a veryvery long day indeed.
or yesterday for that matter.

was so bushed i almost fell asleep into my kimchi.
though i really fell asleep nearing the end of dinner,
and conked out in the car on the way home.
i don't know how people do it,
but at the expense of what i'm being paid,
i'm guessing i'm being milked for what its worth.

and that was followed by a deep sleep till four/five in the morning.
ended up watching shows till late and back to sleep,
completely missing the emmy's this morning bah.
):

i'm still very hesitant on embarking on the two-hour-long season five finale of grey's.
unrealistic expectations of love much, but still hmms.

my mom asked me last night,
"why do i work myself so hard?"
that was then i stopped and ask myself that very same question.
i couldnt find an answer but i may be suffering the aftereffects of being burnt.
a little for now at best, but nonetheless very existent.


contemplation and i keep staring.
should i or shouldnt i?
being tossed around is not something i want to invest in again.

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