why make it strong to break it once again?

date: Friday, April 27, 2007
time:10:56 AM

well dang it..
there goes my heart.

there's goes another day.
cos syf is drawing mightymighty close.
naiteiru~
zoizoizoizoi~
watagumowa~
cos that better be my fav song for the next two weeks. (:

&
CONGRATS TO AJDANCE WITH GOLDWITHHONOURS (:

and i like my hair today.
cos it not messy
and the best thing is that i didnt even touch it to shape it.
its down but its just right.
fringe is niice (:
down but nice. (:
YEAYEA!
goodhairday makes guowei a happyboy. ((:

stupid gp blog refuses to let me edit the template.
RAWRS!

i've decided to exercise lots.
YESYES! :D
to prepare for ns (rriiiiight.)
i just want to bitch the stupid pe teacher that i can be hot and exercisey
even i spend like 100% of my time with the choir.

okaeokae.
we all need sporty merchandise as well.
i'm gonna find people to buy similar havianas together ((:
qingwen and zhengkai are the first so if there's anyone else
just let me know! :DD

& i'll go exercising carrying my crumpler
HOHOHO! (:
and i just realised that crumplers can actually carry alot more things that i thot.
and i keep wanting to make it smaller.
HAHA! :D

& choirconcert songs have been on looop for the whole day.
& i love it more and more.
i miss the concert.
even the psychotic costume changes.
& i like being in bass.

and an overdose of ghilbli songs
will brighten up anyday. (:

and i just realised that my mom didnt take my camera.
it has always be beneath on the barcounter.
RAWRS!

and speaking or bars.
i need booooooze.
cos now i'm legal.
eighteen that is ((:
shall drink classy and expensive drinks.
like stella artoir, which is reeally nice. (:
and i like dessert wine.
and CHAMPAGNE! :DD
gets me high and bubbly.

i wanna go horseback riding
in snowfields.
it has been like erm, 5-6 years since i did that.
LAKETAHOE (:

cos happy me
makes for happy other people. (:
making confidence. (:
SMILE~

"there wont be a farewell.
cos we'll never leave your hearts~"

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date: Thursday, April 26, 2007
time:10:07 AM

because i dont like it.
cos now's not the time.
when the landscape changes scene.
the fog takes over once again.
see?
its your fault.

mehmeh.
everyday,
i get irritated because i rant about nothing
at exactly the same computer in the library.

so much for my 2hr break.
when i realised that still so much to do.
lawson's pi (:
econs outline plus essay
chem tutorial which i totally hate
the time to eat cashews. (GAH!)
momo's geog mindmap

& poor yannyee is next to me
when i still owe her 365843759 chocolates.
ARGH (:
ohshit.
she's reminding me all about it.
shall get it by
erm,
sat.
& she managed to cure my idiot chinese thingy.
AHHH (:
YESYES!
no more weird fonts appearing in this space.
HAHAHA.
i knew i'll beat this computer.
well, yannyee anyways.

& longteng just woke up
so now yannyee wont disturb me about chocolates.
YAY! XDD

that pig.
HOHO. XD

okie i'm just trying to dig fun
of every single boring thang.
HOORAY FER ME. :D

must remind myself to buy the chocs on sat.

& my newfound library kakis
cindy&peiling.
at least i can get a leeeetle bit
however miniscule of work done.

smile guowei.
cos the rain has stopped. (:
till the emoingranting for another day.

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date: Wednesday, April 25, 2007
time:10:01 PM

will you ever get out.
when its you who trap yourself.
outside.

emodays.
because an uncertain answer awaits.
but i can only wait.
but how long?

if only you could think&feel that deep.
cos only one understands me.
but i'm still wishing its you.

i better brush up my theory skills
if i plan to even attempt to teach alan and zkai theory.
RAWRS!

& pe makes me tired.
its either my fitness has greatly deteriorated
or the track has grown longer.
i'm quite sure its the latter.
shall plan to skip the next 466589380 pe sessions.
& make the teacher so mad with my lack of mcs
that he'll spend half the period talking abt responsibility.
i seriously dont mind.

see?
i'm the savior for morning pe sessions.
BIIIGSMILES (:

but seriously,
what's there to smile about.
when the journey is still long.

but then.
i think too much.
the world may not be as dreary as i thot.

the dream keeps me going.
every race,
every trudge.
to keep me hoping
& waiting.

its tiring this job.
but i'm willing to do it.
cos as long as i still hold on.
it'll turn out right.

smile guowei.
cos you know there still is hope.
as long as you presevere.
you're stronger than that.
smile~

but i stop,
& wait.
to listen to the chorus of the raindrops.

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date: Tuesday, April 24, 2007
time:5:10 PM

because we let our dreams fly.
away~

because guowei misses,
male chorus.
& choir concert~

MUCHLOOVE.
FOR MY EIGHTEENTH ((:

for the multitude of presents.
the midnight messages
the random hugs & shaking of hands.
the well&birthday wishes
the love. (:
that's just too much to thank for.
in more ways than one.
BIGSMILES ((:

rahhs.
for my camera not being with me.
otherwise i could've taken a big pic of my presents. (:
but thanks fer the
arty cat toy
the questionable table lamp (of which i still havent turned it on yet)
laykuan's tigger mug
ding's notebook&cookies
bestie's jug of stars (:

& the many more that's coming. ((:
cos there's still a billybombers treat i'm waiting for.
HOHO!

my blessed eighteenth. (:

so much for grey skies.
tho they keep my spirits up.
& the classrooms/lts freezing.
because my mind was preoccupied.
told others that today was a bad day.

yes.

because i binge.
cos i'm upset.
i know i will do it.
to eat and eat and eat.

am tired.
to stop playing hide&seek.
would you know.
to ever come across.

stop dreaming.
dont stop.

stop guowei stop.
you know that you have to.
i cant.

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date:
time:9:33 AM

& so the rest of the day continues.
maybe the world might brighten up.
full of maybes.
but mebbe that's what the world's about.
preettyplease for guowei.

because you made me cry.
thru that starless night.

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date:
time:9:06 AM

because i asked myself.
whether it could possible come true.
at first i kept faith.
and prayed.

maybe i should have expected this in the first place.
that i'm already blessed to talk.
even only once.
that wide spectrum of emotions.
how could i say what i couldnt?

maybe it never turned out that way.
maybe it may never light up again.
maybe it'll just stop here.
maybe i should have known from the start.

but then again,
what wrong should i have said.
what lies could i have told.
i think you knew
but there was no confirmation.

i certainly hope for more.
something else to take root.
but then.
i still clung on.

but i'm losing sight.
i would still stay right by.
because it cant turn worse.
hopefully.
maybe right for me,
maybe right for the other.

but its up to you.
and you'll never read this.

& the clouds turn grey again.
for the stork takes its first flight.

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date: Tuesday, April 17, 2007
time:5:45 PM

voyaje: a new journey begins.

embrace our stage. for it belongs to us
theandersonjuniorcollegechoir (:

because basses rock my world. (:
so what if we sing the lowest notes.
they cant do without the manly us. (:

because performing at esplanade is simply just us. (:

yeap.
so the twentythree songs for concert is over.
but i'm missing it like crazy.
alot. ):

i want to sing gobi againandagainandagain.
plus plenty of lux aurumque and hopefully a little ghibli.
and my kites are all given away.
one with kane, zhengkai, joey and tingx.
rahhs.
should have never given it away.
now i wont get the motivation to skip school to make more kites.
HAHA.
but honestly.
i've lost the motivation to make more kites. ):

MUCHLOVE&THANKS (:
to
yong.
ding.
kauns.
zhao.
farhana.
alvina.
hang.
rachel.
qianyu.
fangbiHEH.
darren.
jiahui.

for the flowers. (:
the multitude of chocs. ((:
and for those people who slept in the concert and snored through songs.
but its okie.
cos we sang well.
and our songs are nicenice (:
muchlooove for peeps who came.
and stayed. :D

ajchoir <3
'cos we showed what we're made of. (:

freeconeday. (:
when icecream isnt a sin.
for once.
in hope.

yays for b&j icecream peeps.
and i ate one cone tho.
cookie dough (:
and i just couldnt afford another one.
not like certain people who totally tried all the flavours.
TSK. :D

congrats to cathighchoir with GOLDWITHHONOURS. (:
great job guys.
gave me the chills with pamugun.

only one goal left.
with two side quests.

just grin and bear it.
and so the horses run free.

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date: Thursday, April 12, 2007
time:1:17 PM

the end of the rainbow bridge. (:

yes.
i took that pic on festoflife day.
i still remember walking with karen to assembly and i saw hat pretty rainbow.
though my picture made it turn a little wispy.
surprisesurprise.
there can be a rainbow in aj.

and it has been long since the last time i saw a rainbow in the sky (:

okie.
i'm walking on brightbright sunshine. ((:
cos i've finished making the koikites ((:
nice shades of red, purple, blue and green.
my mom was against me using yellow cos then it would look too primary colours.
and cos i promised myself that i'd only blog after i finished my kites.

ohdrats.
i cant upload the pics here cos my camera just went out of batt.
and i cant find my charger.
grr.
NEVERMIND.
those who want to see shall have to go to ajchoir concert. :DD
cant tell too much about the concert here.
otherwise no one would go. XD

lil psycho me is freaking out concert.
FREAKOUT!
yea, and everytime i say that it keeps reminding me of that similarlynamed song.
freakoutfreakoutfreakout.
i can go at it for hours.
but freaky dreams are scary.
with billowy hebrew cloth curtains,
conducting from the audience.
the worst being forgetting to wear the hebrew robes.
i'll literally breakdown and cry if that happens.
either i'm stressed or i'm freakingout.
i'll take the latter.

happiness is festoflife
in the glass mosiac workshop.
and everything looks better from far away.
and i dont like it when people try to turn my piece upside down and end up spoiling it when they put it on a mural.
they should just give us individual frames to put.
RAHHS.
but nevermind.
at least i still have the nicenice pics. (:
i tink it looks nicenice (:
thanks to darren, shirley and peiqi for the company in the workshop (:

stupid mural. ):

FREAKOUT
forconcert.
pray that everything goes well.
and that everything will be perfect.
in a nice&nice way.
cos everyone has put in so much.
music shall be nice. :D
costumes will be nice. :D
choreo will be nice. :D

that's all i ask for.
but then again,
that's basically everything.

so much for tearing
for fond memories and crazy times.
we should organise a mass crying session ((:

when nothing happens.
what's the use of trying.

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date: Sunday, April 08, 2007
time:8:44 PM

when shadows run wild.
would i follow mine?

random musings of another dimension.
b&j free cone day coming reeeaaal soon.
and its all happening on the day after our concert.
((:

i shall arrange a b&j outing that day.
BIGSMILES.

and i have finished making one koinobiri.
and it looks nice.
or so i hope.
and we shall make the guy's choreo nice (:

only the concert to look fwd to.
and to talk to you.
cheers to ghibli songs ((:

ALANYEHYUANKWEI must go for my choir concert.
LOLS XD

april babies rock.
though the buying of presents dont really rock
but 21st APRIL is a gooooood day (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ORANGEY XIANNYHUII. :D
may your days be flooded by orange juice and ur specs be painted orange so everything you see would be orange (:

to dream again. (:

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date: Tuesday, April 03, 2007
time:4:21 PM

when would you know its time for your way out?

its only 13 more days to concert.
its seriously freaking me out.
the whole costume comm and the sound.
just the whole damn thing.
promised myself that i wont talk about it here.

but.
just a little.
a little indulgence.
like that whole bag of choc chip cookies.

there's no use moping about.
the only way is up.
sure,
we'll need time
but feeling sorry and whiny to yourself isnt going to help,
anything nor anyone.
slap it in the butt and move.
SNAP.
cos its just gotta get better.
better then staying stagnant and doing the minimum.
i've been through it.
we just got to break that surface and shine.
its our time.

no more believing and dreaming and hoping.
its about getting to do it.
start now.

there we go.
i'm a happy and satisfied boy now. (:
thanks for alan who listened to my crap. :D
things will work out fer me.
BIGSMILES (:

shall sit myself down to do work.
of all people my tuition teacher inspired me. (:
no more whiny me,
(for at least awhile)
and i like talking on rainy days up at the choir room.
raaaaain (:
the wet watery one that is.

cos it makes the weather cool
and totally sleep worthy. (:

i shall buy candy soon and give everyone one
in return for the 265458267 people who gave me.
oh its 265458268 because fangbi gave me yumyum peanut choc on sun (:
hope tha saunter monsters would be able to go choir choir concert!
BIGSMILES (:

yes.
shall complete my math tutorial.
memorise gobi even more thoroughly
and ghibli.
shall be productive.
and maybe even squeeze in some convo time.
if its possible (:

and pray that i dont embarrass myself anymore,
by banging into random teachers of which i think i stepped on her toes.
and the loud rasps of laughter of mavisgohkunlin.
RAWRS!

and a sidenote:
congrats for cathigh chineseorchestra for getting the coveted GOLDWITHHONOURS!

cos that little is enough for you to brighten my day (:
if only you knew.

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date: Monday, April 02, 2007
time:2:36 PM

the light.
however miniscule.
still waxing lyrical about coloured rain
and sullen rainbows.

when time stops.
i'll let you know.

everyday.
in hope that something better might come along.
i should do something about it.
even if the sun refuses to shine.

the rush of something.
that brings a flush.
that exhilaration.
its been long.

beautiful stripes. (:
separating that thin line between two colours.
simple but impactful.
and it makes me smile (:

to stand up for love.
<3

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yawns