and i've often wondered, how did it all start?

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have been pretty obsessed with abba songs.
espesh those from the movie soundtrack.
somehow, they manage to reduce me into a blithering mess while on the train.
and i seem a little happier and jumpier when i step out,
with a tune on my tongue.

i count my blessings at work.
especially when i've my favourite -kins to work with.
somehow, the littlest things make me smile,
serendipity if you want to name it.
the wrong order, the smear of hot fudge on my shirt.
it even makes cleaning the belgian waffle machine bearable.
maybe we're just little tired gnomes but we're planting happy seeds haha.

and the people who visit me really lift my spirits.
even though i know they'd turn up that night.
i really go into a hysterical high hah.
(with an apparent lack of judgement for the size of my icecream scoops)
but knowing you've like-minded warriors amidst the sea of customers really help.
it makes the war behind the dipcase a little more motivated.

and then, a little something in me dies.

fraught with empty mornings,
they've now been dedicated to rubbish american series that makes me laugh.
maybe that invitation should have been accepted.

do-re-mi,
and on sharp grass, music lessons are reborned,
so are youthful crushes on maria rainer.
i'm glad i went for it, cranberry juice and all.
i definitely needed a night like that.
it helps to soothe the nerves and reminds me that i'm not alone.
coincidences and seeing green,
my courage is oddly spurred.
a midnight vanilla doesnt seem so very odd now.
(:

two steps before and i'm hesitant,
not knowing what to expect, i dont want to stand alone in the crowd.
sure, this should be the least of my worries cos i've bigger issues.
i'll pray hard and go ahead with it,
salmon-pink and all.
now, that's my prerogative.

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the judges will decide
the likes of me abide
spectators of the show
always staying low
the game is on again

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caught mamma mia over the weekend with the family.
i guess its time well spent considering now i'm around when they arent.
abba songs are always a spirit-lifter,
and if you're wondering, yes i was attempting to boogie in my seat. (:
and my brother was wondering what i was doing hahah.

a personal review,
if you've watched the musical when it came to singapore some time ago.
you'll find out that its a little too similar to it, from a in-your-face pov.
so thats why i didnt like it, and having stars like colin firth sing?
not very sexy, to me anyways.
but if you didnt watch the musical, you'll definitely like it.
who doesnt secretly hum to abba songs anyways?!

but that didnt stop the inclusion of the soundtrack that is being blasted now.
hahaha i have a thing for soundtracks and covers of familiar songs.
i really like the screen version of 'dancing queen' tho.
the arrangement was pretty good.


the funniest thing happened yesterday!
cos i was playing the entire abba collection in the restaurant yesterday.
and to my amazement, a lady came up to ask about the songs.
she actually distracted me from doing a waffle order hahaha.
i literally stood there poised with my icecream scoop and blabbered about abba.
and serene finally decided to do my order cos i probably wasnt gonna end anytime soon hah.
cool much hahahha.
cos she came back a few more times to ask questions.
(:

i pray everything goes okay today!
off to prepare to work oooo.

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this is what you get,
when the hot air goes to ur head
and you stomp around thinking that you can handle it.
i guess this brings me back to ground.

maybe its the wrong crowd,
maybe its just a bad time espesh when i had this to handle.
rahhs, it still boils to the fact that next sem i cant be distracted.
not when everyone is catching up.

but happyhappy that sam, tab and i went to ikea today!
i didnt know that ikea is so accessible hahaha.
traumatic experience with a missing piece of paper but all is fine now!
plus i had the ikea cheesecake so everything is good hahah.
that reminds me to finally pack my bag later.
otherwise i'll still be bringing bottles to work hah.

on a sidenote:
i bought my shirt for scoopyparty already!
the colour is a little erm adventurous bout its only gonna be worn for one day sooo yeah.
and tingting is finally gonna work!

excited-ness! :D

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its time i start questioning my priorities.
and i start asking myself why i get myself involved with so many activities at once.
seriously, why did i even say yes in the first place?

with the launch that has been haunting my mornings just as i wake,
i suddenly get calls and realise of all the events that i'm supposed to go for.
egad, and it all seemed to be do-able right before the holidays.
it almost makes me wonder if my job is the right thing for me.
yes, i stress on the almost.
cos the satisfaction that i get out of this seems so much more,
i'm even starting to relish the late nights and the laughter brought on by fatigue.
at least you know that everyone's in the same retarded mode as you hahah
(or thats what i think)

i'm contemplating cutting off the ties of some.
but looking at what it might bring in the future,
when school starts to drag my life away, i'm taking a double take.
i need an experienced eye on this.
so in the meantime, i'll try to drag it away as much as possible.
maybe till things start to turn ugly.
the spitfire's already got the soup bubbling.
pffft, i dont need to be reminded thanks.
some people thing their lives are empty like their own tsk.

second thoughts,
but till then, its doing the things i love.
like erm seperating m&ms by their colour hahaha!
:D

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these are the people who make me forget the dark side of the moon
(:

exciting saturday night
albeit rushed from almost forgetting my pint at work.
and bel, we forgot the dried ice in zkai's fridge laaah! ))):

i just wanna thank all those who came for the partay last night!
(in no order of merit)
saffie, aggie, lwei, gerald, bel, zkai, jingkang, yuhuai, cheeguan, jieminn, peiyong, meirong
despite our crazy weekdays, i'm glad yall made it down to bask in the soft light of the moon.
cos this was my only social event for the week ahahaha.
yesh, preetty sad.

yeah, i knw the whole point was to admire the moon
and attempt to find some hint of changer's shadow moon.
but we ended up enjoying everyone's company and the lantern procession!
with plenty of wii action and gasping at the candles hahaha.

i dont know about you,
but it has been a really long time since i've taken mid-autumn festival seriously haha.
the last time i held a lantern (not those stupid battery operated kinds) was like in sec 2?!
i definitely fulfilled this tiny little wish inside of me to hold a lantern again.
hahahha i get such a thrill in seeing a lantern light up!

walking down random back alleys
make you appreciate ur childhood even more.
stares abound, you start to realise how boxed up life gets
and that you get lesser and lesser time to do the things you love
with the increasing exposure to life's harshest.
its then you start to appreciate the littlest things like little paper lights and the quiet night.
(:

sometimes, just sitting on the floor,
chatting about things that seem to be hindering ur week
clears up the dregs and makes things a little clearer.
it helps to have a listening ear.
(while burning ur fingers off hahaha)

wanna say thanks to all the peeps,
i couldnt ask for anything more.
i'm honoured to be part of the partyplanning activity!
and much love to my co-partyplanner.
we're on our way to earning big bucks! :D


and a sidenote,
kor is gonna be back in town soon!

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you know what?
no matter how much i can dread about working night shifts,
i always seem to come out happier.
tired much, but happier.

yeah, its 3.41 in the morning (now)
and my wrist hurts, seriously.
it must be all the wrong techniques of scooping.
now i'm getting all the just rewards.
that being said, i'm seriously only gaining muscle on my right arm.
like whaaaaaat?!

this is not going to help me at all during the match-making sessions.
HAHAHAHHAHA :D

a little cheese goes a long way
in making me a little more energetic! :D
cheesecake scraps on tuesday and waffle-wich just now!
(or last night or yesterday ermm whatevers)

and saffie came to visit just now!
it brings the number up to a grand total of 6!

okay i need to list down things i need to bring tmr (later):
1. library book for returning
2. buy lunch for staaaff
3. mooncakes
4. pack a pint for party later
5. schoolbased tee to change into

shit, i know i forgot something pfft.
neh-mind, i found my pillow already so its time for some welldeserved rest.
mornin' world!
(:

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i reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
but i won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm yours.

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the funny thing is how suddenly support seems so important.
i guess its the thing that keeps repetition from droning on and on.
thats why i was reallly excited when tingers and shaun visited me on monday.

sure it was supposed to be a slow monday night
(which was a total lie by the way)
i'm glad they came, cos i needed the company.
knowing that i mattered enough for them to cab down from goodness-knows-where,
makes me feel plenty loved.
(:

bringing along joan who came after dinner,
they stayed till druggie came, drenched from walked through the rain.
and they stayed long after the place was closed and even wanted to accompany me home.
(which i declined of course cos i had to clean up)
plenty sweeet, these little mice friends of mine hahaha.

tash and voldemort visited last night,
getting plenty lost along the way hahaha.
but still they made the effort to find the store,
and i know tash's not one who'd go out of her way to do stuff.
yeah, i was reaally reaally glad to see them,
even if it was just for awhile.

my biological clock (not the baby one)
is slowly adjusting to suit this new schedule of mine.
so for once, i'm actually waking up after eight am.
my dad makes lunch for me so i'll be fed before i go to work.
so yeah, i feel plenty loved tho i know i prob dont see my family alot now.

battling a blocked nose,
i cant be bothered by frivolous stuff anymore.
so if you get pissy, dont be surprised if i roll my eyes and walk away.
sometimes you've got to figure things out by yourself,
cos what i'm doing now, its covers the basic and i see no reason to do more than necessary.
so throw ur tantrums, i'm not batting my eyes at all.
anyway, my weird bouts of fatigue (due to flu medicine) are starting to scare me.
cos i can actually take naps with few hours on end.
hahahahha, let's just say it doesnt happen to me very often :D


wondering if this is temporary or a stand-in
or what i've been looking for all this time.
so why reject?

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three days.
the amount of sleep i'm getting is getting lesser and lesser ahah.
and strangely, my biological clock is starting to bend towards the new schedule.
that is veryvery bad rahs.

working late and morning commitments dont make sense.
and i officially know how peiying and liping feel with their job commitments,
except mine is a little more extreme.
that was why saturday night fever(shift) was torture,
especially when my headache started to throb at nine.
yet, the scooping and random orders for waffles seemed to keep me going,
however crazy that sounds.
i actually thrive with a never-ending flow of work.

which is a really good thing for the company hahaha,
not that i'm complaining.
its like when school ended,
i was supremely bored on the first monday of the holidays.
hahahaha, that must have sounded pretty retarded.
so in a way, i kind of miss the hectic lifestyle of school.

i kind of understand now why people work for b&j's as scoopies.
its really not about the pay nor the job, its the people.
its the people that keeps the momentum going,
and its the people who keeps you coming back each and every day.
as a new young'un, its a little difficult to get into the groove,
in more ways than just one.
and its times like this, you forget the people next to you.
the people who are willing to listen and to rush down just to talk to you.
(:

sighh,
i guess taking the first step is the key.
so there we go, starting from square one.
and i'm finally gonna have people to visit me this week!
or tomorrow and tuesday for those who are confirmed anyways.
SO YAYS WOOO.

okay,
talking to people online distracts me.
hence the entry with lots of loopholes.
when bombs starting going off, work keeps me busy.
and i get by with a little help from my friends.
(:

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i just wanna say,


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tans fade, highlights darken,
and we all get sick of sand in our shoes.
but the end of summer is the beginning of a new season.
so we find ourselves looking into the future.

hello fall.
keep the rain falling,
falling hard on the granite walls.

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phhishh food!
did you know that every little fudge fish in each tub
is unique (aka diff scales) and has eyes and a mouth?
bet you didnt know what!
(:

and again,
i'm thankful for being in such dynamic company
and being in such an inspiring company!

today aka second day
was spent with sundaes and the recipes.
so that means i got to sample more icecream and had belgian waffles ahaha.
plus one or two brownies!
and yes, i feel one or two spare tyres on their way.

even not eating lunch doesnt help!
:X

had my thyroid jab with the girls today.
and omgggggggggaaawd, i was freaking out.
yes its a jab with a needle and alll!!!
the last time i had it was at pri six when i had my bcg.
plus i was the only guy so the nurse put me the last.
it didnt help that cheryl told me that girls can take pain 8 times better than guys,
so it'll prob me hurt me more that them.

so yeah,
you would freak out too!
just an update, its numb now so i'm having a little trouble typing.
and everytime i tense my muscles, it aches.
BAH!

and i wanted to make little gift pegs for my fellow scoopies.
but the jab is making me drowsy and tired, just like what fengyi said.
ahhhh, looks like there wont be gifts tomorrow for the girls.
cos i'd prob hit the sack in another halfhour.

but tomorrow's the last day!
sad cos the girls are quite fun to be around and we'd be seperated,
but excited cos i'm fiiinally starting work and hopefeully at dempsey!
((:

batch #45!

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