'it was the third regional championships. it was like the emerald city to my yellow brick road.'
'wow, you actually made ice-skating sound gayer.'
-modern family

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i'm glad submission is over.
this is probably one of the times that i actually could wait for it to be over.
it has been a tough week, very tough week.
twelve hours (plus two hours) of sleep actually made everything seem a little better.

halloween was indeed fun,
i'm glad i got to spend it with the great people at work.
in my opinion, i thought the dressing up was definitely a success!

for the rest of the week,
it was probably dismal at best.
major argument w/ parents,
and let's just say its something i dont want live though this again.
i admit i'm in the wrong,
but bringing these overwhelming unfinished problems to light,
i was definitely at breaking point.

following submission,
i guess i finally understand when some people say that
its like a buffer to problems.
almost sadistically, its like a drug to stop thinking of things.

thinking back, maybe this ultimatum will work for me.

decided to take a break from work this month.
truth be told, sometimes i'm using work for escape.
a drug that i keep going back time and time again.
the satisfaction that i once enjoyed may just be a disguise to the fatigue that i'm getting now.
despite being given the green light again,
in the fit of indignation and quick decision,
i decided to give myself time to breathe again and open my eyes to something new.

lunched with shaunny yesterday after submission,
but that was after getting lost in braddell.
i'm definitely having the macbook blues,
sent it for repair and i would probably only get it late next week.
argh, the horror of now being chained to a desk facing a desktop.
now watching shows in the comfort of my bed is impossible.

dino's for laksa and icekimmoo where i succumbed to calories.
and i keep telling myself that post-submission calories do not count at all.
somehow, all these 'energy-giving' food will make up for the lack of sleep.
but it came to a point while eating my waffle that the lazy afternoon sun was hurting my eyes.
sleeping for an hour or two makes your eyes grow incredibly small and sensitive to sunlight.
i mean crazily so, seriously!

talked and talked.
sometimes its only when people bring out your issues,
then you take time to realize what you've been hiding or running away from.

i'm almost lost with this expense of time,
that weekends are finally days for healing and self-reflection.
it came to a point just now that i slept for an hour or two just to tell myself that i'm not waking early.
if you dont understand, its okay hahaha.

michael jackson later tonight,
will see if it lives up to the reviews.
but for now lunch, then bigbang theory, cougartown, gossipgirl, how i met your mother, modern family, antm, projectrunway and finally grey's anatomy.
just to catch of the shows i missed this week.

damn i watch too much telly.

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