
guowei
taurus
all i do is sing and scoop
date: Wednesday, May 04, 2005 today is so horribly humid.. the morning left many gasping for aircon and i realized that the air outside was actually cooler than that of the classroom despite the sun shining promisciously over the world.. its just so eww.. by the time i walked to my doorstep, i was practically dripping in pespiration.. :p todae's really humid, and the day really left me hot and bothered..
during contact time today, PE talked to me about someone and tried to talked me into 'thrashing things out' with somebody.. i was shocked that she actually knew about this matter.. but it was dutifully told by a parent.. wow, it is so interesting to find out that such things actually do happen outside the television box.. to think that it had spread so far, looks like someone's 'sociability' with teachers have not gone to waste.. i am shocked.. but i still stand firm to my rights, and will not give in under pressure, i am made of much harder stuff.. i trust my instincts and i will not falter.. i am surprised.. i should have believed in what someone saw.. my forgiveness blinded my sight, but i have finally seen through your cloak of 'pretentiousness' and torn it open.. i was tricked by your words and was fooled to believe that you wanted to help.. well, i know now.. you have fooled me for such a long time and you are not going to get away with it.. i tried to act as if nothing has happened but i am boiling with rage inside.. you have always seen my calm and docile side but you will not live to see the full extent of what i can do.. i am thoroughly shaken by your betrayal and awed that how you had managed to fool me for such a long time.. i was wrong to have trusted you.. you have betrayed my trust and you will never get it back.. serves you right.. i have laid low and not commented about my side.. i have allowed others to assume the wrong side of the story and have done nothing about it.. i am not scared to let others assume who i am not but i have better things to do than handle such frivolous matters that waste my time.. but its not going to happen again.. my heart has turned cold, dont blame me for it, you can only blame yourself.. we are now like the rocks below the edge of a cliff, the jagged and unforgiving spears standing defiantly to the constant, violent crash of the sea.. we are ready to stand up and face for whatever that happens next.. BRING IT ON! |