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date: Saturday, April 22, 2006
time:7:12 PM
was too tired last night. so the entry was kinda in strings and reading it again, it seems odd. haha.. the things people do when they are tired. anyway, going out with jiahui and zkai was really fun. we kept laughing at the simplest and silliest of things. for no reason we would just start our uncontrollable laughter. but we eventually came to a conclusion that jc life is just much too stressful and we just dont have enough laughs. so the whole outing was splattered with much laughter. and i have NO idea why, but especially these past two or three days i've been very suaku and ditzy. haha.. i have walked in the wrong direction for SO many times. i forgot the exact things i did but i tink if you look up for the word in a dictionary, i think you'll find a wacky picture of me. haha..

i guess the most ditzy thing i did this week was on friday after my chemistry lecture. after the lecture i was heading towards the exit of the auditorium on the 2nd level den i realised that there was a oldish teacher clad in a black jacket seated on the blue individual seats placed on the passageway. then i walked past her, and i realised something that caught my attention. you know how some people dye their hair, and as their hair grows, naturally the original colour of the hair would be obvious from his/her scalp. but it so happens that this teacher had orginally white/silver hair so from the brown-black hair, there was a splatter of white hair which looked like fireworks. it sort of caught my attention due to the stark contrast of hair colour. hat female teacher was facing the stage so we didnt see my walking behind her. i just happen to be strategically standing above her. and the words 'ohmygod, white hair!' just sprung out of my mouth loudly white pointing at that spot when i was standing next to her. even i got a shock because it came after a second that i realised that i should not have said that. my classmates behind just gave me a shocked look. and the teacher just jerked back her head to see who said it. seeing her turn, i quickly turned my back against her and then i walked briskly out of the hall. its damn hilarious lor, the few of us kept laughing and laughing all the wait to our projectwork venue. the words SO obviously didnt go through my mind before i said it out. but its so hilarious. the blantantness of the statement still shocks me until now. but it did create lots of laughter..

don't ask me who the teacher, i cant remember and dont want to remember her face.
hope she doesnt remember mine too. :p

keep getting distracted by other things when i'm blogging. xp

family day todae was quite fun. interestingly. spend time walking around with different people. but most importantly we went around eating. haha.. ohh, gonna grow fat with all the things i ate todae. but it was worth it! :] not gonna bore you by going through all the details of what i ate but i really liked the cheese fondue from saffie and daphne's booth. i believe its the 3206 booth. *yumm* i couldnt have eaten so many sets of it if it wasnt for the rapidly limiting coupons. ven gerald said that it was yummy lor. :] and it was nice to see lots of other people todae. i'm glad i resisted the temptaion to skip family day todae because i would have missed out on alot. :)

choir todae was quite fun. oo.. like the binama actions. quite fun but i'm very scared when it comes to movements because nerves get to be before a performance and i would end up doing some wrong move that would make mrkwei laugh in the middle of his conducting..again. grr.. must get over this thing and do the correct moves at the correct time. :)

yupp, really like the card that michelle and jeremy made. touching ba. :] and the small little dog also. yay.. another stuffed toy! thanks to those to chipped in. soo paiseh, must sing bdae song two times. haha.. already celebrate for 3days 3 nights le. and something tells me something's gonna happen on monday also. haha. like those kind or tribal festival that must celebrate for a long periods of time. paisehh.. *blush*

yes.. finally a whole day to sleep and finish up my tutorials tomorrow. dont have to go to school or what. :) thank goodness, my pw group cancelled the meeting tomorrow. that means more sleep for me! *woot!* tiring but joyous week.

still waiting for my pillow ehh... =D


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date: Friday, April 21, 2006
time:10:03 PM
i'm bushed. but todae is such a great day! felt very touched. (:

was online till late last night talking to people and trying to force myself to blog a new entry which obviously didnt work. for whoknowswhat reason, felt really tired last night, i could barely keep my eyes open while looking at my computer screen. den jiahui still ask me to stay online a little longer for another 18mins or so but i just could not. come'on, i almost slept when looking through the first page of the new chinese chapter. haha. when midnight struck, received a phonecall from andrew to wish me happybdae and received numerous msgs from people wishing me the same. haha.. so sweet. :] (yah lar, you're the FIRST message i received that morning lar. :D)

to all the peeps who wished me best wishes todae, thanks, really felt appreciative towards your actions ya. :] i must have smiled more times den i would normally do in a week. let me try naming all the people who wished me happy birthday:
i just tried to type them out but there are just too many. :] but to all these wonderful people (especially some of you, you know who you are ;p), i really appreciate all that you all have siad and done for me. you all kept me smiling.

the highlight was most probably during econs lecture. for no apparent reason, i was pushed to the corner of the bench. things were unusually quiet for econs and i almost fell alseep though. den when econs ended, i was just packing my things and was just about to the take the econs attendance file to the front of the stage when i suddenly heard the class singing 'happy birthday'. i was stunned lor.. i wasnt expecting anything like this. i was pleasantly surprised. haha.. somehow, no words could explain my feelings then. felt very happy and my face was very red lor. everyone staring at me ehh. but wenzhao's face seems even redder than mine. haha.. so sweet ehh. den the class led me to the canteen when i had a cake. :) yay.. den the class sang me a birthday song again. haha.. ms chan was there also. :] felt so happy and honoured ya. just couldnt stop smiling but everyone was staring at me also.. wahh. xp

went out with jiahui and zkai after school to town. haha.. talked about ALOT of things. haha. :) den we chatted and shopped around buying..nothing. :p den in the end, we went to heeren and i got a new bag! :p like it alot now and my preference was under the heavy influence of two people. haha. had quite an interesting ride back to bishan on the train. :] den we had dinner had pasta and watched in horror as zkai managed to wolf down the portion of food of two people. haha.. den we just walked around j8 for awhile before going our seperate ways.

the celebration wasnt mightily elaborate but just celebrating my birthday with good friends simply made what would have been a boring day special.

thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday. :] i still remeber who you are! you all made me smile.. :)

looking forward to fundir outing tomorrow. :p

surrounded by angels


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date: Sunday, April 16, 2006
time:6:47 AM
sori for all those who kept pestering me to update. been a little out of sorts and that has caused a very irregular sleeping times especially during this long weekend. (what holiday?) but it was fantastic considering the things that i did.

yupp, went for my brother's baptism at SFX last night. was initally reluctant to go because i might end up seeing people whom i didnt want to see. a superficial reason but i guess i just didnt feel comfortable. but it was a 180degree turn from what i expected it to be. familiar hymms rang by, forcing me to dig in a void that i thought i had successfully disposed of. however, it made me appreciate the past even more. sat with my parents, my two aunts and my cousin, but was still a little uncomfortable after a while. but the processions and hymms sung cooled my apprehension. (except for the male soloist :x) it was heartwarming to see my brother going up to be baptised with his godpa, to see start off a new journey of his life with a new name and a new faith.

saw alot of familiar faces that night. it was really nice to see them again.. i thought that the meeting would have been awkward and strained but it turned out just fine. it was really nice to see old friends whom i havent met up with in a long time. the changes are so stark that i almost could recognise him. but i realised that it is not that we havent had the chance to meet, we always had the opportunity to seeing the close link between our brothers. i guess we've just been procrastinating in meeting up or just much too busy with our lives. but i'm just glad to see you so happy and involved in your life. :) it was nice to see you again..

auntie margaret said so much towards her finding herself towards the service of God. it somehow made me very inspired. i'm still at this point of my time where i'm still finding myself so naturally, if there is a road that is paved in front of me, i would be inclined to take this path. i'm still considering. but she told me to just find out more about what i believe in and where my faith would lie. but if such that i feel that my service were be in God, she would be there to help me find my way. its not that i'm definitely going to be heading in that direction but that i'm taking my time and considering.

Amen

Almáre Linda [el-mary lin-da]


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date: Friday, April 07, 2006
time:10:19 PM
thank goodness this week is finally coming to an end. i'm gonna need all the sleep i can get in the coming weekend. just really tired.

tuesday was a very tiring day. when i got to school that day, i was already suffering from an extremely irritatign splitting headache. i was already dying during the econs lecture. kept squinting my eyes and rubbing my temple frevently in hope to get rid of my headache. it just didnt work. and i was so tired that i couldnt understand whatever labour market as being taught. but told myself to keep myself alive until after the choir lunchtime concert. the lunchtime concert was quite good in fact, it was a very good try for the j1 chorus. i think we did quite well.. and of course, it didnt help that there were lots of people i knew in the crowd so guess this stage pressure made us sing quite well. :] immediately after watching the dance performance, i went to apply for early leave from school because my headache was really killing me. yupp.. den i hopped on a bus home to rest. felt alot better after sleeping. sleeping cures everything! whaahaha.. :]

got sunburnt on thurs. haha, of all things. psychotic pe session, 18 pullups den when there was just 10mins left to the end of the lesson, we had a 2.4 run with timing. by then, i was already prepared to pack up and leave.. *mumble* i almost died. too tired.. after finishing, i just sat down on the ground and stoned and happily allowed the sun to blast its rays on my face. just too tired to move. and it didnt help that i had to rush through my newspaper commentaries straight after pe so didnt have long to rest. thank goodness the reading room has a uber cold airconditioned environment. :) met lots of people there surprisingly. haha..

in the end i still had to finish up a crappy response to such a good choice of an article during my half hour lunch break. then some people thought that i was daoing them. haha.. i just had to finish up my newspaper commentary lar. no offense hor.. :]

for all those trying to pia their project work pi:
(take time to read this)

its been really nice to talk to some people and finding my new identity as a pillow! :] haha.. everyone needs someone squishy and huggable.. wait, dont think i fulfill those criteria. hmm.. its nice to finally talk to someone about almost anything under the sun who doesnt judge you or may have possible ulterior motives. its been tiring to keep myself so upbeat and perky. its been tiring this week but i still kept it up. because i know if i don't inject in energy, the situation will seem dead. so sometimes if you see me going around jumping and going crazy, take a second look. look above the sugar-rushed crust and maybe you'll see finally see me. like that day i was sick, wished for someone to be around me to take care of me. well.. sometimes all i need is a great fat pillow to lie on and poke. whaahaha..
thanks to all those people who care. i know i may not have been very responsive or smiley all week but from what you say and your genuine gesture of acknowledgement, it makes my day. :]
to a certain someone, you've changed alot. you say that other people change but you actually do too. from what i see, it is not for the better. but i seem to see some sort of similarity from the past, suddenly when you meet new people, you get all involved, den you forget the people who were once around you. but when something bad happens, you just come back to us to talk. before long when the giant hoohaa has been made, you flutter back to your new clique. i'm not the only one who has been feeling this. i think you've always been like this actually just that i kept dismissing it and telling myself that its note true. guess now that someone has actually mentioned and noticed it, i guess i can't keep procrastinating again. but this time i'm standing up for myself and stop lying to myself again, you keep blowing hot and cold at us. one moment you're passionate about this, the next thing is that you treat it with indifference. you decide where you're heading now. keep to your decision and don't regrest it later. don't come running back to us when things don't turn out the way you please. i don't care whether its your current obsession or what. he may accept back then, but i know i won't.
pillows :]


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