just felt the need to blog
to dispense that long previous entry.

day after week of submission,
and it feels good to wake up fresh(er) for school.
was given work to do for the rest of this week,
and i'm all too lazy to print out the handouts.

hmms, it almost feels like the holidays already.

oops got distracted looking at lomo cameras online.
i'm tempted to get a fisheye!
either that or i want to get a new digital camera hmms.
though it didnt seem that long ago when i got my last one,
its totally obsolete compared to the models available now.
which reminds me, i need to buy films for the trip end of this year!
and hopfully i get rent or borrow a decent digital camera with enough pixels to capture the beauty of salt lake city.

so quite excited,
though i wont be spending christmas in singapore.
this is probably the first christmas spent overseas,
and most likely literally over the sea cos i might be flying through christmas!
that isnt something to be excited about bah.

ohwells,
bothered or not to be bothered.
seemingly juvenile yet a peek at what the future would be.
sighh, hongkong this weekend.
dimsum here i come!

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'it was the third regional championships. it was like the emerald city to my yellow brick road.'
'wow, you actually made ice-skating sound gayer.'
-modern family

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i'm glad submission is over.
this is probably one of the times that i actually could wait for it to be over.
it has been a tough week, very tough week.
twelve hours (plus two hours) of sleep actually made everything seem a little better.

halloween was indeed fun,
i'm glad i got to spend it with the great people at work.
in my opinion, i thought the dressing up was definitely a success!

for the rest of the week,
it was probably dismal at best.
major argument w/ parents,
and let's just say its something i dont want live though this again.
i admit i'm in the wrong,
but bringing these overwhelming unfinished problems to light,
i was definitely at breaking point.

following submission,
i guess i finally understand when some people say that
its like a buffer to problems.
almost sadistically, its like a drug to stop thinking of things.

thinking back, maybe this ultimatum will work for me.

decided to take a break from work this month.
truth be told, sometimes i'm using work for escape.
a drug that i keep going back time and time again.
the satisfaction that i once enjoyed may just be a disguise to the fatigue that i'm getting now.
despite being given the green light again,
in the fit of indignation and quick decision,
i decided to give myself time to breathe again and open my eyes to something new.

lunched with shaunny yesterday after submission,
but that was after getting lost in braddell.
i'm definitely having the macbook blues,
sent it for repair and i would probably only get it late next week.
argh, the horror of now being chained to a desk facing a desktop.
now watching shows in the comfort of my bed is impossible.

dino's for laksa and icekimmoo where i succumbed to calories.
and i keep telling myself that post-submission calories do not count at all.
somehow, all these 'energy-giving' food will make up for the lack of sleep.
but it came to a point while eating my waffle that the lazy afternoon sun was hurting my eyes.
sleeping for an hour or two makes your eyes grow incredibly small and sensitive to sunlight.
i mean crazily so, seriously!

talked and talked.
sometimes its only when people bring out your issues,
then you take time to realize what you've been hiding or running away from.

i'm almost lost with this expense of time,
that weekends are finally days for healing and self-reflection.
it came to a point just now that i slept for an hour or two just to tell myself that i'm not waking early.
if you dont understand, its okay hahaha.

michael jackson later tonight,
will see if it lives up to the reviews.
but for now lunch, then bigbang theory, cougartown, gossipgirl, how i met your mother, modern family, antm, projectrunway and finally grey's anatomy.
just to catch of the shows i missed this week.

damn i watch too much telly.

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a friday to myself,
feeling rather weird that i'm not working.

day of baking,
not too successful in my opinion.
but then again, maybe i was too adventurous.

suddenly i found myself at a loss with what i wanted to say.

dinnered with the family on a friday,
in fact i kind of miss it.
dont you love it when it rains,
the sound of rain when it hits the ground,
knowing that the weekend is ahead of me.

i'm amazingly excited for halloween!
though i'm working, i'll be working with fab people.
and i might possible be seeing classmates dressed up.
oh gawd, i'm veryvery excited, i just hope i dont get too tired!

and after this, its school work all the day.
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i think this is probably my most favourite scene from the movie.
something about a bed, tumling between pillows on a chilly autumn night
that makes love seem so innocent and believable.

funny how i never saw us like that,
maybe i did and i forced myself not to.
because you never seem to see us that way.

i must be mad, i dont even want to know how much i spend.
thats what you do when you have the afternoon off school,
you go to town and you spend bah.
thinking about it, i nearly spent another hundred plus today.
luckily i didnt relent and ended up buying essentials for like, sixteen bucks?

seeing that i'm keeping my days free for the next two days,
i better get on down to do the things i've been wanting to do.
which basically boils down to getting some exercise first of all and of course schoolwork.
then again, schoolwork should come first for me.
seriously, what am i thinking?

thursday: schoolwork, maybe a run, confirming recipes, cutting decorations, meetup at dempsey for dinner
friday: schoolwork, bake, possible dinner if baking is done
saturday: halloween!

and after that, its schoolwork all the way.
i have no excuses for procrastination anymore.

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its the voice of hope, its the voice of peace,
its the voice of every man.
from a distance we all have enough,
and no one is in need.
-bette midler

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from a distance,
everything seems to look okay.

from a distance,
everything seems alright.
and it churns inside, bubbling bubbling away.

there are so many things i'd want to share,
so many things i wish you'd say.
there's no point waxing lyrical about you,
cos for all i know, the dramatic outburst might just be what i predicted.
they say i make love seem difficult, i say i make things easier for you.

longlong day,
i thot i might have enjoyed this day.
sure enough it might have been worse,
but sitting through talks one after the other makes my bum and mind sore.
definitely beats sitting in front of the moniter trying to work out my loose ends.
impossible and not planning to do any better argh.

early dinner with howe mummy after getting my overalls.
(yes i got them at an unruly price imo so it better be worth it)
i'm officially satisfied my thai cravings for another two weeks,
had em for lunch and now dinner.
quite full even though had dinner bout 3-4 hours ago,
but my mouth is itchy to put something in.
nom nom nom.

to a busy weekend,
to tie up loose ends for schoolwork.
monday, monday i will try again.
rooting for the best, but expecting the worst.

mumbles incoherently.

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i dont know what to say, really.
dont pull me up just to see me fall.

spare me and tell me we're not gonna make it,
i can take what you can give.

i just dont want to keep my hopes up,
spend so much time and effort just to be thrown like a rag doll.

i'm tired,
and i had the time of my life.
just so you know, the night was perfect.

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peiyong says i've to look scary for halloween,
so i'll have to look like that?!

bah, went down to haji to find the second hand shop,
but cant seem to find it.
why does it have to close down at this time?!

at the very least,
i'm done with my last few shots of slide film.
which means i need to spend again to buy new film and develop photos.
damn the middle of the month when i'm high and dry again.

okay looking through martha's website,
and i'm done deciding what does into the halloween goodie bag this year!
similar but it'll be replacing the pumpkin brownies i made last year.

now considering, whether i should get em overalls.
35 bucks for one night? arghhh.

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