sori for all those who kept pestering me to update. been a little out of sorts and that has caused a very irregular sleeping times especially during this long weekend. (what holiday?) but it was fantastic considering the things that i did.

yupp, went for my brother's baptism at SFX last night. was initally reluctant to go because i might end up seeing people whom i didnt want to see. a superficial reason but i guess i just didnt feel comfortable. but it was a 180degree turn from what i expected it to be. familiar hymms rang by, forcing me to dig in a void that i thought i had successfully disposed of. however, it made me appreciate the past even more. sat with my parents, my two aunts and my cousin, but was still a little uncomfortable after a while. but the processions and hymms sung cooled my apprehension. (except for the male soloist :x) it was heartwarming to see my brother going up to be baptised with his godpa, to see start off a new journey of his life with a new name and a new faith.

saw alot of familiar faces that night. it was really nice to see them again.. i thought that the meeting would have been awkward and strained but it turned out just fine. it was really nice to see old friends whom i havent met up with in a long time. the changes are so stark that i almost could recognise him. but i realised that it is not that we havent had the chance to meet, we always had the opportunity to seeing the close link between our brothers. i guess we've just been procrastinating in meeting up or just much too busy with our lives. but i'm just glad to see you so happy and involved in your life. :) it was nice to see you again..

auntie margaret said so much towards her finding herself towards the service of God. it somehow made me very inspired. i'm still at this point of my time where i'm still finding myself so naturally, if there is a road that is paved in front of me, i would be inclined to take this path. i'm still considering. but she told me to just find out more about what i believe in and where my faith would lie. but if such that i feel that my service were be in God, she would be there to help me find my way. its not that i'm definitely going to be heading in that direction but that i'm taking my time and considering.

Amen

Almáre Linda [el-mary lin-da]

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