when i was young, i fell in love
iasked my sweetheart what lies ahead
will we have rainbows, day after day
- doris day

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here we are, at the end of the week.
didnt think how i managed to get through it,
but the end couldnt have come soon enough.

i couldnt quite believe i got through shipment,
and being bossed and tossed around without a sound from my indignant lips.
and for four days, day after day at that.
i usually want/need to have the last say,
so if i just give a blank stare and not comment, i must have lost some fire.

it came up to a point when i questioned myself if i was that incompetent.
naturally, there was a period when a 'f*ck you' was quite needed.

but that aside, i shouldnt harp,
because that is quite over and done with.

so i'm here sitting on my mom's bed,
blankly listening to songs and wiping sleep from my eyes.
this habit of rushing from school then to work isnt going to work.
no doubt it left me busy and bushed at the end of the day,
i cant help thinking of why i'm doing what i'm doing as i try to fall asleep at night.
sometimes i lay awake thinking, sometimes i just fall asleep due to fatigue.

seriously, i was watching an episode of something last night on my macbook,
and i woke up two hours later with a cramp in my leg and realizing that i fell asleep halfway through the show.
if i didnt have the cramp, i wouldnt have realized at all!

i try my hardest to scope in my social activities within the next two weeks,
or even more so, the next 1.5 weeks.
because i dont know when i'll be free again when school starts for me.
so with picnic cancelled this sunday, i guess i will have time for myself and the family.
even dinner with my paternal side seems to be cancelled tonight,
so i guess its me and the books.

speaking of books,
i realize that i still have 'precious' by sapphire on my table unread,
so maybe i should start with that.
the movie was really good so we'll see where that goes hmms.
and goodness, i still have not watched inception nor despicable me! ):

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