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i know this is kinda late.
but i'm still pretty much hyped up about the documentary on choirs last night.
its basically about this guy, gareth malone, who is the conductor of the london symphonice orchestra if i'm not wrong,
who takes on the challenge of building up a choir in a typical high school.
whatsmore, to compete on the international stage of the worldchoirgames, china.

despite having ninemonths before the audition,
the students were completely without the knowledge of music other than r&b.
and i just happen to be switching between channels,
cos otherwise i'd be watching the 9pm show on channel eight hmms.

the show really struck a chord.
cos it brought back so many memories of struggling with the choir for the choir olympics.
never did i expect to see the light of the choirolympics to be showcased here in singapore.
cos we were featured in a teeny portion in the papers after we came back,
and only worth a brief mention in a minister's speech.

like what jasmine mentioned,
it seemed so much more intense compared to what we view everyday choir life here.
to see a conductor putting in so much effort and love,
to see the students trying so hard to make something out of their singing.
it suddenly brings back why i joined the choir in jc.

the struggles and the pain.
all seems so familiar and nostalgic.

the part when the chorusmaster sent all his students a copy of the cd
was really very touching.
it really means that he treasures every single one in the choir
and that they make such a difference in this choir.
everyone matters.

now,
when are we ever gonna see that again?
:/


on a lighter note,
watch this!
queen latifah is damn hot! :D

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for we remain strangers, by choice.
outing on thursday.
big plans but it was a good day in the heartlands of amk. (:
plus we met sneaky characters hiding in the toilets of amkhub.
great fun in guessing who are the alternate identities of hmmhmm.
and i got myself a nice top. (:

happiness is in a scoop of soybean icecream.
creamcheese-ish yummy!
cheap decadent indulgences yay.

and i love being a virgin eric whitacre chordgasmist!
the beauty of clash chords. (:


finally painted my room.
over friday and saturday.
mellow and seemily murkish grey.
but i still like it, bold statement eh. (:

and i painted a sheep design on it.
simple but nice.



the pictures dont really do it justice.
so you've to come over and see it for urself! (:
and i refuse to post up photos of the whole thing when it was done. XD


plus i painted my brother's room too!

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and faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
and farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
yeah I'm leaving today.
- running away, midnight hour


let's start a war.
against the invisible lies.
keep our blatant lives on the line.
cos i aint wanna go home.

its not very easy keeping this funny facade up.
wth, no one can recover in two minutes.

still,
with the pen in my hand,
i still have the ending unplanned.

its one thing to experience this rubbish.
but its another to view it from a third perspective.
to be accustomed to shit like this,
seems only possible only if a protecting wall is built.
but the higher the wall, the thicker the buffer.
this sudden realization,

makes everything come tearing down.



suddenly,

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

makes natasha all so listenable.


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all my life
i've prayed for someone like you
and i hope that you feel the same way too
yes, i pray that you do love me too
- all my life, kci and jojo

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oh fuck.
screwitscrewitscrewit.

just when i thought it was gonna work out.
iwanttobangthewindowsandfly.

plus, my music's not playing for more than 30sec.
oh, erm fudders.
its time to indulge, even if my fever's not going anywhere.


painting seems like a good idea.
its just to convince myself not to get new furniture.
tho i might probably insist on it.
new is good. change is prob good.

no emo/kiddy colours.
just green, grey, white and black.
fantastico. (:


gah.
i cant believe for one moment i thought it could be possible.
c'mon, what are the odds?
curses.

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suddenly.
time seems to stop and nothing matters anymore.
(:

if only you know.
and if only you'd say yes.

even if it may not be.
the presence is good enough.
(:

had my first consort practice today.
the songs were kinda intimidating.
cos suddenly all the glamourous high-energy songs are all gone.
gone too are the highly-popular composers.
skeptical at first, but still it all worked out.
somehow. (:


suddenly,
words left me.
it must be you.

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its funny how things turn out.
for both the better and the worst.
cos looking at the signs, suddenly for no apparent reason.
people are overly nice,
overly asking for my interaction and opinion.
i fear, that this is to make up for the decision.
that the answer is nil.

i told myself to already expect the worst.
but yet, it still doesnt seem like i've seen in its entirety.
as always, i must be fooling myself.
cos i've been dreaming of cloudless skies and gelato.

i can only imagine the only way out.
but i havent yet fully pictured what would happen if the otherwise should happen.
damn the optimistic thoughts.

damnit, i wouldnt mind the heated words.
if it means that i can go.
thats how much it means to me.

at least from now,
i should have learnt that being optimistic gets me nowhere.
ten full days maybe more.
grasp the emptiness guowei.


surprise dessert visit yesterday.
of course i was the one who provided the sweets.
but i've gotten sick of brownies. :/
plus my brother made a whole pan of it somemore.
i wouldnt have minded it if it had turned out a success.
but it didnt, i foresee empty calories hmpf.

random conversations are abound.
even if the place was werid with lights that refused to be switched on.
i thank, for the effort made to come all the way here. (:
cos otherwise i dont think i could have met up.

great company,
great talk.
suddenly, unglamness doesnt matter.
thanks bel/kai! :D

it was a sucky day before that.
(:


dont hope for the impossible.
maybe it takes time.
at the very least, dont give up hope yet.
i think i said too much.

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i know this is weird and koooky.
but i finished season four of simpsons!
funny stuff haha.

was suddenly nostalgic-esque today.
and decided to watch the elegance esplanade concert video again.
i never got over the cheesey name but yea.
yes i know,
the whole hand swinging thing.
i still try my very best to avoid that part.
but suddenly brought back so many memories.
when dancing suddenly became a chore,
cos we were made to perfect every of our moves.
but yet, it was still fun.


looking back on the many faces.
i suddenly start to recognise lots of faces.
both current and forgotten.
and how very expressive i was while singing hrrmms.

well,
supertrouper made a big impact.
like a sudden realization of sorts.
a personal thing so i guess i wont share. :/
not that i dont want to but yea.

plus i still get goosebumps.
and i cried like maaaaad on our very last sec4 performance at the esplanade.
seems how so many things have changed.
hairstyles, height, maturity.
and some have not,
like geekiness, sideparty-ish hairstyle (mine when my hair gets long-ish)

LIGHTS ARE GONNA FIND ME (:


take things slow.
you know you cant push it.
but take time to experience the process. (:

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was looking through my old photos.
and i realised how much everyone has grown.
tho my classic colgate smile has not disappeared.

amoeba anemone anonymous makes me laugh.
but every one needs to find their own nemo.
happy funny brightly coloured clownfish (:
cos then we can release our billions of little anemone polyp eggs.


i tink tanning at the pool is very chic.
damn my glasses
cos otherwise it'll be alrite to wear sunglasses.
then again, i can just wear the sunglasses and pretend that i have perfect eyesight (:
hmmpf.

at least i tan easily
so at least i got a little browner.
so i dont have to waste like four hours at the pool like some people hah.


sometimes,
even talking about the weather can seem interesting.
as long as its with the special nemo! :D

so let's talk about the weather!

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I KNOW!
i'll find myself a nice score to play hohohohooo.
assertive! :D

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ohmygawd.
i cant believe i'm procrastinating again.
ohkay, should the sun shine real brightly tomorrow,
i'll have a full and packed day for me tomorrow by myself YAYS.

well,
at the very least i should starting writing in that diary.
otherwise i'd have totally bought it for nothing eeps.
some sun will do me goooood! :D

gah.
i'm a ditz for dimples and facebook.
((:

aiiiz.
i need gelato from italy!
*prays*

speaking of coming days.
i need to go chinesenewyear shopping soon.
and to chop my hair off for something nicer like &*$^%&(&#
but its never gonna work out like always
still, it keeps me a little high for no particular reason hoho.

CHEERIOS! :D
tho the book that i just borrowed kinda put me off after the overload of fwords
after the first chapter.

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random group shot after choir.
oh and goodluck to eeeteee for his enlistment.
tho its too late and he'll never read this. :/

anyways,
choir was good.
very stress-relieving.
temporary loss of reality.
but its only for at most two hours.

sorry that i couldnt go for the gathering today.
but was far too tired anyways.
the trip was very interesting tho.
if it was meant to make me want to join?
it certainly succeeded.
almost decided to go ahead with the course.
i think i need time to mull over it.
but then again, given the time,
i'll probably just leave it to one side and not touch it.

sometimes i really admire how people can just go forth
and do whatever they want without a care.
call it a vision or a goal, whatever.
what happened to mine?

i've got lots of prayers to be answered.
and not all are good for me.
but i know what/how to prioritize at the very least.



oh.
but sputnik sweetheart by murakami
makes good reading.
despite its running theme of lesbians and its questionable book design.
at least it delves into the exploration of life's direction.


but if flirting fogs my troubles.
i definitely wouldnt mind it now. (:

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updated.
photoshoot on a friday.
well i tink it should be on a friday hah.
for the record, i brought 'son of a WITCH' along.
cos i still thot it was interesting.
but anyways, everyone kept thinking that i brought it along cos it sounds like 'son of a bitch'.
well, i'm far more intellectual for that ohkaay.
little did i know that while i was waiting for the others at the train station,
saffie's friend was sitting at the other end of the station.
weird but yeaa.

it was veryvery interesting i must say.
sneak peeks into firestations hah.
actually, there are really nice places in singapore.
just need to squint and look a little harder.

we should have more photoshoot hoho!



aggie's nineteenth on sunday.
mindcafe at boatquay.


baked mint/choc cupcakes.
pretty and green!
and i wasnt the one who added so many choc/ chips!

simple meal but filled with laughter.
honestly i havent laughed so much and so hard for ever so long.
cheap thrills of ugly dolls and taboo words. (:
honestly, i tink ugly dolls are real cute.
i just dont care whatever everyone else says.

i'm tempted to go to a departmental store to buy taboo now!
honestly, whatever rubbish that first pops into my mind just pops out.
hilarious laughters about flabby arms and future jobs as dinosaurs.
FUNNYLARH.
& i'm still chortling right here in front of my comp like a blazed idiot.

greatcompany
and boat quay makes for good camwhoring sessions!
kudos to innocent family-friendly fun.
plus i dont remember talking about scandalous or salacious things that should be censored.
which is usually covered by this bunch of erm uglydolls. (:


OH.
and yesterday's dinner was fun!
meeting random and notsoold seniors for goodnessknows how long ago.
but only trooped over after i finished baking my cookies.
which turned out erm weird cos apparently its not sweet enough.
so i'm stuck with forty over tasteless floury things to finish.
various and optimum *COUGH* positions were discussed.
and i've NO idea why. :/
suddenly feel small cos suddenly everyone is so old and all hah.
still, indeed veryvery nice to meet up with such interesting people hoho.

spatulas that are all over each other.
TSK.



*ohyea, i'm a total ditz for dimples. swoooooons!
careful if you've dimples, cos i might just eat you up hoho!

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i know.
procrastination!
damn the existence of that word.
otherwise i can still deny that i have it.

will blog long post.
about photoshoot and aggie's nineteenth

soon.




so much for getting high on quotes from grey's anatomy.
that's how desperate i've been getting from lack of grey's.
BOO!

'Christina: Why am I the one who gets hugged?

Alex: Because you are the ovarian sister.

Christina: Ovarian sister? Since when did the possession of ovaries become an insult?'

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had to create a new post.
tho its on the same day.
otherwise it'll make for messy reading.
actually, i tink its waay to messy to read if chunked into one.

a new year has come.
grown bigger, not that much taller nor heavier but more weary.
this year gave me plenty of extremes.
not in a good way anyhows.

no one said life was easy.
but cant it be a little more smoothsailing?
then i tell myself to count my blessings.
maybe someone is telling me that all i had achieved this year was good enough lessons to learn.

shrugs?
i dont know what to trust anymore.

i know i cant brood over the bad things
and fog out the good things that has happened for me.
friends, family, food on my table.
i thank the past year for them. (:

a new year to learn.
not knowing what to expect.
with an open mind,
and a shield to fight the challenges.


snake plus ox?
let's hope for the best.
but i'd never forget to dream.

academy of fine arts?
parents plus entrance test.
hope some more,
dream even more.

consort/italy?
let's get my life in order first.


too much.
now that i've lifted the fog.
or maybe its me who should step outside of this fog.
enough of childish nonsense.
maybe i'm made to thread on water.


on lighting things,

You Are Elmo

Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do! You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing. You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you. How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"

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