a chair is still a chair, even when there's no one sittin' there
but a chair is not a house and a house is not a home
when there's no one there to hold you tight
and no one there you can kiss goodnight
- glee cast

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i cant seem to seat my thoughts on the same train,
so here goes:

1. the latest glee episode 'home' has got me thinking, got me sad and got me despondent all at the same time. either the episode's really good or there is really something wrong with me.
2. managed to stay in school today with no help from anyone, and managed to get a present so kudos to me.
3. i cant seem to eat anything. after i eat, i feel like puking or forcing myself to. disgustingly so because i never enjoy anything i put in my mouth, not even for the sake to sustain my blood level.
4. kind of burst out to my mom when she needed help with her iphone. no specific channels from where it came from but it just came out unknowingly.
5. i want to coop myself in my room watching endless episodes of 'little nonya', because its the most easily accesible.
6. finally collecting my internship pay tomorrow. which also means its time to pay off debts.
7. i want to talk about it, but i dont know if i can.
8. i did it out of my own concern, and looks like my worst case scenerio came true. fine, i'll walk away. kicking up a fuss and telling you would do not help to me.
9. very tempted not to go to school to help groupmates tomorrow but work from home. the hell i will get is beyond me.
10. even sleep probably wont help, doubt binging either.
11. starving like mad, but i'm tempted to push the dinner plate away.
12. hope that tomorrow's h2h with bel and zkai will help.
13. very very tempted to delete everything.

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