i'm so sick of everything.. yups, just came back from the 2nd day of 'school' life in aj.. will explain more later, just let me vent all my fustrations out first..

look people, can you all just stop judging me? i am just absolutely sick and tired of prentending to be who i am. yes, i am very unpredictable at times, extremely friendly, getting pissed with everyone i see, sulking in a corner. i dont deny that sometimes i am very hard person to deal with but i'm not like that all the time.. i do have times when i am extremely accomodating and will get serious when the time arises. i'm sure zkai knows just who exactly i am.. in fact most of the time i am extremely accomodating, whatever task i'm given to do, i would do it wholeheartedly and give my all.. thats why if you see all my proposals that i hand up, its never in a slipshod condition.. yes i do not deny that i am shy when it comes to meeting new people for the first time, and yes i do work better when people approach me but the other way around, i go a little shy and seemingly dao.. you may have gotten the wrong side of it and maybe sometimes it will seem as if i am being rude or obnoxious but i'm not. it's just a flaw that i have in me.. i tend to squirm and speak as if i am a little mouse (literally).. but if the time arises and urgency calls for it, yes, i do break all barriers and go out of my comfort zone.. however, these things do not come often.. but since i have arrived at a new stage of my life into a new world and a new level of maturity, i know that i would have to move on and step out of my comfort zone because only then can i achieve great things, but please give me some time, baby steps are still after all steps.. :p

please only judge me for who i am, only when you know me well enough. i dont want to paint a smile on my face anymore but to be myself..

yes, i attempted to make the first move not because of any ulterior motives but to sincerely make friends.. i was pleasantly surprised upon seeing ur side of sensitivity and your overwhelming passion for the things you love. you and i were similar in such things.. yes i do idolise you to a certain extent because you were able to do the things that i had never been able to do though i'm still trying, juggle all the things to do with one hand and still have another hand to dance with. :p


in case you missed it, i smiled and said hi..
(in case you think i'm talking abt you, it probably is you) >.<

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