.

darn those stupid ants.
cross the road then this elephant can rumble on.
pfft.


okay enough.
back to the 0.1 pens and the penknife.

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i dont know why in the world i'm doing awake now.
after this tiring week, this is the last thing i need.
but i'm glad how things turned out.

practice on wed/thurs was good.
cos it really felt like we're heading somewhere good.
(plus sometimes i really feel underdressed)
faces that werent around for awhile came back.
bitchin' partners and all.

sigh of relief,
but gearing up for something magical.

tgif.
cos it was one of the best news in a while.
my project deadline has been postponed to the following week,
so that means that i dont have to go crazy on thurs attempting to finish the impossible.
plus, now i have more of a freedom of the mind for concert.
but that means, that after vesak day,
all hell will break loose.

sigh.
anyways, friday was good cos the company in school rocked.
and i was wearing green and thats always a good thing. (:
yeah, and now i'm married to mud so hands off!

whaha.
it was so funny tho it was a faux relationship.
i'm still shy and i cant look people up close into their eyes.
my heart palpitates and my face turns red haha.
gosh, too much information.

but i finally got a sight of what the alumni shirt looked like.
and the chat at bugis was, definitely informative.
it just made me think so much more and realise what might have been in front of me all this while.
its one thing to lose a friend,
but more than two years?

it says something.


i was so glad that it was friday.
cos it means that we're this much closer to concert.
i dont know but i'm proud of the alumni.
in an ant-proud-of-the-earth kind of way.
we're definitely somewhere now,
compared to the first freezing amkcc practice that i went to.
(:

that will deserve another full length post for another day.
ohyeah,
and so will lohwei be featured for passing me the wicked musical.
cos i finished watching it (:

much talk about the future.
on what would happen.
i dont know, cos i'm stuck in the middle.
opinions and perspectives spin out of control.
all making sense, but then again.
would i be willing to let go?

taking one step at a time.
practice today was good.
cos i brought the shirts for the alumni.
fyi, the supplier came at 0015 in the morning.
so i stayed to up just to wait for him.
and i was just so tired rawrs.

but i guess its all worth it.
cos they look pretty nice yays.
tho the duct-tape effect was erm interesting. :/

i'm still laughing at people who skip and bounce their way to school.
(:


i'll miss charlenechian aka dajie.
you'll be missed ohkay.
i'm not sure if i can send you off later in the morning.
but if i cant, i'll miss you terribly.
the family here too in singapore.
):


black is this year's pink.
but grey is the new black. (:


gah.
so much for planning an intellectual entry.

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for the record,
i just realised that i havent done my orthographic drawings
and i was busy printing random piano scores the whole night.

oh, fyi to the world.
dont even think of dating/marrying me if you dont want ur first girl to be names sage.
its a terribly beautiful name (:


Sage \s(a)-ge\
wise and healthy
alternative: saige, sayge

the percentage use of the name in the states.

soft green rooms
and a cream coloured antique cot.
nothing less. (:

yea,
i got it allll worked out.

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you know.
sometimes i dont know what i'm doing.
but then i start thinking that i better damn love it.

sigh.

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starbucks is goood.
cos it lubricates the senses
and kind of makes things more than cups of tea spill.
still, i love those bitches. (:

school this week seemed blah.
with repetitive lessons and the ensnaring of work-to-come.
new laughs and crazy hootches,
but its slowly losing its appeal.
then again, it pays to give things a second glance.

but the impending future of the next project.
and pushing myself a little furthur does interest.
a little.

holidays, which would mean supplementing it with a holiday job.
esplanade concert, which everyone should totally go for.
seems kinda of exciting.

yet, it might mean the end 0f something.
or the beginning of something beautiful.
yea, i know.
i'm confused too.

okay. a coupla photos from choir camp!


election which was, erm interesting!


ms ********gal89,
who was supposed to be studying for driving,
and me my documentation for primer1 part1.
of which, we totally through things aside and ended up not doing anything but listening to elections.


okay.
we were reallllly hungry.
so we ate in the squash guys' toilet.
thinking back, it was really kinda gross.
but hellyeah, it was funny and we were sooo hungry.
and i'm intrigued cos its the first time i'm scaring people for nightwalk!
cos the last time i was kinda supposed to scare
but xingying and i kinda freaked out and went into the safety (aircon) of the choir-room.

banging doors was kinda fun.
and after a while, the darkness didnt seem as scary as i thought!
and its a cheap thrill to know that you've scared people! :D


and here's xiany who photoboothed with my mac.
and i only discovered it like a few days later!

hmmms.
was kinda reading a coupla blogs.
and well, my life seems comparatively boring/uninteresting.
which is bad, and that means that i'm never going to ...
oh well.

i'll just pray hard that concert goes well.
and everything falls into place,
esp hahahaha.
goodness knows what i'm talking about.


okay, its back to wicked songs
and a dose of clare & henry. (:

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