my eyes are wide open
but all that I can see is, chapel bells are callin for everyone but-a me.
but I don't worry cause,
mama said there'll be days like this,
there'll be days like this mama said.
- the shirelles

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i really dont remember watching the original 'alice in wonderland' movie!
i dont remember no caterpillar and no red hearts.
but yet, the blue dress and purple/pink stripes ring a bell.

i get my fridays off,
and i wanted plans and plans to make it worthwhile.
but i ended up staying at home, with basically nothing to do.
i'm not sure if this little fever was psychologically induced,
because later at five in the afternoon, it was the sleep that made it go away.
i regretting cancelling plans, because i kind of knew this virus might somehow be self-induced.
it doesnt help that i dont feel any much better now.

i like making plans for myself,
scheduling one little bubble of activity after another.
so this day was one that kept me stumped.
in the end , i planned activities and movies on my laptop.
of which both categories were definitely not satisfactorily completed.
only sleep was sufficiently fulfilled, but the thing is that i'm not even lacking (much) in sleep.
my guesses are probably correct.

i dont like to be taken as dispensable,
so i work hard for my money.
however, if it comes to a point that i've had enough of this,
i am convincing myself to let go, in more ways than one.
i doubt, in a third person's perspective, that this is an attention-seeking gesture.
so if anyone even remotely suggests this, well screw you.

with the rest of the night to go,
i'm listed things to do.
pack my windswept-like room, get down to write the notes,
maybe binge again and then down with rest of the shows i loaded.
then its pink dot tomorrow and then blooie's with great people.

le sigh,
le bye.

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