this is the last straw pfft.
all i need is for autocad to screw up everything again!
friggin pissed i must say, and i'm imagining myself throwing laptops around.
not now seriously!

):
FAIL.

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i finally know what i want at this time,
a holiday alone to somewhere far,
somewhere far enough for me to leave everything behind (school and obligations at least).

i wouldnt even mind an internship overseas all by myself.

for now, it wont matter,
just having some quiet time walking along foreign streets would be nice.

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1632h - happily searches for unwatched videos and downloads slides for work tonight
1640h - why yes, reminded that there's class for rwp tomorrow.
1644h - omg, yes i do remember that i have rwp tomorrow.
1647h - checks deadline submission and is relieved that next week is week 11 and submission is week 14 earliest
1648h - reassures tash (and ownself)
1648h - smiles in relief.
1649h - just to make sure, will call lecturer.
1649h - lecturer does not answer, am pretty sure she's asleep or in middle of afternoon shagging.
1651h - gives up calling and sends text for confirmation.
1703h - worried 'cos have no reply, will try calling again.
1704h - picks up, prays for best.
1707h - DEVASTATION, UTTER DEVASTATION. ):
1716h - finally absorbs that report has to be completed by tomorrow.
1716h - very worried with other submission, arghh wjsljdgjdfshkabsd!!


okay i am officially hyper-ventilating now.
its either the weather's friggin' warm or i just keep taking short breaths unconsciously.
what's wrong with me, and why am i still looking on facebook for this new person?!
seriously get a grip arghh.
okay i need to rest, head is very heavy and not breathing properly.

i'm sure i can do a thousand words in proper sentence structure with proper headings in one night, that i am definitely sure of.

and oh why do my holidays only start in september?!
didnt they start in august last year?? ):


all of a sudden, a dull throb of a headache fountain-headed by a bottle of beer sounds much more promising.
):

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it takes some silence to make sound
and it takes a lost before you found it
and it takes a road to go nowhere
it takes a toll to show you care
it takes a hole to see a mountain

ah la la la la la life is wonderful.

- life is wonderful, jason mraz

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just happened to come across this song as i was doing work.
so happens that a fellow twitter happened to tweet about it,
her dancing around the room much to her dad's amusement.
amazing stuff, what mraz's songs can do to you haha.

even his live acoustic 'you and i both',
made me believe in something i havent done in a long while.
even believing in music seems believable haha.

as work stops for a day,
honest talk really worries me.
it gets me freaked out, and since when am i that scary?
scary for being who i am.
at times i just wanna raise my hand up,
and walk silently away.

let's see if you bother.

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long talk over measley soaked pieces of chicken,
cheesecake would have gone down so much better.
hmms, together with a giant cup of warm ochacha.

i do know how to live the life haha.
drats, why isnt there a mcafe near my house?

i dont know but after the talk,
i felt like i havent slept so well in days.
well considering that i might have been dead tired,
though i didnt look so.

though i might say its worth it,
something nitty gritty might have been growing
just that i didnt know and i've been hiding it in the closet.


hmmms, eggcites for henderson waves.
but with work to do, its time to start planning argh.
and i hate being part of your plan of convenience,
how bout i treat you the same way?
let's see how you feel buster.

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born to amuse,
to inspire, to delight.
here one day,
gone one night.

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self-concious,
with work loading me at the back of my mind.
it doesnt feel good when the advice or lecturing something
actually applies to myself.

it doesnt really feel like i'm going anywhere,
with the people around me dropping like flies.
i kind of feel ready to walk up to the stand to be shot too.

work, sleep and food,
those things are my only forms of sweet escape now.
it would be nice to have some of that.

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facebook simply does not allow me to upload photos,
what's wrong tskk.
just when i'm feeling generous and excited and uploady-photos-ish.
and i have two albums to upload too tsk.

school was kinda sucky in the morning.
gentle reminders here and there had me thinking of how much worse it will get in the coming month or so.
you know its going to get worse when your lecturer tells you to stop sleeping for the rest of the month.
seriously, for the rest of the month.
mighty exciting isnt it, oh jolly good.

with that scary thought in mind,
i headed unhappily into town with amazing lunch plans in mind.
i didnt really bother about the calories, i just needed to eat.
somehow eating helps quite alot hurhur.
(and i was all armed for the supposed long train journey to the airport with a book tsk)

with a change in plans,
happiness and laughs came hand-in-hand with popeye's chicken and the best of all,
a ten dollar flight on the singapore flyer.
its probably the most cliche thing to since everyone seemed to have done it already,
but i dont care, i thoroughly enjoyed my virgin experience.
naturally, having a capsule to ourselves and great company helped.
jumpshots? oh, please tick that on the checklist.
i didnt think there was any shaking though, hahaha.

i think i'm getting really old,
by four, i was completely shagged and i slept in the car.
and i didnt do anything madly energetic!
ohgawd.

and yes,
frankly i expected it.
i just wanted to compare between a year and a week seemed like.
and sure enough, if you even bothered to devote a little more time,
you wouldnt be in the dark now, literally.
i mean, there wasnt even a followup on the fountainhead of the issue.
i was checking, waiting and hoping,
and you never did.
i am/was clearly very stupid.

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the best part of school breaks,

rachaelray at nine
marthastewart at ten thirty
movie at noon
dimsum at twothirty
work at five.

(:

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