was kinda done with schoolwork,
so i did myself (dad's nagging) a favour and cleared up my table and my room.
and the very least, my bed's back to its original usage for two people to sleep.
but not that i'm going to share it with anyone, somehow my cat doesnt even want to sleep with me.

anyways, back to the point.
i found this big black book hidden behind papers and books.
and it turned out to be a diary/notebook that i bought two years (or more ago).
i only managed to get through the first two pages and one is a measly six-pointer newyear resolution.

but i reread the awesome cover again,
and it made me think again.
i know the picture above is mirror-imaged,
only realised my mistake after taking the photo.
so yeah, deal with it haha!

so based on the points on the cover on the book,i will do my new year's resolutions for this year.
so without worrying about any repercussions, here goes:

1. live with intention
to me, this means taking each step or action with purpose. so this year, i aim to take a second look at what i'm doing. and before doing it, by questioning myself if this is what i want to do and if i'm ready for what it might bring. too many times have i stepped into actions not wanting or bothering to know what consequences it may bring along this cumbersome duty. so with this year, to be able to be responsible for my actions and to think twice. i dont want to be left dumbfounded when questioned.

2. walk to the edge.
do something daring that challenges my limits. for now, i'm definitely unsure on what it is going to be right now. but i want to do something that can potentially my life physically. okay that didnt sound too exciting but do something like scaling a rock or possibly parachuting from somewhere. the academic year probably restricts any of these things happening but standing on the edge of a cliff might possibly work too. anything that takes my breath away literally with me cussing and repeatedly reminding myself why i am doing this. this will be interesting how i can accomplish this.

3. listen hard
listening was a trait that i prided myself in having before but as the months and years go by, i find myself not doing so anymore. mere dismissals and not sitting down to listen and dissect. so for this year, to take time to listen to those who bother to talk to me.

4. practice wellness.
okay everyone practically has this exercise resolution thing going on, and likewise, it is going as one of the list. with army coming soon, i need to take time off to exercise. i've got the necessary clothes (bought from factory outlet) so its time for me to get down to exercise. plus all these excess baggage that i'm getting used to is not a good thing. i need to get back the psychotic adrenaline that i used to get from exercising!

5. play with abandon
too often this past year have i played with a nagging worry in the back of my head wondering if i have unfinished schoolwork or some other worry. so this time if i'm playing, i must let go and play with abandon!

6. laugh
laugh more, smile more, there are too many things in this world to be happy for.

7. choose with no regret
i think its kind of self-explanatory but yeah. i think for this year, there's no more rush for me to get into things with that kind of vigour and abandonment. i dont know if its the sudden loss of energy or otherwise, i feel that from now, choosing each step carefully and not taking risks. risks often dont lead to successes for me so far, so taking chances wont be an option. so, to choose knowing what to expect and to go forth with it with no regrets.

8. continue to learn
learning something new other than in school always continue to bewilder me. i never seem to (make/have) any time to do so. so this year, to learn something new and completely. maybe it is to learn a new language (french?) or learn a new skill (like volunteer work) or even (God forbid) to dance.

9. appreciate your friends.
to spend more time, to listen to what they have to say and to keep abreast of their lives. to appreciate the existence of them in my life.

10. do what you love
i guess other than the everyday things that i love to do, one of the things i would like to continue doing is photography. now armed with a dslr of considerable quality, and a blackbird-fly, i should be taking it out more often to take photos! whether or not i have company should not matter!

11. live as if this is all there is
to stop sitting in front of my laptop day-in-day-out but to go out, for a reason or without one to experience lift, and live as if this is all there is.


and that is what i achieve for this new year, the beginning of a new decade.

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