its funny how things turn out.
for both the better and the worst.
cos looking at the signs, suddenly for no apparent reason.
people are overly nice,
overly asking for my interaction and opinion.
i fear, that this is to make up for the decision.
that the answer is nil.

i told myself to already expect the worst.
but yet, it still doesnt seem like i've seen in its entirety.
as always, i must be fooling myself.
cos i've been dreaming of cloudless skies and gelato.

i can only imagine the only way out.
but i havent yet fully pictured what would happen if the otherwise should happen.
damn the optimistic thoughts.

damnit, i wouldnt mind the heated words.
if it means that i can go.
thats how much it means to me.

at least from now,
i should have learnt that being optimistic gets me nowhere.
ten full days maybe more.
grasp the emptiness guowei.


surprise dessert visit yesterday.
of course i was the one who provided the sweets.
but i've gotten sick of brownies. :/
plus my brother made a whole pan of it somemore.
i wouldnt have minded it if it had turned out a success.
but it didnt, i foresee empty calories hmpf.

random conversations are abound.
even if the place was werid with lights that refused to be switched on.
i thank, for the effort made to come all the way here. (:
cos otherwise i dont think i could have met up.

great company,
great talk.
suddenly, unglamness doesnt matter.
thanks bel/kai! :D

it was a sucky day before that.
(:


dont hope for the impossible.
maybe it takes time.
at the very least, dont give up hope yet.
i think i said too much.

comment? / top