its been a long time since i blogged so here goes nothing..

feeling very fustrated today. some people say that over this two days, yesterday and today, i've been dragging my feet around looking very listless. well, i just have this immense bag of problems raised on top of my head and its adding weight to my steps. i guess you just happen to catch a little glimpse of what i'm feeling. but i will survive and i wont raise the white flag of surrender. problems are just a passing trial that is imprinted on my path. i'm not gonna stop and wait for someone to save me. God helps those who help themselves. and i'm going to help myself. God will make a way when there seems to be no way. but its up to me to make the first step out of this quicksand. hmm.. i'm just walking in circles comforting myself. if you really wanna help, when u see me around school, give me a smile to let me know you care. it helps.. :)

[DISCLIAMER: IF YOU FIND CHORAL SINGING BORING OR IS ABSOLUTELY RUBBISH TO YOU, PLEASE SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH. IT WILL BORE YOU!]

haiz.. i'm so upset bcos i lost my voice today. zkai's curse yesterday on my voice did indeed work. (evil pig!!) but its not the normal type of voice hoarseness bcos my normal voice still sounds ok but i tink i tried too hard. i tried competing in the absolute high notes but nothing came out. i was so shocked bcos it seemed to be an overnight thing as the day before i was still singing that note. haiz.. so sad. den all the people around me kept reaching higher and higher notes. so diu1 lian3. the worse thing was after that we were singing in quartet position and i pushed myself too hard bcos there was this very pro soprano next to me that kept giving perfect clear notes. and huiting was standing next to me so i kept pushing myself to sing louder and louder. and the worst things were that malcolm was directly opposite me so he would know if i happen to sing wrongly or catch me laughing and that mark tan was just next to me so he could hear my singing very clearly. very stress. den huiting suddenly asked me to change wif her so she could hear the pro soprano to catch her notes so i ended up standing next to xianhui. and i found out that she's not the president of cedar choir for nothing. she's quite good, her alto voice is very pure and is very pleasant to listen to. standing next to her gave me even more stress. in the end, i ended up shutting up and only hitting the lowest notes. haiz.. i'm such a failure.

but its ok! for tomorrow's practice i shall buck up so i can sing really nicely for practice.
btw, sori michelle! its not that i'm scared of you, its just that we purposely made a quartet (me, zkai, xian hui and huiting) so we wanted to stand together. i'm not scared of you lar.. haha.

anyway, the four of us shall fight with the music com so we can b together for the single quartet singing. bcos we are so procative and are taking the initiative. we shall previal! let's fight for our rights, (insert lame name for our quartet group)!

hmm.. i suddenly feel so much better after talking and ranting about today's events. my problems are all gone now and so is my headache! blogging does help. :p

tomorrow shall be a fantastic and fantabulous day! God bless all..

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