i'm suddenly craving for a warm crusty croissant.
huungry!


let's see you try for once.

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HAHAHAHHAHA
REJOICE BAYBEE!
cos i'm done with primertwo final model.
((((:

the picture doesnt do it justice
so pop over my place (before friday)
and take a look!
:D

its not over,
cos the tedious documentation is now impending.
deadlinesdeadlines, but at least i can heave a sigh of relief,
for now.

day off tomorrow,
but i still have to busy myself with ppt presentation
and things that take up too much time.
(WHYWHYWHY PFFT)
me and my clever ideas argh.

i love you babe! (:

today's a pretty good day.
cos i was boring myself with laughing at shaun and his antics.
and okay, he must be thanked for [psst secret] ((:
but it got me thinking, alot.
paranoia rules the night!

why cant people just be straightforward?
its not like i cant handle the news.


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i was meant to tread the water
now i've gotten in too deep,
for every piece of me that wants you
another piece backs away.

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an update of a time long ago.
i believe it was a ermm wednesday night,
and the few of us went for the syf choral showcase
but for primary schools.

supposedly cheaponehneh (quotes jasmine)
but i thought it was pretty good!
espesh the korean kids with their hanbok.
kawaiii! (or whatever cute is in korean haha)

the cute guy (kid)
that hamham is obsessed with!

met up with duckhead,
and of all places, in the loo!
plus its a choir concert,
so we definitely saw people from the choral scene ahaha.
always a good opportunity to stalk people hah.

darn,
i kinda forgot what happened after that day.
bbq-ed with the family,
and met up with mschian now that she's back (and gone by now)
to realise that 874805849 family members are reading ur blog is kinda freaky.

okay i cant resist.


HELLO QIQI (:

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top 10 reasons why to date an architect

1. all night long, all night strong.
2. we are damn good with our hands.
3. if we can commit to chipboard, relationships should be easy.
4. you should see the things we erect.
5. use to doing things over and over again.
6. finishing early never happens.
7. we know the true meaning of interpretation.
8. creative positioning.
9. work well in groups.
10. entry and passage are always exciting.



bitter much?
bitter much.

pretty fierce i must say.
(:

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but when you said that,
i stopped momentarily.
and upon thinking about it,
i realize that its just a ruse.

booya.
some things are better left unsaid.

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sometimes
a random 40min call on a saturday afternoon
reminds you that you're not bordering on insane.
even though you spent the whole afternoon baking
and tying up cookiebags.
which threw model-making out of schedule.

so that means today
will be spent making hot and nasty love to sion.
(:

upset-ness should be channeled into determination please.

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if nothing is going to happen,
i'm going to lose it.

i'm THIS close to breaking point.
i mean, what in the world is this?
you must be kidding me.

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that's us when we were young.
so thats quite a few years ago.
for fear of angering ms charlene chain,
i shant reveal the years.
(:

i think we've all grown,
a little taller and a little fatter too.
so if you want to see me when i was younger?
there you go. not very different eh?
just a whole lot smaller.

i'm sure someone wanted to see it.
nezha?! nowhere close tsk.

so here's us now.
with the seattle girl back.
too many people (aka family members)
read my blog tsk.
so here's a bigg hollaaa from me to seattle.
and yes, i'll comment often hah.
in return, please tag to acknowledge ur presence
so i'll be reminded not to blog too openly 'bout stuff.
:X


proper update (not very) soon.
let me get to finishing my model first.
and sniffing glue eeesh.
i mean the above statement,
but i'm just not doing it on purpose.
part and parcel of model building sighh.

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i'm afraid that if i want anything too much,
it'll mean i'll never have it.

it has happened once,
doesnt mean it wont happen again.
blame the rain and my twin hugs at home.
how would i know that it'll rain today?

cynical wynical,
thats what tash said.


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i learned the hard way;
that they all say
things you want to hear
and my heavy heart sinks
deep down under you.

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so don't you fret, M'sieur Marius (hush-a-bye, dear Eponine)
I don't feel any pain (you won't feel any pain)
a little fall of rain (a little fall of rain)
can hardly hurt me now (can hardly hurt you now)

that's all I need to know
and you will keep me safe (i will stay with you)
and you will keep me close (till you are sleeping)

and rain will make the flowers grow.

- les miserables


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someone remind me to stop being distracted
and to do my work!
arghhh.

oooo, cheesecake!
*runs off to eat*

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AND BEFORE I FORGET!

THANKEUU MS ORANGE FOR THE SNAILMAIL LETTER!
i really didnt expect it but its always nice to receive stuff in the mail (:
(the postal box larh you bodo tsk)

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okayokay.
today was a total emotional rollarcoaster.
right from the beginning of the day gah.

i wont say what happened in the morning
but just a very bad start.
the only thing i knew was that i was mighty irritated and pissed.
even the people sitting next to me were shocked,
cos i was really pissy and frustrated.

i dont remember when was the time something like this happened,
but it certainly wasnt pretty.
i know i spilled everything out to tash in one long continuous sentence.
a combination of factors, but plentiful irritated.
i'm getting a migraine just thinkin about it.

but lunch made it better.
and the crazy woman who kept asking me to smile into the pc screen,
and the horrid person who kept tempting me with banmian.

today marked the first for granola diet!
half of us managed to control our erm desires
and i ate a single granola bar YAAYS.
but tash eventually gave in to curry chicken and rice.
tsktsk, self control babeeyyy! :D
(tho i succumbed into a chocolate donut but no one has to know)
(:

oc was quite interesting,
cos we wrote out our speeches for individual presentations.
and my topic's studio ghibli's 'grave of the fieflies'
yessssh, how cool is that?
erm provided you know what that is in the first place.
i tink i did a pretty decent job! (:

bus-ed to town with shaun to meet twin.
and surprisesurprisesurprise! (:
let's just say i'm a really happy boy okay?
i was jumping off the walls in total blisss hohohoho.
yesh i cant stop smiling!
:D:D:D:D:D:D

but eating one granola bar for the whole day proved its point.
for once, i actually felt giddy.
my legs were wobbly and my mind was drifting off.
and this happened when i was sitting down in the bus.
scarrry i tell you :X
so when i reached town, i rushed into the nearest place
and bought myself a scoop of icecream to raise my bloodsugar.
eeks.


updates and peektures soon i promise!
meanwhile, i've got project (ew yucks) till aug first.
i promise to blog on a less regular basis :X

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damndamndamn
dont talk to me.



i'm going to chop off the heads of
********
****
********
********
******
if you find the no. of alphabets coincide with
the no. of asterisks
watch out.

i'll bite your brains and chew it into pulp.
fuckfuck.

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"The limited-batch ice cream, made from 'an outrageous symphony of decadent chocolate ice cream, peanut butter cookie dough, butter brickle and white chocolate chunks,' is a take-off on his 1970s album and song 'Goodbye Yellow Brick Road.' It will be available from July 18 to July 25 in the company's Vermont scoop shops, with proceeds going to the Elton John AIDS Foundation, officials said Tuesday."

HELLO?
ELTONJOHN?
GOODBYE YELLOW BRICK ROAD?
(one of my favourite songs ya see)
BEN&JERRY'S?
i neeed to fly over to vermont now.

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a whole load of words
but its stuck inside my head.
i guess its a lack of transitions.
poofpoofpoof, another bubble bites the dust.
however that makes sense.

likeminded friends,
thank gawd for them.
its refreshing to finally someone who shares the same thoughts.
a breath of fresh air, knowing you're understood.
great, another one knows my secrets.
whooopie.

its not the physical fatigue.
cos i'm getting enough sleep (i think)
waking up tired the moment i'm reminded of my project.
thankgoodness i've still got three more weeks.
a torture to endure but an extension for perfection.
plus i havent even started.

big dreams, great hopes.
at least that's what sherry wants me to do,
to stretch myself and make it different
with more of me inside it.
but there's only so much i can do for experimentation.

and this to handle.
i'm stretching myself waaay too thin i tell you.
oh, me and my clever overachieving self.
then i ask myself, why?


snailmail?
saying what i needed to.
my palms are burning, help.
*frantically blows flames away but ends up encouraging more flames*

tomorrow! (:

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you know whaaat.
this is the final straw,
then i'll give up, for real this time.
this needs to end, now.

'i'm a changed man,
thats why i'm wearing pants.'
- callum aka mud.

okay i alternate pants and shorts for school,
but you get the idea.


its tough,
and in no way am i helping myself like that.
bah gah tar far lard.
fatneessss.

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sometimes,
you're too quick to react.
but you only have yourself to blame.

heave a sigh,
and move on.


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jai guru deva om
nothing's gonna change my world.

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dinnered with the family last night.
i dont know bout anyone else,
but sometimes i dont think i spend enough time with them.

just by chance,
i was thinking of the everyday routine in a house.
i guess you only realise it when you step into someone else's home.
after dinner (provided the family eats together),
there's a settlement of half an hour in front of the gogglebox,
and then splitting up to different rooms with excuses of work.

as one by one everyone leaves the family room,
they end up in their own room with others to entertain,
or the telly to soften their ride on the dream train.

by eight,
the family room is dark,
lit up by shadows from the bedrooms.

it always seems that there are others more important.
important enough to wait on the im patiently,
important enough to check ur facebook every five minutes.
when there's family outside three seconds away,
perhaps troubled with matters at work or school,
or with an interesting thought of what happened that morning in the lift.


thats why i try not to skip out on family dinners on the weekends.
true, i see the same people every evening,
maybe not in the mornings as everyone leaves before eight.
catching up on the week's events, or even family gossip.
they keep the favourite portion of the fish for you,
scold you for adding too much sugar in your tea.
hey, maybe thats enough (:

with this stalemate,
i realised how much i've missed
when my mind was away.

walking outside funan mall,
we stopped at the sound of roaring planes.
standing by the road,
we caught sight of the airshow for ndp rehearsal.
with appropriate ooohs and ahhs,
we stood there admiring shapes made by the planes
with white trails tinged pink by the sunset.

i loved the sky on the ride home.
seven forty one, two parts blue and one part green.
(:


eh.em outing on wed!

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with friends like these,
who needs armies?

xoxo

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slippers and shorts.
something we've never done cos we're not allowed in the studio
without covered shoes,
or sandals/havaianas at the very least.

so we took the chance today to wear em!
cos it was weird and boring nationaleducation talk today.
i toootally wasted my whole afternoon,
but it was great spending time with my girls.
(:

we had time to waste before the talk.
so it was truth and dare along foreign corridors
and i didnt get struck once hahah.
but there was pseudo-riding-on-stranger's-bicycle,
banging-on-vending-machine-as-if-psycho
and the classic asking-stranger-for-no.
hilarious init!


i swear tingers makes me fat.
cos everywhere we go,
whenever we're bored, we just eat.
and i had the weirdest tiramisu ever today.
next time i'm sticking to cheesecake (:

and tash,
i have ur incriminating photos tsssk!
but thanks for talking to me tooday.
<3

the ride home was hilarious.
cos shaun and i discussed who was gay and who was not hah.
you're right, gay until proven straight!
cos yooou will never know lols.

this is bad.
am having a craving for cheesecake now mmms.
cheers to a creative rush tomorrow! (:


if i'm not supposed to feel good about this
then why does the sky suddenly seem so clear today?

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crit yesterday.
eeks, i'm going to kill mich**l.

i'm one weird creature.
i'd totally freak out a good half hour before the crit starts,
even going to the extent of asking the lecturers as they walk pass,
how they're feeling today.
yeah, that was what i did.
and i'd go paranoid if the lecturers (mr chie*) gives a brief nod or a grunt as an acknowledgement.
but two mins before my actual presentation,
i'd sober up and suddenly be calm (on the outside).

crit didnt go well.
but i guess if it went well, it wouldnt be called a crit.
it was okay in the beginning but it kinda of blew up at the end,
when all the loose ends got exposed.
but i guess its for my own good (:
cos the lecturers had doubts in the areas that i was unsure of,
so it kind on convinced me that i should change certain parts.
hellyeah, its never peaches and cream.

so i guess,
i've to start making my final model from now.
so i dont rush like crazy in three weeks time.
:X

argh,
art friend is so becoming my best friend again.

am seeing the classmates for lunch in a while
and in case any of ya all read this,
thanks for keeping me sane,
cos i wouldnt know why else i'd go to school. (:


i just happen to catch sight that photo.
(the one right at the top of the post you ninny)
and it sort of conjured up thoughts.
all of us wear shoes, different types for different areas of our life.
loafers for work, sneakers for friends and wellingtons for rainydays like this for ourselves.
its like a career progression throughout the day.
when we come home, we take our weary loafers off and slip into slippers for the home.
and when we're going out, we slip into wellworn sneakers to meet up with those we havent met in a long time.
yet, sometimes we choose to wear new and unseasoned shoes.
now, do we wear that for ourselves, or showing a new side of ourselves to the people we know?

it seems that so often we slip into shades of characters to meet different people.
we still occupy the same body,
but what we wear on the top, be it uniforms or clothes for school,
does it define who we're trying to portray?
and how much of that encompasses who we are inside?


unfinished thoughts,
but its food for thought.
(for the rest of the day at least)
and for the record, i'm wearing slippers to school today.

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this is the reason for my nonexistence during the weekend.
i dont really like it,
seriously.
BAH

staying up so late to do work, till three plus.
thats why you'd see me online till pretty late these past few days (nights/mornings).
this resulted in me being ultimately bitchy in class today.
but i must really thank mom and brother for sending me to sch.
i cant imagine carrying my (baaah) model in the train.
would be really pissed and even more tired by 9am
:X

it helped when my brother played nice songs in the car today.
yays (:

maybe i'm a perfectionist,
thats why i get things done by the day/night before deadline.
i cant imagine being in school hours/mins from deadline and still rushing through work.
i'd even stay up all the way to five than promise myself i'd finish it the next day.
crunchtime, and i'd rather be done and watching everyone rushing.
(however psychotic and evil that may sound)

i guess by twelve,
i was really very irritable.
normal conversations that led me to sprouting words like pussy(cats) and such.
let ur mind run wild, but i blame it on fatigue.
its ahbeng-expletive-exploding guowei for you.
so sorry to those who receive the brunt of my words! :X

BUT
cheesecake helped aloooot!
with the apricot/marmalade relish.
mmmmms, thanks jam! (:

and i bought marypoppins
at a cheap price of sevenbucks!
the quality's questionable but the songs are like a spoonful of sugar!

speaking of sugar spoonfuls,
i hope that critique goes well tomorrow.
cos this is the first time i'm not confident in my project,
hence the wariness.
i forsee that i'm gonna be bitched up,
but not in a good way and leaving a bad impression.
arrrgh wangadoodle.


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i've had it,
you've had it.
he's had it,
we've had it.
enough is enough is enough is enough.

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am surviving purely to meet the deadline.
even my lines are going from rhythmic consistency to random placements.
arggh.

then the feelings of not being up to the mark come in.
ohbrother, where did everything go?
i guess this happens when reality sets in.
movemovemove on.

just got to get the brain going again.
and the creativity flooding.


cutting my finger? check
cutting my brains? pending

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EH.EM OUTING
((((:

our first outing,
and it was fanatastic (yes i just created this word) !
plus all of us wore black to my request,
& it actually worked out without any complaints HAHA

i'm honestly glad the dinner happened.
cos with primertwo partone up for submission on monday,
and crit on tuesday, i'm starting to freak out.
a little at first but its building up every single minute.
:X

tho i rushed down from school,
it was for a very goood thing yays.
it certainly kept me really excited from 6.23 am in the morning.


school was fun tho.
cos i kept laughing at people (and eating and growing fat)
stupid marcus its all your fault cos
YOU MAKE ME FAT!
and stop winking at me cos i alr put that incriminating photo of you!
HAHAHHAHA.


anyways, we dinnered cheap.
but we got to talk about alot of things and got to catch up.
and cheeeekychocolates was yum.
i'm not planning to weigh myself fyi :X
the warm choc cake was really good.
tho it was small, but it was yuuum.
good things come in small packages (and high prices).

starbucks-ed after that,
and i wont mention the reason why we went there.
but tea and hot chocolate spills alot of stuff.
maybe thats the magic of starbucks,
honestly, i should put recorders everywhere to eavesdrop on everyone (:

i never thought i'd talk bout this ever again.
its scary sometimes to see the extent of things that happened.
people have these issues at like erm 60?!
a nightmare relived again, four days?
it was the worst four days me thinks.
still, lesson learnt.

rotating roles,
jamjam will organise the next outing! (:
and i'm back to cutting foam boards pfft.

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finally an official update
with peektures and all.
and this spans for the past two weeks :X



hongkong,
over a trumatising weekend.
but still, it was good to get out for the weekend.
(except that i woke up with a blockednose/flu)


the only thing i remembered was jasonmraz on my ipod
and the beautiful sunrise i caught while on the plane.
(yes, the cliche window shot of the sky)
i know this is terribly emo for me,
but it would have been just fine,
if time stopped there at thirtyeight thousand feet.
(:

over the next two days,
it was eating and shopping in a vicious cycle.
there wasnt alot of clothes to buy,
and cos of my throat and my cold,
i didnt really eat much.
still, i enjoyed the company with the family.


mentioned earlier that my flight was pushed back.
so other that being mighty irritated,
we spent one more day in hongkong.
and it was not as fun as it seems,
cos i was hacking away like an old man.

but naturally,
i got a little more shopping done. (:
but when back in singapore, i was seriously bushed.
deaf with a sore throat,
i'm glad its all over now.


dinnered with the peeps,
before my donuts grew mould in my fridge.
(apparently i read that people freeze their krispykremes!)
the conversation was good, albeit soft.
cos i was still deaf eeps.

it was nice catching up with everyone.
and know that people who can carry off an intellectual conversation still exists.
(not referring to anyone in particular hah)
of course the spot we chose, the stage outside nat. library,
was perfect cos there was aircon seeping out of the walls yays.


and krispykremes and cheesecake(being a little too tart),
kept the confessions a-spilling!
2am dessert bar next please.
(((:

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whywhywhy dont they have it in singapore?
i'm craaving for one now.
and i wanna try the newyorkcheesecake flavour!

who cares about the calories!
(i'll regret this statement 3 mins after finishing a krispykreme)
(:



i'll miss ranting on thursdayfridaysaturdaysunday.
its gonna be a looong weekend.
you've already been missed twin!
):

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this was an original post to complain
and lament about stupid deadlines
and models to be done by friday.

but looking at the random tags,
i smiled unconsciously!
(:

project hasnt been very kind,
to me or any of my classmates.
true, we've bitched and bonded over this 'tribulation'.
but the toll of work is catching up.

my life begins at six plus in the evening,
half hour nap till dinner.
a shower and i start work.
somehow, for the past few (two) days,
its been till two or three.
and suddenly its school again.

i've no qualms about doing work,
but it gets unnerving when i finish school late
looking forward to an evening of mindless tv and rest.
and i realise that i've to continue with the work thru the night.
knowing that the work hasnt ended kills the spirit.

i just wanna apologise if i've been pissy with anyone.
looking back, i know i have been.
considering me surviving on 3hours of sleep,
i get pretty irritated at the end of day(night).

i know i havent been completely humourous,
nor giving proper answers/replies.
sometimes i rant about things that i dont even know i'm saying.
there's clearly no answer, but i still insist i'm right.
so i do apologise again sighh.

when this is over,
(technically not till for another three weeks, but the first hurdle will be crossed on fri)
please come and collect a chocolate bar from me.
you (you know who you all are) deserve it for putting up with me.
(:


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even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills your mind
you finally find
you and i collide.
<3

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